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是/非

2011-04-11T18:34:00.002+08:00

记得以前考试时，最喜欢的就是是非题了。

因为那是最容易回答，最省时间，而且又最容易拿分的。

小孩子的世界就是那么单纯，只有对或错。。可以不假思索地就把答案毫不犹豫地填下去。

很少会出现灰色地带。

现在的考试，就算是是非题，也不是可以在短短几秒内就可以回答得到的。

因为对大人来说，是非题是最需要时间思考才能回答的，而且一旦错误，会是很严重的失分。

这就是小孩子和大人的分别吗?

成长的过程中，

遇见的人和事不断在增加，

思想不断在改变，

原则不断在被动摇，

态度不断在转变。

在成长的过程中，总是免不了会有迷失自己的时候吧。

那应该是没什么大不了的，因为那只是更认识自己的一个过程而已。

而且啊，我发现，这个过程是不断地在被循环，不断地在重复发生。

某天，你迷失了在自己人生的十字路口，不知该往哪儿走。

某天，你决定了自己的方向，以为你找到了自己。

然后某天，你又再度地迷失了自己。。

不停地对人生充满希望，然后失望，沮丧，之后又充满希望，接着不小心失望，沮丧。。

就算是如此，也没什么好害怕的啦。。都只是一个过程而已:)

长大后，本以为已经累积了些人生经验，所以要做决定时会更简单，更容易。其实恰恰相反。。

有时，这些人生经验反而让自己更害怕去做决定。

但是，这始终是要自己去克服的，因为这已经被定为人生必上的其中一课了。。

是否成人的世界背后总有残缺?

我走在每天必须面对的分叉路。。

我怀念过去单纯美好的小幸福。。

爱总是让人哭，让人觉得不满足。。

天空很大却看不清楚。。

好孤独。。

以前对这首歌没什么感觉，只是觉得它好听而已。。但是最近听到时，总有些能体会词义所要表达的意思。。

小孩时期的我们，总能很明确的明白自己要什么，然后怎样都会为自己争取那些东西。

不管是哭到天翻地覆也好，吵到家里要倒了也好。。:P

现在连自己想要的是什么都不知道，更不用说去追求的动力咯。

不同的阶段，就有不一样的动机和想法去追求自己想要的东西。

只有靠自己，才能真正懂得自己要的是什么。。

所以啊。。把事情尽量简单化，寻回最初的自己吧。。加油!!!:)

永恒 VS 变化

2011-04-11T00:59:00.008+08:00

在这个微妙的世界，基本上没有什么事情是永恒不变的。

要很早明白这个道理，你才懂得要如何在这个世界生存。

早些对事情释怀，早些得到解脱，从而学会豁达看待你的人生。

很多在当下看来是件很难接受的事情，到了以后的某一天，你回头一望，就会发现其实。。

没什么大不了的:)

不要埋怨不如意的事情发生在你身上，因为我相信，每一件发生在我们身上的事情，都带有一定的意义。。不管那些事情曾经带给了我们多少的伤心，痛苦。

毕竟，不痛过，哪能痛快的活着? 虽然曾经不明白一些事情的发生，但到最后，我总觉得那些痛苦的事情所带给我的启发与意义都是很好的。

所以，我很感谢这些不如意事情的发生，它让我更了解自己，更明白这个世界的生存之道。

在这方面，我心存感恩:)

我不相信永远，因为实在太遥远。

有句话说‘计划永远赶不上变化’，所以很多事情无需执着。

享受这一秒的快乐就好，因为我们永远无法预测下一秒事情会发生什么变化。。

大家，是时候清醒咯。。

活在当下，做个快乐的自己吧!^^

特别的假期

2011-03-18T19:24:00.011+08:00

有好多想要分享的事情在之前都没有时间写出来。。
有时间了，但是又没有感觉要写出来了。。真是的。。人啊。。我啊。。
算了吧，那些事情，只能在对的时候再与对的人分享了，嘻嘻。
这次的假期异常特别。。因为我竟然没有回家!!!!
哈哈。。有别于以往，我拥有整个星期的假期但是竟然没有回家咯。。
朋友问。。为什么你没有回家啊。。
首先的反应会是先愣了一下，然后胡乱回答。。因为我自己也不是很清楚为什么没有回家。。
家人问。。没什么没有回家啊。。
我就会很‘官方’地回答。。因为要做功课啊。。有experiment要做啊。。没关系啦。。还有一个月就可以回家了啊。。哈哈。。
真的是与以前冲第一个回家的我不一样了。。hmm。。我也不是很肯定答案是什么啦。。
有些人会明白的。。:)
虽然留下来要做实验是真的啦。。但还是等到了假期的尾声才开始做。。哈哈。我觉得我很正常咯。。是个绝对，100%正常的‘典型学生’:P
很享受这个假期。。因为在这个假期之间的两三个星期都是另一种‘典型学生’的生活。。醒来。。读书。。吃饭。。读书。。吃饭。。读书。。睡觉。。醒来。。
如此这般这般地重复。。嘻嘻。也好，就因为有着这种‘典型学生’地生活，我现在才能好好享受着另一种'典型学生'生活。。XP
虽然就剩那几天而已。。但是我还是很想好好地享受咯。。管他咯。。开心开心就好。哈哈。
昨天是个非常，特别，独特的一天。。享受，开心到不行。
首先要谈我的车子。。竟然在某晚回来之后爆胎。。!本人生平第一次遇到这种事情。。也不错啦。。总是需要遇过一次来拿经验的嘛，蛮庆幸是现在就遇到咯。。至少还有人能帮助我。。哈哈。

My Brother wif me^^

说到这个，就不得不提我要感谢的人。。亲爱的豪哥哥。。还有薇薇姐姐的哥哥。。Khim。。哈哈。他们在晚上十一点多这样子还来到我的宿舍帮我换胎。。虽然没有很远啦，但是很感谢他们的出现。。让我可以解决问题。。

可爱的是，他们两个还是第一次换轮胎呢。。哈哈。感恩!!!:)

隔天，我就把车驾到车店去补胎咯。。很不错的一次经验。。那个人很好噢，还帮我把后备轮胎补风。。又不贵哦，爽!!!哈哈。。

这个假期虽然没有到哪里去旅行。。但还是有些很难忘，很有回忆的事情被我们创造了。嘻嘻。。
首先。。就是去到sungei wang看倪安东。。哈哈。重点是我竟然把车驾到那边去哦，完全没想过我有这样子的勇气。。哈哈。很感谢那天一切顺利。。虽然我没有很疯他，但是到现场时还真的是被他动听的声音和美丽的脸孔给电到了。。哈哈。:P 但是，我很冷静哦，竟然没有买他的专辑。。哈哈。。

Red Box-The Gardens ^^

再来就是阿岚(Stephanie)的生日咯。。虽然她大概猜到我们会送她什么礼物了，但我相信她还是很开心的咯。。相信好的方面就好。。哈哈。

The Curve^^

她生日当天，我们到ONE U还有the curve去。。美中不足的是我们‘少了一个人’。。就是roti ong 咯!!!不用紧啦，我们有照片可以给她看。。但她会更加气吧?:P
我们在one U时遇见了王仁甫耶。。但是没有追上去咯。。因为我遇见他时，以为只是遇见了跟他很像的人而已。。知道朋友们都说是他了，我才敢确定，哈!
晚上就去the apartment用晚餐。。非常开心，享受到。。不能顶的一餐。。哈哈!!!

Pin, Stephanie & me ^^

过后还去吃baskin robbin叻。。那天不知道是否太兴奋了，平常都舍不得吃的，但竟然那晚就吃了!!!哈哈。。
另外一个在这个假期很经典的事情是。。与朋友们一起在secret recipe聊了近三个小时多!!都是聊些小时候的趣事，恐怖电影。。非常享受的一天!!!哈哈。很珍惜这样子的时光。。永远不会再有像当时那样的心情，感受了。。所以一定会小心翼翼地珍藏在心底。。直到我还有意识的那一天。。:)
最近这两天都超过两点才睡觉。。非常有型。。然后又睡到爽爽，够够才醒。。哈哈。。很享受这样子的放肆。。:P
要开学咯。。其他人都陆陆续续回来咯。。又要回到‘正常’学生的生活咯。。
大家。。要加油啊！！！
我相信我的日子不会很难过咯。。因为我有你们的支撑。。我相信我一定能走下去!!!!
对啦，就是你们啦:)
基本上剩下来的时间也不是很多啦。。所以我会很珍惜。。^^
大家。。加油啊！！:)

PS:日本的人们。。要加油哦。。我真心祈祷，希望，但愿一切很快就能雨过天晴。。从这件的事情，我又得到另一种启示。。要珍惜身边的任何一个人，就算只是在我的生命中擦肩而过的一个。。因为我们永远不知道下一秒会发生什么事情。。感谢生命中，遇见，发生的一切吧。。因为都是独一无二的。。我很希望时间能永远停在大家都很开心的那一刻。。不知道如何表达。。但是。。我珍惜你们。。家人。。朋友。。:)

态度

2011-02-01T00:39:00.005+08:00

最近看了好几部贺岁片，都觉得蛮不错看一下的，要看第二次，也不是问题。嘻嘻。。
因为，我就看了‘天天好天’两次。第一次，是与朋友一起看；第二次，是与家人一起看的。
同样一部戏，与不一样的人看，就有不一样的感觉。刚开始，觉得要看这戏第二次时，认为应该是没有什么惊喜了吧，但事实上却不尽如此。因为，我仍然觉得它很好笑，很好看。:)
每部戏都有自己的特色，值得推荐大家一看。
天天好天: 蛮有感动的故事情节的，虽然我没有看到泪流满面啦，但总是有眼眶泛泪的。就是在差那一点点，我的泪泉就一触即发了，哈哈。好夸张。。
笑着回家: 偏向搞笑的方面多一些，没怎么感动的画面浮现在脑海里。但是，真的很印象深刻的是，这片4896..48好笑！哈哈。。
新少林寺: 这片基本上与新年扯不上任何关系。但是却是让我觉得非常感动的一部片。对我来说，它感动的程度就不只是泪水在眼眶里打转而已，而是突出了重围，潇洒地流了下来。。哈哈。可能有些部分触及到人性的部分，让我看了有些感叹吧。这包括了人性的害怕，自私，贪婪。。虽然谈及了人性丑恶的部分，但是它也说到了人性值得被期待的一面。。那就是无畏地给予帮助，付出，甚至牺牲也在所不惜。
现今的社会不也是如此吗?
同样身为人类的我们，就是喜欢争这个，争那样，到头来两败俱伤。争不到，满脑子就是盘算着如何算计他人以达到目的;争到后，却不甘愿，非要把事情搞得一败涂地方休。
这部片可算是蛮写实的，去看了就明白我说些什么了。但是，我没有commission的哦，哈哈。
再过两天就是新年咯，好开心。。满是期待，兴奋，却又希望时间不要过得那么快。。因为种种的原因啦。。不想面对现实啊。。等。
好想问一句。。:时间能停在这一刻吗?
永远不要为这种已经知道答案的问题给答案。。因为那会破坏我的幻想:P
昨晚是超级星光大道7的决赛哦，因为与姐姐出去，结果错过了看直播。:(
但没关系啦，科技发达，还是有办法看的。^^
已经知道结果是如何的，但还是非常想看，因为过程比结果重要嘛。更何况结果还是预料得到一些的XP
基本上，自从星光3后，我就没再怎么追看星光了。但是上个假期，机缘巧合下，看见astro播出了星光7,觉得阵容很不错，就一直追到现在。觉得很有眼福咯，因为这一届果真是强而又看头!哈哈。。
更何况是有马来西亚的选手，还有两个那么多咯，总是要支持支持一下的嘛，嘻嘻。
非常地以星光7的冠军--李佳薇为荣!!!
她是个好榜样。。踏上了国际的舞台，仍不忘本，趁着这个机会向全世界介绍Gemilang这首歌曲。惭愧的说，若不是她唱出了这首歌，我还不知道有这首歌呢。。哈！
我要说的是，我很以她为荣的，不只是因为她得到了冠军，扬名国外。更重要的是，她对待比赛，别人以及自己的态度。。无懈可击!!!!
她非常的诚恳，这是我从电视荧幕上看到她时感觉得到的。虽然我不认识她啦，但总觉得她是个很诚恳的人。
她得到冠军，绝非偶然或是幸运，她背后付出的努力是我们所看不见，也想像不到的。
所以，我真的真的很欣赏她的态度。
态度会随着年龄而转变吗？我很怀疑。
因为，有些事情成长了，也就不再执着了。
那是件好事还是坏事呢?因人而异吧。
套句‘天天好天’里的话：坏的事情，换个角度看，就变成了好事咯。:)
态度，真的很重要。

对一件事情的成败
对一个人的前途
对他人给你的期许

当我看见李佳薇认真，诚恳的态度时，我不禁反复思索着现在的我到底是在用什么态度对待自己，他人。。或是用着什么态度去对待自己的生活和所面对的一切事情。
我仍然在探索中，但是我尽量会用最适合自己及他人的态度去对待一切事物。
不能保证完美，但总算是会尽力的。
新的一年咯，会是个踏入2-的一年。
可说是人生新的一页。所有的从前都要归零，重新创造全新的里程碑。哈哈。
但愿如此咯。
新年是目前最期待的一件事情，但是过后也是好开心地啦，还是有好多事情可以期待的。
3月份--演唱会
4月份--假期（虽然是study leave啦，但总算是有leave咯:P)
5月份--母亲节+考试
6月份--父亲节+特别的日子+考试完毕（哈!)
7月份--旅行开始
8+9+10+11+12月份--精彩+开心地过!^^
就是这样子啦，换个角度来看，每一年，每个月，每个星期，每一天，每一分，每一秒，都有好多事情可以期待哦。
过去该释怀的，不会在惦记了。不想要让不开心地事情霸占我的时间，记忆。
我的memory space太有限了，只能留给我喜欢，我爱的人。
我会为了这些人保留空间，把不应该出现的人，事，物都删除--delete.
新的一年咯，大家要一起加油哦!
愿大家:
想要的都能达到，不开心的都忘掉，快乐能常常围绕，好运会天天都到!!!:)
天天好天，笑着回家!!!
新年快乐!!!Happy Chinese New year!!!! =)~^^

The First in 2011

2011-01-15T01:51:00.005+08:00

Well...jz drop by to post something because realise that i havent blog for almost a month,haha.
Things again back to normal when the college life started.
Another sem or I should say the last sem to go at here..haha. Wonder how I feel when everything end..so excited to wait for that day and yet..not really want it to end so soon.
This is so the so called human unique characteristic..haha..
Finish reading a book I brought here within a few days, bcm more efficient compared to last time..haha..learnt something from the book..thats why sometimes reading is very important lo..
Even though we already know how something works..but we might forget it and need to read something again to remind us..yea..human memory is very bad..especially me..haha..:P
First post in 2011..nothing special..because sometimes is really quite hard to describe ur ownself and ur own mood..
just let it be what it should be and stay myself as who I am la..^^

对不起

2010-12-15T09:48:00.004+08:00

变化无常是我最能形容这几天的心情。
一下子，开心到想飞到天上去，一下子，又失望落魄到像掉到地狱去。
‘对不起’ 这简单的词语想必每天都有很大的可能性听到吧。
也许是。。。
你爱的人对你说，
你恨的人对你说，
爱你的人对你说，
恨你的人多你说，
爱你也是你爱的人对你说。。。
也可能是。。。
你对他们说。
前几天，我突然发觉这句话很具觉悟性。
我从一位很爱我也是我很爱的人口中听到了这句话。
我听见时，觉得很错愕，惭愧，很不应该，就只是因为我笨蛋地任性。
这样子身份的我，不应该听到他对我这么说的。
但是，同时，我学到了一些生命中蛮重要的事情。
勇于认错，是一件非常了不起的事情。
就算对方是个在年龄方面，或辈分方面都小过你很多的人。
你的认错，真的会让人醒觉，不只是你自己的，也是对方的。
所以，在这里，我要很诚恳地，
向曾经被我
有心地
无心地
知名地
不知名地
伤害的家人，朋友们。。
说声:对不起 :)
不管那些是什么事情，因为我觉得这句‘对不起’是不该被吝啬的。
此外，长了这么大的我，实在不该那么地脆弱了。
曾以为自己像块铁那般地坚强，但其实人都没想像中地坚强吧?
所以，是时候为自己披多一层的皮，让自己变得更茁壮，勇敢些。
这几天与很多从前的朋友聚了一聚，回想起了从前的一些事与物。
觉得有些感慨万千。。哈哈。天啊，讲到好像很老酱，也没有啦，只是有些怀念那些日子。
嘻嘻。。这是人的天性吗，缅怀过去?
到chinen家去时，看见他家里有很多孩子，可以组篮球队了，因为有五个，哈哈。
看见他们，觉得很替他们开心，很希望他们就这样一直那么地单纯，开开心心地过每一天。
有孩子的家里，是多么地热闹，开心啊。
看着他们，也会问自己，从前的我，是不是也是这样子地‘天真无邪’呢?哈!
小时候的我们，很想很想赶快长大。
长大后的我们，很想很想回到过去。
人啊，就是自相矛盾。
对不起，虽然是生活中无可避免需要用到的词语，但我希望我能尽量降低它出现的可能性。
毕竟，说出这句话要付出的代价很是很大的。
可能是无止境的后悔过后带来的遗憾。
所以，我会学着成长些 :)

没有得选还是不想选？

2010-12-09T14:44:00.003+08:00

很多事情，并不会因为年龄增长了，而有所领悟，反而会变得更不知所措，不知怎么应对。
有些事情，知道不应该这么做，但还是会这样去做。因为就是缺少了那一份。。说不的勇气。
所以，学会说‘不’是一件很重要而必要的东西。很多家长应该从小就给他们的孩子学习说这个字的权利及勇气。
毕竟到社会以后，他们才能很自由地去发挥他们自己的想法。当然，这只是局限于应该的事物上，而不是有的没的。
其实，有些时候即便不是自己的意愿，也会老是给自己一些借口去做。毕竟，我就是没那份勇气。
虽然拥有自己的想法，但是为了大家的和气，选择了沉默。
这样做，两头不到岸，结果只是伤害了爱我和我爱的人，搞得大家伤痕累累，还是莫名的那种。
以为保持沉默，选择不给意见地接受是最好的对待，结果在不知不觉间伤害了他人及自己，真是不应该啊。
很多事情，到了这个时候，已经很难分辨怎样才算应该与不应该了。
反正，怎样选择，怎样决定，永远都会有不满意的那一方，倒不如做些自己喜欢的抉择。
这样子说来很简单，但要做起来还真的是谈何容易?尤其是当你过不了自己的那一关时。。
人啊。。怎么样都回有潜藏的自私心理。这是很残酷的事实。
我不会当个忘恩负义的人，不管你相不相信。
这会是我的优点，同时，它也会是我的致命伤吧?哈!
复杂的想法，无法理出个头绪，倒不如就这样子吧。
怎么样?
老实说，我也不知道。:P

Yes or No?

2010-12-02T18:46:00.004+08:00

Yes or no only ma...so difficult meh..
yea,really very difficult for me..haha.
Something should be let go..Something should be started..Should I?
Hmm..Yes or No?
It is getting much more difficult to choose between Yes or No as you grow older..
Things are much simpler when we were young..
Even though it is much difficult but then it is also more beautiful..:)
Well..Yes or No..???
Everything that shouldnt be started will be stopped from now on.
Please..and I have to.:)

。海阔天空。

2010-11-25T12:42:00.004+08:00

#我曾怀疑我走在沙漠中
从不结果无论种什么梦
才张开翅膀风却便沉默
习惯伤痛能不能算收获
庆幸的是我一直没回头
终于发现真的是有绿洲
每把汗流了生命变得厚重
走出沮丧才看见新宇宙

海阔天空在勇敢以后
要拿执著将命运的锁打破
冷漠的人谢谢你们曾经看轻我
让我不低头更精彩地活

凌晨的窗口失眠整夜以后
看着黎明从云里抬起了头
日落是沉潜日出是成熟
只要是光一定会灿烂的

海阔天空狂风暴雨以后
转过头对旧心酸一笑而过
最懂我的人谢谢一路默默地陪我
让我拥有好故事可以说

看未来一步步来了#

前几天无意间在姐姐的电脑里发现了这首歌
基本上，它是一首非常经典的歌曲。
以前中学时期就有听过，并且蛮喜欢的。
只是。。不曾听明白他在唱些什么，哈哈。。
也不是不明白啦，而是根本没有要去了解它的歌词过。嘻嘻。。
但是，看过歌词后，才发现原来它不只是好听而已，而是一首很有意思的歌。
觉得很有意思，因为有一点唱出心声的感觉，哈哈。
希望能与你们分享的好歌之一~:)
有一些也是我很想与一些人分享的一些话。。
不管是谁，只要你觉得有可能是你，那就是你了。。
不要犹豫，对，就是你们了。。!!!^^
这首歌也有些激励的作用，给正在考试的朋友们，加油啊!!!
我无法一一地祝贺你们，但内心真心希望你们一个个都能勇敢，坚强地为自己，家人，爱你们的，你们所爱地。。好好地加油!!!
对你们有绝对地信心，也请你们绝对不要轻言放弃，虽然我也知道那不简单啦，哈哈。
毕竟自己也不是没有经历过。
但，你们一定要对自己保持信心，保持微笑!!!:)

Ps:
忍一时，风平浪静，
退一步，海阔天空。
考试的朋友们，Just GO for it!!!!^^

假期假期假期

2010-11-24T10:45:00.004+08:00

最令人兴奋的事情，莫过于假期的来临了。
无论是工作人士，家庭主妇，学生。。但是，各行各业的假期再多，也没有当学生的我们幸福，有着那么多，那么长的假期。
但是，在享受着这令人振奋的一刻来临之前，必定得先苦熬一番。。
回想起study leave和考试的那个星期，真的是有些不堪回首。
每天除了对着书本，书本，还是书本。。哈哈。这样说来。似乎又有些夸张咯。
无论如何，还是有些美好的回忆的啦。
例如，会期待用餐时间的到来，也会期待冲凉时间的到来。哈哈。。
非常特别地期待吧，那毕竟是些许能让头脑好好休息的时间。。
hmm..这个sem是非常有意思的一个sem.对我来说。
我成长了不少。也见识到了不少事物。对人，有更深一层的了解。
虽然也只是非常表面的了解，但是，至少也算是一种学习了。
这学期对我的确是悲喜交集，却又充满着精彩刺激的旅程。
我的人生将会因为这个学期所发生的一切，无论是愉快，或悲伤的，而更完整。
我很珍惜所发生过的一切，包括所失去与得到的，还有让我觉得痛苦的事情。
没有这些经过，我以后也没什么故事能与我爱的人分享了吧，哈哈。
这学期做了很多疯狂的事情哦，它们都会是我人生旅程的回忆里最珍贵的宝藏之一。
该从何说起呢。。
第一件事，应该就是通宵拼puzzle吧，而且还是我的最爱之一--名侦探柯南!!!!哈哈哈。。
参与的人有--Pin, Stephanie, 蝌蚪儿。。哈哈。。
我当时也没想过一个晚上就能把它拼好。所以，完成时有些惊讶，当然啦，像平常一样，我的贡献也是最少的，哈哈。
第二件事，应该是去看晚上场的Piranha吧。。吃晚餐吃到一半，兴致勃勃地谈起借车去看戏。。虽然一开始有些犹豫，但后来还是一股劲地跑去Sunway看9.40pm的Piranha了，如果我没记错时间的话。。我觉得这电影很好看哦，我被吓到很爽。。哈哈。犯贱。。害怕被吓又喜欢看。。人啊。。
再来。。应该是，庆祝ah Lua的生日，去到iCity然后叫不到Taxi然后一起等朋友驾Van来在我们，结果搞到大概一点多才回到宿舍吧。哈哈。。当时，大家都已累到不行了。但是过程算是非常享受的啦。。至少我是如此的啦。哈哈。。
不对，时间上的安排不对。第一件最疯狂的事应该是通宵在McD看世界杯的决赛。。当时是Spain Vs Netherlands。。记得我和Sze Ming一起支持了Netherlands，夸张地是全场多数都是Spain的Fans，所以Netherlands占优势时，我们都没什么机会欢呼，哈哈。那是场非常精彩的球赛，还踢到加时赛。。虽然最后Spain赢了，但是我也是觉得还好啦，毕竟我并没真正偏向任何一方。。哈哈。结果看到了凌晨五点多球赛才结束，本打算六点会宿舍就不会被记名，结果还是中招。。很有趣的一晚。^^
然后又一次，本来打算去Sunway看戏或什么的。。结果大家最后都没去。。然后，我，Pin，Stephanie 就跑去玩PhotoHunt，bowling, 打羽球，跑步，‘爬山’。。哈哈，非常充实地过了一天的运动天。。好开心。。:D
还有还有，就是庆祝Ah Yan的生日后到处去拍照，Mydin前也拍，Secret Recipe前也拍，回到宿舍继续拍。。哈哈。。
所以，这个Sem也堆积了很多的照片咯，真是令人骄傲的收藏。。:P
另外很开心的事情是，我结交到了一位热爱打球的好Partner..Jia Wen..哈哈。。另外一个siao eh..:P..很开心能交到像她那么有义气的朋友。。
但是，最最疯狂的，应该莫过于这件事了啦。。那就是。。在考试的前一个星期五，一起出去唱K!!!哈哈。。早上打完羽球后，就真的是心血来潮，说要去唱，然后其实大家都真的很想要出去，尽管心里有个天使说不行。。但是，我们最后还是做了个明智的决定，那就是--去!!参与的‘损友’有Pin, Stephanie, 蝌蚪儿。。哈哈。。回想起来，也不会后悔啦，毕竟真的是没差啦。。哈哈。
原本说唱到四点就要赶回来宿舍读书了，结果时间结束后大家都不舍得走，就继续逛街咯，虽然没买些什么东西，但就是不想回宿舍去面对应该面对的事情。
有时，逃避是个不错的选择哦，哈哈。
这是个非常忙碌的一个学期，虽然很忙碌啦，但是也是这样子懵懵懂懂地一起挨过了一个又一个的test，IELTS, Final, Muet。。成绩就不敢想了啦，到时再打算。能开心多久就开心多久啦。。哈哈。
对了，还有一样非常经典的。。考完Muet 后，我，Pin, Stephanie 和Cheah并没有立刻往Sunway或哪里去。。就只是去Pak Li吃午餐。。然后又到Secret Recipe去做个闲人，‘叹世界’。。非常享受。。很好的回忆，哈哈。。

Petrosains 一日游^^

蛇庙(那小妹妹我觉得很像Hebe哦)哈!

这个Sem结束后的‘假期旅行’也是很精彩哦。。
有去Petrosains, 唱K, Kedah + Perlis+ Penang Trip。。
唱K 的那次经典咯，整整唱了有八个小时多吧，而且不是被赶走的哦，是唱到要吐了我们就自己走掉了，哈哈。永远不会忘记唱K的几首必点歌曲。。有情歌王，魔力,一起开始的旅程。这三首印象深刻咯。^^
我们一起做的，经历过的，很多事情都是秉持着RANDOM的原则，真的是。。好开心~~~！！！！^^ 非常地xi fuan...:P
认识到这群‘损友’很开心哦，在我的人生页上画上了精彩的一笔，我很珍惜这份难得的缘分，友情。:)
毕竟明白的是天下无不散之筵席。。我只希望那天不会那么快地到来。。
这个学期最重要的收获之一就是我‘捡’到了一双非常合适，好穿的‘鞋子’。。品牌为Eternal Shoes。。哈哈。。某人明白就好。:P
很感谢，这些日子以来的包容及体谅，毕竟我明白所谓的包容并没有那么地简单，所以我真的非常地惜福，感激。你，我的鞋子。^^
总的来说，这是个不错的一个Sem。。
我
痛苦过
开心过
失去过
得到过
非常精彩地过!:)
假期咯，这个假期很重要哦，是个应该要我们善用的假期。
一定得用来休息，享受，还有做些应该要做的充实事情，嘻嘻。。
假期好啊，假期好!!!!
胡言乱语:~老猴好，老猴好~游来游去，好开心~我xi fuan~~^^
PS:人生最开心的事莫过于交到frequency 一样的损友了:P

幸福从听见自己的声音开始 :)

2010-10-08T14:37:00.002+08:00

这是一本书的名字，很好听吧? 当初会买这本书，也是因为被它的名字所吸引的。当然啦，也是因为它有着很美的封面的关系。无奈，在某种情况下，我不小心把书弄脏了，当时的确是非常心痛。严重的是，那是买书后的第二或第三天，根本就还没有开始读到它的内容。。:(
后来想通后，就觉得算了吧，还是内容比较重要，哈哈。
这本书的内容很适合那些所谓心灵受创的人(嗯，我是在说我自己吗?哈哈。。:P)。。是吧，至少对当时的我来说是那样啦。嘻嘻。。
无论你有没有受过任何伤害，我都会建议你去读那本书。受着伤的，复原几率接近99.9%，没有受伤的，元气大增。哈哈。我没有夸张化哦，读了那本书之后你就会知道我没有瞎说了。:)
内容其实是关于如何用色彩学教导你去坦白面对你自己，如何聆听自己，如何真正的让自己幸福。
有几个法则蛮管用的，很想要与大家分享:
1. 就在今天，我活在感恩中。
2. 就在今天，我不担忧。
3. 就在今天，我不生气。
4. 就在今天，我诚实地工作。
5. 就在今天，我对万物表达爱与尊敬。
每天，一有时间，或者闷得发慌，或者不知道自己要干嘛或者是无所事事的时候，建议你们可以尝试重复地在心中默念这五个法则。我没有常用啦，但是觉得每一句都很对，很值得善用。无论怎样，我怀着一颗相信的心觉得它会让我的世界更美好。所以，有时面对问题时，都会如此，问题没有神奇到能立刻迎刃而解啦，但就是觉得心情会变得好些，然后又有勇气重新去面对一切那般:)
我还没读完这本书，部分是因为没时间，部分是因为懒惰，但多数是希望不要那么快读完它。
想要细细地品尝，了解它其中的道理，不想只是没有经过大脑般地让它们进了又出。
到目前为止，我领悟了一些道理--诚实地面对自己很重要。
没有人知道你在想些什么事情，因为你不曾好好地表达。
所以，当误会发生时，我们通常会说或在心里想:为什么大家都不了解我在想什么呢?
但，我们又告诉了他们我们在想些什么了吗?所以，有时候误会的发生都很可能是自己首先的不诚实和不坦白而造成的。
所以，我正在学习如何对自己坦白中:)
另外，这本书其实还结合了一些佛家的道理，我觉得很神奇，也觉得很适合我阅读，让我对生命又有了另外一种看法。
书的内容有很多是值得分享的，我会在适当的时间，适当的心情把它慢慢地分享吧。
今天早上知道了IELTS的成绩，得了个让自己很满意开心的成绩，心中充满了无限的感恩:)
对于得到好成绩的朋友们，恭喜:)
对于得到无法让自己满意的成绩的朋友们，请你们一定要振作，然后继续加油!!!
我相信，一次的不成功不足于造成你们的绊脚石。
这一定是为了让你们以后走得更成功的其中一关而已。不要对自己失去信心哦，我怀着感恩的心祝福你们!!!^^

~就在今天，我活在感恩中~:)

幸福，从听见自己的声音开始

Time Thief

2010-10-02T00:42:00.005+08:00

Did a stupid mistake today..that was being a time thief.

haha..

Sorry about that my dear fren, SooPin Lim..sorry for stealing an hour from you by not waking you up at the correct time that you wanted me to wake u up..

I will try to 'improve' myself next time so that I wont make such careless mistake anymore..haha.

Anyway, IELTS speaking test will be started tomorrow..or more accurately today since now already passed 12am.

I hope that all of us could make it to hit the target we wanted to and I really believe that we can do it!^^ (being very optimistically..:P)

Good Luck to all my friends including myself!

Dramatic Day:)

2010-08-20T23:55:00.003+08:00

Everthing that has happened today was so spontaneous.
Initially planned to go to Sunway for a movie but then it has been cancelled due to some reasons..
Then, I had rejected Cheah's invitation of going to Sunway..I really feel sorry to him la because he was really desperate for it and even tag me in a post mentioned that he hate me..haha..
Really sorry for making u to hate me but then I have no choice..:P
Even though something abnormal happened during the noon time but then everything turned out to be alright after the lunch time.haha...:D
Pin, Stephanie and I went to play Photo Hunt which I have been wanted to play since a long time for an unknown reason..Haha...
Then, we met Jieyun,Song Hwee them.. They went to play bowling. We went to see them play and in the end...we also played bowling..hahaha.
We didnt bring socks there so we hesitated for quite some time for thinking whether to play bowling or not due to the extra charges that need to be paid to buy socks.
Luckily, we didnt need to buy the socks and we played for THREE games!!!haha..
Anyway, in those 3 games, neither of us could make a X--STRIKE!!!
Sad case.. I think thats one of the main reason which made us play for 3 games,haha..:D
But we enjoyed the games very much and something very FUNNY happened in between also..haha..
really very happy:)
After that, we went to play badminton! 3 of us.. Again, smth funny happened in between also..^^
Then, we went to the park and jog for half a round..haha..A day full of sports really.
We also 'climb' up the 'mountain' as well..sit at there..then lying down at there...
looking at the cloudless sky...then talk about duno what particles la..haha.. I guess that just we know what it means..
Then, we went to Bazaar and met Cheah..
His face seriously..very like the one who has just came out from jail..who was so desperate for the freedom to be get away from Cemara, Shah Alam..haha..
I think he surely hate me very much about not going to Sunway with him..sorry la man..Couldnt make it this time..next time la..ok?:)
After the HALF day long sport activities..feeling my legs and my hands very SOUR now...
I believe tonight will be a good night for me to sleep well..woohoohooo~~~
Hope that can hang out together again more often in the future with the participation of more friends..haha..^^
Today was a tired but ENJOYABLE day for me!!!![and all of us I guess?:) ]

PS: To those who I have hurt you accidentally today..really sorry for everything..
I really dont mean it.. Anyway, I believe that you all would forgive me because you all are such a NICE friends!!!:D

~怎么开始忘了~

2010-08-07T10:38:00.002+08:00

琴键那么重我用技巧去弹奏
情绪那么浓我该用什么去快乐
隐密到最后在我失去了以后终于懂得
追梦若是片宽阔天空只是我从没抽离过

吉他那么重我已无力去弹奏
不想做什么谁能陪我清唱那首歌
不是我不懂拥抱之后总是难以去承受
那些认真的美好都一闪而过

怎么开始忘了我还能微笑
怎么开始忘了我还有心跳
那些黑色的玩笑没有受伤不会好
我们还在找自己的生存之道

慢慢释怀才能让自己变好
朦胧的话只是无聊的暗号
流言传来传去不知何时平息
该如何去面对那不重要

ps:怎么开始忘了？

无奈的转变

2010-08-06T23:43:00.003+08:00

忽然，是个可以令人很害怕，亦可以很惊喜地字眼。
但可惜的是，它所带来的意思，多数是前者的。
多么地不想要，但它还是发生了。那么地毫无预警，那么地忽然。
老实地承认一句，我真的真的不是一个很细心的人。真的，如果你够了解我，你就会懂。
对于这个不细心，我真的感觉很抱歉。
我无法在这个时候做出任何转变，我做不到，也相信你不会接受。
正当我以为一切都是那么地美好的时候，我竟然没察觉到这个错觉背后你所承受的痛苦。
当我做错的时候，我情愿你大大声地骂我，让我知道我错在什么地方，总好过现在的沉默。
我无法承受在上一秒钟，你还是很开心地跟我有说有笑，但在下一秒你竟可以对我沉默不语。
那是种惩罚，残酷的那种。
我真的很抱歉，
对于我的不细心
对于我的后知后觉
对于我的幼稚行为
对于我曾经所作过而让你不开心的事情。。
可以让一切回归于从前的美好吗?
可以把一切都简单化吗?
可以让时光倒流，让我懂得如何应对现在的转变吗?
对于现在的转变，我真的很无奈。我不知道该怎么说，该怎么做才能扭转乾坤。
但请相信我，我很珍惜你，真的。

Numb

2010-08-01T10:29:00.002+08:00

Recently dont have much things to share..Everything has back to normal student life since the class started in July.
Just found out that I had not blogged since June..Really quite lazy to write out anything already as the mood is quite complicated.
Went to jogging with Chelle this morning. Nice weather..until dont feel like jogging, just wanna walk around. But then if no jog like quite a waste since the weather is so nice..so we jog.haha.
I jog for about 3 rounds only because it is so windy. Not really feel like jogging.
However, Chelle still remained her normal record, about 6 to 7 rounds. haha..
Sorry about my 'in-determination'.
Last two days went to Sunway with Pin and Stephanie..quite enjoy for me. hahahahaha...
We watched The Sorcerer's Apprentice..A nice movie for me..I like it..Mayb because of their magic or mayb because I was in a good mood..haha. Both la actually.
Then we had pizza as our lunch..ewww....their service was like...ah hem...
Anyway, the pizza was nice la..hahaha.
Last nite went to Intec Inpro Closing Ceremony in Panasonic Stadium..? I dont really know the name of the stadium..haha.. Every programmes had their own performance.
Anyway, even though their performance didnt really impress me but I was impressed by their hard work. They put a lot of effort in it..That's the thing they impressed me.hehe..
Ausmat students were very united last nite especially when they cheer for their team. Anyway, ALM also not bad la..hahahaXD
ALM was the overall winner in this Inpro for this year. So proud of them.. When they announced the winner.. I was really excited..even though I never take part in anything.haha.. But then..quite excited:)
Hmm...The 'busy-ness' is going to start soon...Feel like hoping the time can just stop at this moment..peacefully..happily..
It is quite impossible la..
Oh ya, went to have a gathering with Taylors' frens last Tuesday as well. So I had went out to Sunway for 2 times in a single week..geng dao....
Even though we haven met each other since last year June..But then I din feel like very awkward or anything when meet them..the feeling stil remain the same..haha..I am glad with this..They had done their A Level examination. Their results will be released soon..
I wish everyone of them could get what they have been hoping for..Yi Xin, who is going to fly to HK soon.. I sincerely wish u all the best and can adapt to the place there well.. So that when we are going to HK one day, you can be our tour guide..hahaha:D
opps..went to Klang to eat Bak Kut Teh on Monday..even though it supposed to be a busy week but then I seems like quite enjoy la..rite?hahaha..:P
Another happy thing was that I finally get the chance to play my favourite-->badminton..wahahaha...thanks to JiaWen..Sam..MeiChi...Wendy..haha..Never play since back to college..So we had played for 3 days continuously..haha..crazy...but enjoyed!!!:D

Feeling numb right now...in the sense of..everything?

PS:Happy birthday to one of my best friend~Zi Xian...wish you all the best in everything..friends forever:)

十九走向另一游

2010-06-22T18:48:00.007+08:00

挥别了十八岁，现在的我是以踏上了十九岁旅程的全新自我来写这篇过了生日后的第一个post.

十八岁的我经历了很多事物，在现实中及心灵上也有了一定的转变。

只不过，不管身边的人事物，如何地变迁，我，

依然是我，

没有多大的转变。

只是想事情的角度不同了，毕竟人总不能只用同一种思维去思考吧，那样日子会过得很沉闷，很无趣:)

今年的生日过得有些与众不同哦。回想起去年的生日是如何度过，我还是历历在目。

因为去年的生日是在KL度过的。从我有记忆以来，那应该是第一年不是在自己的家乡度过吧。

而今年的生日有些什么不同呢?

不是因为我收到很多礼物(而且还少了呢:P)，也不是因为在家乡度过，而是家人与朋友们的心意都让我很感动。

生日当天因为某些原因，家人无法陪我一起度过。

而我那笨笨地姐姐就代替家人在前一晚替我庆祝，而且庆祝时还不是我的生日呢。哈哈。

老实说，我真的没想到她会帮我庆祝的，充其量也只不过是可能请我吃一餐而已。结果，当她把生日蛋糕拿出来时，我真的觉得很惊喜。此外，Ann Wen，Kheok，和Zi-You 还意外地出现帮我一起庆祝呢，虽然他们只是刚好出现，但是真的觉得很高兴!:)

姐姐还买了帽子给我戴呢，真是的。想想，我也是好久没戴这种帽子了呢，哈哈。

连姐姐的朋友也来了呢，我的面子还真不小，哈哈 :D

可诗姐姐，谢谢你的出席哦^^

戴着帽子的我:)

许愿咯，愿我心想事成^^

我真的很感激姐姐的这份心意，我知道你因为不想我失望，所以特地就搞了这些东西让我觉得有些温暖，真是太爱你了!!! 这样的东西只能写一次，不然不止是你，我自己也会觉得很恶心。。:P

这一晚是我今年的第一个生日蛋糕，因为在我生日当天，竟然还有一个神秘蛋糕在等着我呢^^

原本我心里打算当天与朋友打球，看场电影及吃顿饭就算了，但是没想到。。

当天早上就像往常的几天那样，与朋友打球，吃早餐。过后原本要约大家去看戏，结果因为太少人就取消了。加上自己也是很累了，晚上又得出发去云顶，所以就打算在家里整理行李，看"就想赖着你"来度过我今年的生日。

整理到一半，因为某些原因，我必须到Gurun去。这时候，朋友就传了封简讯给我，希望我能帮他买东西，因为要买那东西是有限人数的。

虽然是我的生日，但是没办法啦，讲义气的我肯定还是会拔刀相助的啊。嘻嘻。

原本告诉他五点才能回到，结果因为事情延迟了，所以六点才回到家里。当时的我实在是太疲累了，所以我就以为是像他所告诉我的那般，只是要帮他买东西。

结果他载我去了Asrc前新开的Times Cafe，那时的我说真的，实在是还搞不清楚状况。

结果走进去店里面，听到生日歌在我耳边环绕时，我才明白我踏进了他们所设下充满惊喜的圈套!!!^^

当时，我真的觉得好惊喜，好感动哦。

没想到平常只有在电视才能看到的画面，竟然会发生在我身上!

实在是太不可思议了，在一天里心情上的转变竟能如此的大!

亲爱的朋友们，谢谢你们所做的一切，这次的我是真心觉得惊喜，感动!!!

相识多年的朋友，谢谢你们:)

恭喜你们啊，哈哈!!
走进店里，灯光有些暗，配上生日音乐，搭上朋友们为我唱的生日歌，老实说，当时我有些头晕目眩，因为我还没从疲劳中走出来。
但是，搞清楚周围发生了什么事之后，我所有的疲惫顿时间转成了兴奋!
因为我不曾想过我也会有是这种party主角的一天。
我真的觉得有你们这班朋友，我非常幸运!很感谢及珍惜你们所办的这个惊喜party!
Party整整办了有两个小时多吧，全程最令人兴奋的节目就只有拍照咯，哈哈。所以当晚我与他们拍了好多照片哦。
当晚雨下得好大，但是无法将我心里的激动，兴奋，热情，给熄灭。
我的心情维持到要出发到云顶之前，才稍微平息了些，毕竟也有些累了，哈哈。
当晚就与一班朋友包括Yi Wen, Ann Wen, Joann, Kheok, Zi-You, Keng Siang 和Har Boon 开始了四天三夜的疯狂旅程。
生日对我们来说虽然是个值得庆祝的日子，因为那是纪念我们来到这世上的那一天。
但是，对妈妈来说，十九年前的我可让她痛苦了。
亲爱的妈妈，对于您这些日子以来为这个家庭的付出，我都深深地铭记于心中。
您是我心中的女强人，这是不变的事实。
我会努力当个好孩子，让您不必再当女强人了，要你好好地享福:)
虽然现在我还没有这个能力，但是我会朝这个方向努力，您就对我有信心一些吧，嘻嘻。
十九岁，是我最后一年能在我的岁数前加上一个“一”字了，得好好珍惜吧，因为就快迈向人生"二"的阶段了。
十八岁的我，过得很精彩，但我相信十九岁的我，会像生日当天那样，会过得充满惊喜，过得更精彩!:)

PS: 感谢所有在我生日当天给我送上祝福的人，包括身在海外的朋友还特地传简讯给我，很是感动，谢谢哦!^^

自由的天地

2010-06-12T21:21:00.003+08:00

好久没有拥有属于自己真正的小天地了。
自己要干嘛就干嘛，不必担心会吵到或惹到别人。
仔细想想，也不能这么说，应该是说我不曾拥有吧。
就算拥有，也是很短暂的那几年，而且那也不是真正属于自己的。
我很不喜欢被束缚的感觉，
偏偏
我可以说是在这样的环境上长大的。
自由
是我很向往的。
不是所谓的那种往外跑的自由。
那种自由，我算是很充足的。也很感恩有这方面的自由。
我说的自由
是在家里可以自由自在的要说什么就说什么，要做什么就做什么的那种自由。
我不可以这样子做。因为
不是每个人能容忍这样子的行为。
他们要求规矩的我。而我
不可以反抗。
因为在他们眼里
我应该要这样子做才是正确的。
要这样子为所欲为地想干嘛就干嘛，只有在家人面前才行。
但是，我不能。。
一个人犯了错，难道他身边的每个人都犯了同样的错吗?
为什么有些人就是那么喜欢带着有色眼镜去看待别人呢?
杀人犯的孩子难道就不可能是个大好人吗?
这世界就是那么地现实，但我不相信每个人都是如此。
尽管我身边有很多此类的人。
说真的，我很想相信他们的真心。
但每当我跨出一大步时，总会发生些让我却步的事情。
这样下去，我觉得很累。
我不想再去争论他们的爱了。太多的计较让我很累。
值得感动的是，还是真的有人会不计较地对你好。
是不是只有这样，世界才是平衡地呢?
我很需要。。
家，一个真正让我觉得自在的家。
自由，能让我放松自己的空间。
我，已经不是我了。
已经有太多的添加物。
让我变成了不是自己所想要的
自己。
我没有沙漏里的沙，可以让时间倒退，回到从前，让自己重新来过，去选择做自己真正喜欢做的事情。
我当初没有这样子的勇气。
很希望今后能有这样子的勇气。但，这很难说。
毕竟所做的每个决定都希望身边的人都能开心，但要做到这种决定，谈何容易?
倒不如做些真正能让自己开心的决定。
我知道这个道理。
但我也清楚，我很难做到。
自由啊，我崇拜你。
但，我没勇气追随你。

疲惫

2010-06-10T21:45:00.004+08:00

最近很累，是因为老是为自己把行程安排得满满的，也因为老是爱胡思乱想。
忙些什么呢?
打球啊，跑步啊，聚会啊。。
人啊，一定要这样子找东西来想，来做，让自己过得那么忙碌吗?
其实，根本是没那个必要的。
可能是现在的我太有空了吧。哈哈。
假期还剩下几个星期而已。
其实比起其他人，我们的假期算是48多了。但还是觉得不够，因为根本不想上学。
周杰伦说: 功成名就不是目的，让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义。
我很喜欢也很认同，但在这世上，有办法把事情看得那么的透彻，看得那么地开，其实是少之又少的。
我，很想当这类人，但，我能吗?
这几天都与朋友一起打羽球，觉得很开心。因为打球时，什么事情都不需要想，只需要把球打好。
打球后再一起去吃我爱吃的早餐，感觉真是一级棒!:)
很多事情需要我去想，但有时又觉得干嘛要想?
反正老是没结论的，不如就让它顺气自然吧。

没有后来

2010-06-10T00:31:00.002+08:00

*后来我总算学会了如何去爱

可惜你早已远去消失在人海

后来终于在眼泪中明白

有些人一旦错过就不再*

谢谢你的出现，让我的人生过得很精彩。

我不后悔当初所做的那些决定。

因为现在的情况告诉我，当时的决定对你，对我来说是最好的。

曾经听过一句话:

如果不能在一起，那就证明没有缘分，如果没有缘分，那就没什么好遗憾的啦。

是的，没什么好遗憾的。

现在的你，过得很好。

我，依然是那个倔强的我。

我们，还是好朋友。

我不会忘记你，因为当时的回忆是值得珍藏的。

我放下了。相信你也是如此。

这种Happy Ending最好了。

真心祝福你 :)

Finally..However..

2010-05-23T20:33:00.010+08:00

Finally.. The moment I have waited for a long time is here...-- The Final Is OVER!!! Wohoo:D

So happy that after struggling for 2 weeks, I have came to this day and really feel thanksful and lucky that I could survive for the past 2 weeks,haha..

In last 2 weeks, my mind full of a lot of things that feel like wanna do but cant do at that moment such as..watch drama ar,movie ar,sing k ar..a lot more la,haha..but now just feel like..can I just do nothing?:P

After the exam, my feeling was great!haha..Chelle, Pin, Stephanie, Sze Ming and me went to Piana room to 'play' piano..erm..the play i meant is literally play..not the actual play..get me?haha..I dont know how to play piano de,but just simply play la..But Chelle and Sze Ming they really knew it and could play it well..So envy them..hehe. Luckily Pin and Stephanie also duno how to play so I am not in a really bad situation yet la,hahahahaha..XD(just kidding la..:P)

That time was raining heavily..Felt cool and of course..sleepy..haha..Feel like lack of sleep for the past month because everytime once I was on the bed..I sure fall asleep..That was normal rite?especially when you are holding a book with u..hahaha.

But that was not the end of the story, because we still have to go to buy bus tickets after playing piano despite the rain was so heavy at that time..So, 5 of us 'romantically' walked to the bus stop and buy the bus tickets to Melacca one as Pin, Stephanie, Car car and I planned to go Malacca since dono past few weeks d..but we never really take any action until that day,haha..However, magically, we still could make it there and tour around without really planning anything,hahahahaXD

After buying the tickets, we went back to our lovely Akasia 1/215..'Nua nua' a while then 7 of us--Pin, Chelle, Kah Yan, Stephanie, Sze Ming, Yuen Doo and I..went to Subang Parade!haha..and we had our first very free dinner at The Manhattan Fish Market!^^ very very syok..haha. We ate till full like what..Then we walked around the complex and went back to Akasia at 10 smth like that. That was not the end of the story also yet, because what really made us ki siao was the thing that we had to do after back to the room.. We cant even rest or do anything we would like to do yet..Because..we have to PACK our things! We will be going to Malacca the next morning 8.45am! That was really excited!haha..

We had to pack our luggage for Malacca trip and at the same time pack everythings because we cant leave anything in our hostel due to some very 'logical' technical problem..

So, even though the exam has ended, didnt mean we can sleep early o..because I slept at about 2.30am at that night,hehe..

The nx morning..The beginning of a journey that full of suspense..never know what could happen the next minute..because..we really..didnt plan AT ALL!

haha..Luckily we had some friends from Malacca..I tried to get some info from Rosh before that and then asked Mei Chi to tour us around in Malacca and really luckily..she could make it!Thanks to our tour guide in Malacca!:)(nx time come Alor Star then find me la..hahahaXD)

Another lucky thing was that Pin knew a friend from there as well and he was helpful..especially in searching hotel for us..haha.Amazingly, before going there, we didnt even book any hotel or arrange any transportation!haha..so this proved that..sometimes,carry out a thing without planning may be quite adventurous as well!haha..However, this didnt mean that I encourage anyone of u to do so ok..it is still quite dangerous but because we were lucky enough so we went through everything not that difficult:)

Our transport at there mainly was 11bus--LEGS^^ When we reached Melacca Sentral, Mei Chi and her mum came to fetch us and then put us down at a hotel that they recommended us..(Thanks ya,Mei Chi's mum^^)

Due to some problems, we didnt choose that hotel and so we walked to the other places..

We walked to the Jonker Street..even though that time was still afternoon, but we passed thru there because we wanted to eat Chicken Rice..A type of food that is popular in Malacca. The rice is in sperical shape one..and..I love it much!!!very tasty and it is not expensive o..Some more, the soya bean is really really very nice!!!So, I would recommend u to go there if u ask me where to eat such food nx time,hehe..:)

Then we tour around the red houses..Historical site..Many types of museum as well..Even though I had went to these places when I was young..(not really young la..about standard 6,hehe..),but then I really couldnt remember everything that well la..just feel like went to there before but then not sure whether the place was the picture in my mind or not,haha.. So, never bring young kids go tour around the expensive places,haha..misleading concept..

Then we walked around in the Dataran Pahlawan as well..The mall there quite big and a lot of shops inside..not bad..We took 'Big Head Photo' at there as well!!!hahaha..It was a crazy and interesting part of the trip..I like it much!!!:P All of us dont really know how to pose, so we wasted a lot of time in posing,haha..But then the results sure GOOD la..hahahaXD

Some more, the machine is time limited one, so we cant waste a lot of time in posing, because we still have to edit the photos after that..As we wasted a lot of photos in posing so we left a few minutes for the editting part only..So all of us were like very kin cheong like that, such a very funny condition..haha..Most important is..I like the photos very much!:)

Our BIG head photos^^

Then we went to Menara Taming Sari as well..The menara is about 80metres high..We all very high at that time because up there could view the whole Malacca even the Eye on Malaysia..even though it is not operated d, but it is still there for us to view it..not bad la..:DBefore going into there, a worker there helped us to take a photo and he asked us whether wan to buy or not after we came out..The photo looked quite nice so we all hesitated for a while..not a while la..but a very long while..haha..in the end..we didnt buy it also but I don feel regret la..cause the photos we took ourselves nice enough and even more than that!!!hahahahaXD

Kota A' Famosa, here WE are:)

Five of us including tour guide:D

At night we went to Jonker Street, the street full of people and of course our favourite--food!haha..we ate a lot of food and drink a lot as well..hehe..the Peach juice quite nice,can have a try if anyone of u are going there..:)

After that, we went to take a cruise around the river there..quite syok also la..While viewing the side view, we could see that the government was really working very hard to make the side view looks nice because even some apartment beside the river also got decoration,hehe..but because it was at night so we cant take any nice picture there..

All of us like so excited after taking the cruise..At that time, we didnt really know our way back to hotel because our tour guide--Mei Chi went back home d,hehe..So we just walked according to what she told us and most importantly, our own instinct!haha..Anyway, we still could make our way back to hotel,really not bad!!!big clap to ourselves..But I have to admit that we were really just lucky enough..because it was indeed very dangerous..So don learn this bad thing from us ya..haha..

We all like crazy like that while on our way back to hotel..For a while walk,for a while run..haha..The most memorable thing was that we ran at the ground in front of the Dataran Pahlawan there..Haha..really syok! So needless to say, everybody was full of sodium chloride--sweaty!haha..We then went to 7-11 to buy drinks because all of us were really short of water during that day..The sun was so big but we still enjoyed very much that day!:)That night we very late just slept but Car Car remained her style..hahahaha:D because she was really very tired that day also la..

The next day we went to Safari..another unplanned day..we just called the taxi on that day morning..very very luckily the driver quite good and frenly la,after reaching A Famosa Safari World there he still got make sure that everything was going on smoothly..That morning was raining so got a bit worried that we cant make it but again,thanksfully..we still could make it!haha..

It was about 45mins journey from our hotel to the Safari World..

Not my first time being there but again..because my last time being there was about 7 years ago so I cant really remember everything there well..Strangely, I felt like the Safari there was not as big as I thought last time..is it because I grow 'taller' d?haha..:D

We reached there at 11.20am like that..quite early..we saw a lot of wild life animals there..felt like talking crept..what else can I see from there if not wild animals since there was a safari?hahaha..We saw antelope, ostrich, porcupine, lion, tiger, crocodile, bear..

The guy wanted to kill me,omg :P

We could watch Wild Wild West show, Bird show, Elephant show, and Multi-animal show..However, we just managed to watch half of the Multi-animal show because we were late..The show not bad la..haha.

That day not really having a big sun and it was indeed a rainy day..but luckily the rain was not heavy so we all could still walked under the rain without having to take the umbrella..yeng le?haha..another funny thing came..time to hesitate whether to buy the photo that was taken buy the workers at there or not..haha..This time we really hesitated for a long time and almost wanna buy it d..but then we din buy it also,haha..if all tourist were like us..then I wonder how can tourism bring more benefit to a country?hahaha..XD

WE at Safari World^^

But luckily we din buy it la,cz we really got a lot of nice photos d..hehe:)
We reached hotel at about 6smth like that..we turned on the tv while waiting for Huan De and Mei Chi to come and fetch us out for dinner..We watched 就想赖着你 that was showing on the 8TV..the part we watched that day was really funny and so all of us laugh like siao po..hahahaXD
It was really fun!^^
Then Huan De and Mei Chi came and pick us up at about 8smth..They took us to eat Satay Celup for our dinner..haha.To my shock,their Satay Celup was actually our Lok Lok..haha..but their kuah was different from the typical one that we ate in Alor Star la..quite nice also,hehe..Had a lot of fun at there as well..^^
After the dinner, we went to Huan De's house to see her dogs..haha.She had 3 dogs in her house,geng..Her dogs quite guai, so I could still 'communicate' with it well la..haha.but Pin jiu..hahahahaXD
We stayed till about 11 like that then Huan De brought us back to hotel..her driving technique really good cause she was driving manual at that time which I cant confidently tell you that whether I still remember how to drive manual car or not..haha..
Again, we went to 7-11 to buy junk food..haha..but got a bit stupid was that we din buy any drinks that night.So I think everyone should be feeling very thirsty that nite..haha..especially me la.haha..:D
That night we din tong xiao but just sleeping late..cz really tired and beh tahan d..haha. We watched the movie that was showing on Tv2 until 2.30am..Somemore, that movie was quite scary de,haha..I wonder how could I watch it..because it was not really my type of favourite movie..But that time not really feeling very scary la, because we talked a lot of nonsense also,haha..
The nx morning again..we just called the taxi about 45 mins before we were going to Malacca Sentral..haha.Everything was really just so randomly..I really not feel like waking up in the morning because the bed was so comfortable to continue my dream..haha. But I knew I cant..We will be late for the bus if we cant wake up at that time..
When we reached Bus Station, we were quite nervous because that time was already 8.30am and our bus was the 8.30am one! If we really missed that bus then....I also duno how liao,haha. We went to check with the counter, they said the bus not yet reach. But got a guy at there keep on saying the bus has gone d..Their internal communication really got problem..But please dont make us feel so blurred ok..That counter guy really thought the bus has gone d and changed the bus ticket time for us..but quite thanks to him la, if the bus has really gone, luckily he din charged us extra for the nx bus..or else..I sure..@!$#@$#^%#^#... But I am not that type of person also la..:P
After knowing that we were still in time for that bus, all of us felt relieved..haha..
Thoughout the whole journey back Stephanie and I din sleep but chatting..but ah Pin and Car Car jiu..heheheheh..XD
The bus reached at station at about 10smth like that..That was the end of our Malacca trip.. I really enjoyed very much during this trip because got Car Car this 'siao za bo'..and of course ah Pin and Stephanie together in this trip..hahaha..of course la..I am not really normal as well..haha.xD
I think all of us did quite a lot of stupid things during the trip also la..:P
Back to Akasia, we saw Pin's family was there alr..quite shocked because never expect her family to reach so early..so it's time to pack to go home for her!haha..
We packed our things then went to Cemara to return our keys..feel like..unbelieveable..everything like just passing in a blink of an eye..even though the time during the exam period not really fast for me la..haha..
That time I was really thirsty and very hot..so we went to Bistro to buy my favourite--Limau Ais!haha..:P
After Pin went back with her family, I went to Stephanie and Carmen's room and stayed at there with them until my brother came..Carmen and I went to have lunch at McD together..when together with her, I really feel like I am siao and crazy d!haha..but I like it la!:P
We then went to Giant together to take boxes and buy a cellophone tape..The guy there wanted to sell us the empty boxes for RM2!of course we didnt buy la..haha..
then we went to Mydin there..luckily there got a lot for us and it was free of charge!
So Carmen jiu of course wont lose this opportunity and took as many as she can la..haha:D
Then I stay at their room until my car came..The time at there of course we were as siao as possible lo..haha..XD very enjoyed..but they had to pack things so I was just sitting at there and very free while looking at them busy packing..this feeling was syok..because no need to do anything..hahahaha:D
The holidays has started..7 weeks holiday..almost 2 months..feel like unbelieveable..haha..
A lot of things wanted to do but duno whether got this perseverance to complete it or not..haha..hopefully got la..A lot of trip coming also,quite looking forward towards it..haha..
I wanna enjoy as much as I can for this holidays..because I know that next sem will be a really busy sem for us..hehe..So..happily..I wanna announce to the whole world that..
I am HOLIDAY-ing!!!!!!!!!^^
Happy holidays to everyone:)

PS: Thanks to Huan De and Mei Chi for touring us around in Malacca..:)

Complicated

2010-05-03T22:43:00.004+08:00

As my post title meant, my feeling is complicated recently.
Sad and happy things came together..no matter what and how the sad things were, I hope I will try to get it off just like clicking the 'Delete' button in the windows. I dont like to remember sad things but the sad thing was it is the fact that the sad thing is the hardest thing to be removed and will stick in ur mind as long as you are alive unless you are in the state of unconsciousness or loss of memory???
Whatever la, the next 2 weeks will be the exam d. Feel like what lo now. Hope the time can pass very fast but at the same time hope that dont be too fast so that have enough time to finish studying the syllabus. After these 2 weeks, I will be freed!!!!!!yeah.. so excited about it. Because the time before exam is really hard to pass..first time feel so...Hard.
Back to hometown everything was very fine and happy for me.. can meet family and...cute baby.hehe..
Not having much hang out with frens these few days bcz I know I have to control myself,hehe. However, still managed to go out with them for a few times la..first time was because Doo's birthday. Quite surprise about this celebration also, cause everything was so suddenly but I still happy we had that gathering for her.:)
The second time...Dim Sum!haha..miss it for a long time. Ate a lot but compared to last time, not really much.:D
The third time...IP MAN 2!!!!wohoo...I love him so much!!!he is so man...Donnie Yen. My idol for NOW!
He even know how to play piano..walao eh. this type of man where to search for? Know Kung Fu but at the same time know piano also. So protective and so romantic at the same time..hahahaha..^^
This movie is really funny and nice but I didnt get to watch the opening due to some 'technical' problem,haha. But nvm la, I know for sure I will watch it for the second time, just duno when is it yet.hehe..
The most happy thing today was that....I get a surprise from my dear!!!!:D
Hey YOU, I know u are sure watching this post de. No matter how early or how late u r reading this post, as long as u r reading it! ^^
Thanks for the surprise ya, it was really a surprise for me at that moment because never will expect to receive my dear 'PRESENT' during that time. hehe..
Even though I know you will give it to me.but still I really feel very surprise at that moment..sincere feeling.
I will keep the PRESENT nicely so that one day when I old I still remember got SOMEBODY gave me this present before..
I really appreciate you as my friend..I duno how to express it in words but you know I know then no need to say much d la rite?hehe..:D
I know I still owe you SOMETHING..don worry, I still remember it in my heart..just looking forward towards it la..I wont disappoint you one..don worry..:)

被遗弃的信任

2010-04-07T22:08:00.005+08:00

信任是多么地被需要，而它却是那么地脆弱。
我承认我是个依赖性很强的人，所以，信任一个人对我来说很重要。
人，是不是越成长，就越烦恼呢?虽然知道烦恼的都是一些无关紧要，并且从前根本不会在乎的东西，但是自从踏进了某一段岁月后，不知不觉中都会变得在乎起这些东西。
越来越大的我，失去了从前不顾一切勇敢的精神，反而变得脆弱了。别问我为什么，我自己也不清楚。只知道，我的确不再像以前的我了。
这是个很可悲的事实，我也不喜欢自己的这种改变。但是，人嘛，总是会改变的。
优点会变缺点，但是缺点却停留在原地，不肯做出任何的改变。
不好听的话，我听得多了，但是依我的性格，根本就是不在乎的，因为我知道我控制不了别人的口舌。
反而，当某些不经意又很轻微的话语从对你来说是很亲的人的口中说出来时，你心中就会有种莫名的心痛。我的感情相较于从前，的确是丰富得多了，至少我明白了心痛的感觉。
这应该是第一次那么地痛心吧。我知道这番话其实是很普通的对话而已，而且对于现在的状况来说，它是必要的，但是它就是刺痛了我的心。
直到现在，回想起时，还是能够感受到泪水在眼眶里的温热，尽管事情发生到现在已经有一段时间了。
那晚，我回想起很多从前的一切，我觉得我对某种关系的信任与寄托，已经变得越来越少，甚至有了接近绝望的感觉了。无数次的错误，无数次的原谅，其实是很累的。
我明白我也不是完美的，但是我真的是很累了。
我真的明白现实中的一切，理智方面的我能接受这一切，但是感性方面的我的确觉得我受到了某种程度的委屈。我也真的明白没有人在这世界上是没有受过委屈的，但是这次，
我的心真的受伤了。
会痛，是因为很亲，很信任吧?
我也明白到了，就算跟你很亲的人，当口中所承诺与现实的生活发生冲突时，尽管他真的很想对你好，他也会因为无能为力(老实说，我也不是很确定是否如此)而被逼拒绝实现当初说过的一切，又或者是他可能忘记了所说过的一切。没什么不同，因为它的结果都是一样的，那又何必执著于它的原因是什么呢。我清楚知道没有要去怪罪于谁的必要，因为一切都是我自己的抉择。
既然如此，我自己就应该承担起所应该要负的责任和后果。
那晚的我翻来覆去，睡不着，回想着从前的一切一切，其实我不应该一早就投于那么大的信赖，因为没有一个人会愿意永远成为你的依靠，因为每个人都有每一个人要过的生活，不应该只是局限于你为中心而已。当时的话说得那么好听又有什么用呢?跟你有很亲的关系又有什么用呢?
有时的我反而感觉到，没有那种很亲的关系的人反而对你来得更好呢。虽然可能是因为他们不需要常常与我相聚，所以才会不计较地对我好吧。就算是计较也好，至少我真的感受到了某个程度上的被关心。很抱歉，但这就是我的真心话。
很抱歉我需要常常麻烦你们，我明白被麻烦的感觉也是不好受的。但是请你们明白，如果不是逼不得已或者是我能力所不及的，我绝对根本没有想要麻烦你们的想法。
很感谢曾经麻烦的一切。
我不喜欢伤害别人，因为我明白被伤害的感觉很不好受。不管我多不喜欢你，我都会试着控制我自己。
就算我真的被伤害了，我还是会尽量面带微笑对着你，因为我愿意相信那是种无心的伤害。
只是，最近的我很累，不对的时机加上不对的话语，只会造成不必要的伤害。
真的，不要要求别人会了解你，因为除了自己之外，不会再有人比你更了解你自己。
不开心的日子，始终会过去，我会试着忘记，虽然我明白被刺痛的心已留下了痕迹，但是我愿意尽量隐藏，直到我还有能力的那天。
被伤过的心，就像碎了的玻璃，就算接得回，它也有裂痕了。
PS:这篇文章并没有针对任何人，我纯粹只是想要表达近日来的感受。
人都会有累了的时候，这个时候的我，累了。

Busy week

2010-04-04T16:33:00.003+08:00

This week is such a busy week because there are many tests coming...Bio la..Maths la..Speaking test la..Then coming week will be Chem and Ethics test pula..
Is it means that a student life must be full of test + exams just can consider as normal?
At least the view point from now is like that la..Whatever la..all we as students could do is just following the system set guai guai-ly.
Last week was Pin's birthday. We celebrated with her at Secret Recipe earlier because I went back to Kl during weekend and couldnt celebrate wif her on the exact day. Paise ya Pin, I know u wont mind de la hor?
haha..I hope u like the present that I gv u la, bcz i really dont have any more ideas about what to give u le. Even though it is just a small insignificant thing that cant do anything for u, but I hope that it would remind u about me everytimes you look at it.
We may be together right now but who knows after a few years then? That time we hav to face our own future and life, so that's the only way I could make u to remember me always..wahahaha.XD bad motive..paise ha.
Thanks for being my housemate..Think about our past..we were classmate but actually we hardly have any communication at all bcz our places in the class were far away from each other and both of us oso busy for our own organisations respectively,haha.
Anyway, we are now in the same house la. means that we are given another chance to be together again. I appreciate u as my fren and housemate and ah pin,haha.
I noe I am irritating sometimes or...all the time?haha..no matter how, thanks for bearing with me and I hope that you can stay happy and show ur 'sunful' smile always..:D
Busy week is starting soon..Jiayou for the exam and tests together ya...
Good luck to all the frens who will be having exam, interview or whatever you think you need the wishes from me..^^

我

2010-03-27T00:04:00.004+08:00

今天的我很累。
但是，我的思想终于学会了一样非常重要的事情-->停止在我很不如意的时候做出无谓的挣扎，投诉，因为就算再多此类的不爽，也不会让现实生活有些什么改变。
我有这番言论，不是因为悲观，而是要真的懂得如何在逆境的时候做些实际的行动。不让自己掉进无底深渊。
不能否认的是，从以前到现在我还是会一直不停地不满着我所需要但没有的东西。
每次都让我觉得很痛苦，觉得人生有必要搞到这样吗?!
今天的我并不会特别舒服，但是我觉得开心的是，我脑子里出现的不再是不必要的后悔及痛苦，反而是充满了激励的话语，觉得以前的我终于回来了!
以前的我，再怎么辛苦，还不是就这样撑过来了吗?现在的这些苦，又算什么呢?尽管现在的苦是以前的几千万倍，我都必须告诉自己:我是行的!!!
我会学着不后悔，虽然它时不时还是会出现在脑中来骚扰我，但我会学会控制它，尽量不让它影响我的心情。
我会学会坚强，但这并不代表我没有脆弱的一面。
我会点头就算再不满意，不是因为懦弱，而是因为我真心对待，也因为我知道就算我拒绝又如何，你们并不了解我。
更何况，我也不需要你们的了解。我只希望了解我的，只会是有真心的你们。
虚情假意的，请闪边。
不要尝试控制我，我会做出连我自己都意想不到的反弹。
不要尝试命令我，那不是我会服从的方式，虽然我会做，但多数是因为我愿意包容。
不要尝试跨越我的界限，我不会告诉你我有多不爽，但是那只会扩大我们之间隐形的距离，何必呢?
现实中会发生很多令我不愉快的东西，但我会学会用我坚强的力量去抵抗它，因为我知道总有一天我还是需要自己一个人去面对这些人生难题的。
每个人都有觉得自己的天空很灰的时候。不一样的是灰的长度。
我不是脆弱的人，不要低估我。
我也不是非常坚强的人，请不要高估我。
知我者谓我心忧，不知我者谓我何求?
有谁了解我，或者说，又有谁是真的了解自己的?
我不喜欢悲观的想法，所以我尽量让自己的思想简单化，开心化--〉就是只想开心的事情!:)
就是这样子而已，我的天灰立刻变晴天，那不是很好吗?
天天都过得很快乐，不就是人生活在这世界上最享受的方法吗?
这是每个人都知道但是却不是每个人都能做得到的，包括我。
因为，我也是人。
记得听见S.H.E.的“天亮了”的时候，我就会觉得我的世界还是满载希望的，因为它的歌词很有意义，尤其是当自己曾经经历过这一切之后。

天亮了天亮了地球又转一圈了
既然我还幸运地活着
当然要全力以赴去快乐

天亮了天亮了世界还是好好的
什么痛都是很渺小的
看太阳不是又升起来了

我觉得这些词很写实，经历过意外之后才发现，没有什么事情比对自己好更重要。
所以，我会努力对自己好，对身边的人好。
这个世界还是很美好的，我会以正面的心态去面对一切未知的定数。
我以很发泄的方式开头这段文章，但我希望用‘希望在转角’的方式来结尾，因为我对自己，身边的人和这个世界还是很有信心的:)
矛盾吧，但，这就是我。^^

SHE is THE ONE Live in Malaysia Concert 2010~爱而唯一

2010-03-07T19:30:00.013+08:00

期待已久的门票^^

期待已久的一刻终于在不知不觉中来临了-->SHE 爱而唯一世界巡回演唱会 ^^-->030610

这次真的是非常神速而神不知，鬼不觉地那一种，因为我们的入门票也是在最后一个星期才购买的。为何是这样的呢?这就得问我最可爱的朋友啦。:P

从一月开始知道她们会在这里开演唱会时就非常期待及兴奋了，因为我已经期待她们会来这里开演唱会很久了，这次终于让我等到了!!!hehehe..

我很喜欢这次演唱会的主题，有种非常唯美的感觉，哈哈。

她们三个人之间的友情和默契，让我很佩服及羡慕，希望自己也能有这样子的朋友让我可以和她们一起开心地合唱着‘老婆’这首歌。出道快要十年了，这个团体还能屹立不倒，而且越发展越好，放眼望望这个圈子，从古至今，还真的是少见又或者是没见过呢?至少在我的知识范围内，是如此的。老实说，我也是到演唱会的前一晚或更正确是当天早上，才真正有非常兴奋的感觉，因为之前都忙于学业。这次我们的Gang总共有四个人，还蛮小的，哈哈。有我姐姐，MingKhai, Carmen 和我。我可怜的姐姐被我怂恿来她们的演唱会，因为基本上她也不是很迷她们的那一种，而且还要特地从AlorStar坐长途巴士来到KL只是为了陪我看她们的演唱会。谢谢你咯，我最亲爱的姐姐!mmuakcs..:D

当天，我和姐姐从Titiwangsa坐LRT直到Bukit Jalil,而MingKhai和Carmen 就从ShahAlam 一起去。他们早两个小时就到了，而我们大概7pm才到。幸好还来得及在那儿逛逛一会，因为常常去看电影或演唱会都有很赶的感觉，所以这次希望不会有这种感觉。摄影师+疯狂粉丝+忠心粉丝^^

随着进场的时间越来越接近，我就越来越兴奋。Carmen 也是非常兴奋呢!!!哈哈。但是姐姐和MingKhai的表情还算是冷静的。(不懂是不是他们的内心在压抑着他们的兴奋?:P)

这次很幸运哦，有免费的海报和扇子之类的东西拿，非常好康!!:D

四人行 ^^

大约8.20pm,演唱会终于正式的开场了!!!(其实之前就有本地歌手开始表演了)

整个演唱会的过程我都尽量希望不要错过任何一个环节，哈哈。可惜的是，我那一区的人不够high,所以有时候我觉得自己high到很像个疯人!!!:D

Carmen很劲，忙着观察SHE的每一个人和记录她们所演唱的歌曲，而MingKhai就像是个摄影师，忙着拍照(虽然照相机是不被允许带入场的，shhh...:P) 幸好有这位愿意全心全意照相的摄影师，所以现在也可说是有很多很美的演唱会照片:)

开场前兴奋的期待:D

虽然演唱会他们没有非常创意得像王力宏的表演，但是她们所呈现的表演方式还是非常有趣的。至少我非常喜欢，哈哈。她们唱很多首歌曲时我都觉得很感动，尤其是612星球，简直是我的Favourite!!!!^^

完美组合^^

她们三个人都非常有各自的特色，结合在一起是非常完美的组合!!!:D

到了唱‘爱我的资格’(另一个Favourite:P) 时，突然加插了一把男生的声音，原来是--〉林宥嘉!!!:D 他那晚的声音有些低沉，虽然平时已经是如此，但不知为何那晚我觉得特别低沉，哈哈。他出场的方式另我惊讶，因为我没想到会是在唱这首歌的情况下出现。所以，之后我就期待他会唱‘说谎’，结果。。。他只唱‘看见什么吃什么’一首歌而已。哈哈，但是也是ok啦，因为他唱得非常high,甚至让我觉得好像看见陈奕迅在唱的感觉。

不神秘的神秘嘉宾--Yoga + SHE

演唱会三个小时就结束了，非常舍不得哦，因为感觉上时间好像才过一会儿而已。她们以恋人未满一曲结束，让我觉得我好像是听他们的歌长大的，有些感触。演唱会结束时间是1120pm,所以我们过后得赶上LRT最后一班车，结果就跑到像个疯人那样，幸好最后给我们赶上那班车，觉得非常刺激!!!!:D

演唱会圆满落幕:)

疯狂后的狼狈样子:P

我觉得我在演唱会时摇荧光棒摇得太过火了，所以晚上睡觉时，手酸到。。怎么样换姿势睡都酸。但是太累了，所以我也不管那么多了。

那晚Mingkhai,Carmen和我都很迟睡，大概是3.45am这样。因为忙着回味演唱会的愉快和闲聊，哈哈。

我希望下次还有机会去他们的演唱会，也祝她们能永远那么漂亮，有活力，唱出更多更好听的歌曲!!!听说她们的新专辑即将要推出了，期待她们会带来另一个高峰!!!

唯一可惜的是，最后Annwen,Angie和Chinen都无法出席，一起疯狂。不过没关系啦，她们下一次的演唱会应该不远了吧，希望不会给我们等太久啦!:)

SHE, Be COOL FOREVER!!!!:)

PS: 感谢所有让我顺利出席这场演唱会的人，我爱你们:)

All Well Ends Not Really Well

2010-02-27T20:30:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was a day favoured by all students and workers--public holiday!
So, we decided to hang out in Sunway by watching Valentine's Day and eat steamboat.
I planned to go Sunway with Chin Cheah when on the way back from Alor Star to KL in the bus. In the end, the people who attend the hang out yesterday including Joolin, Ming Khai, Kok Wei, Jack Shen, Chin Cheah and Me. In fact, there was a lot of people went to Sunway yesterday--Michelle, Pin, Pei Zhi, Samantha, Steph, Sze Ming, Carmen...
It was really a fun day filled with happiness, laughness, and crazyness.
In the morning, there was 8 of us together went to Sunway by taking the KTM and the STUPIx mini bus.. Morning was feeling quite lazy to wake up because the night before we all slept late as we all chasing the drama 下一站，幸福..hehe. So we slept at about 3 that night.
Everything was quite alright until we took the mini bus. I thought it's really impossible for us to be going into that bus anymore...state more clearly, we should be SQUEEZING into the bus..The bus was so full..the main point was that we all standing right in front of the door of the bus and the door was OPENED!!! Could u imagine that how dangerous was that!!!!Stupid!
However, the only way to reach there early and cheaply was to sqeeeze into the bus.....really @#$@$#%#%$...Anyway, this opened my eyes very much, could be considered one of the special experience I had experienced in my life!
After reaching there, we went to buy the movie tickets first while waiting for other frens to come. There was 6 of us who watched the movie Valentine's Day together--Chin Cheah, Joolin, Ming Khai, Kok Wei, Jack Shen and me. The movie quite funny la..could be considered happy ending also. But never expect Taylors Swift could act that type of character so well because my impression about her was that she was quite a serious person..however, in the movie she was quite funny, haha..
Before the movie, we went to have lunch at Full House. The first time been there..the food really not bad and the portion was reasonable. Besides 6 of us, Chelle, Pin, Pei Zhi, Samantha and one of her fren also had lunch together with us. Even though before that, they all dont know each other well, but I think after that should be getting a bit closer than before that gua..mayb???I am not sure..:)
We had steamboat dinner that night together with Stanley. That restaurant was not in the Sunway but Bandar Sunway, so we need to walk to there.. at about 5 smth. We walked there. The distance was moderate, but because of chit chatting, I felt the distance was short.:D
I was so excited when I saw the ingredients in that restaurant because it was so much!!!:)
The most special thing about there was the chicken wings!hehe.. A lot of people was trying to get the chicken wings.. and all the wings could just finished within a few minutes..really very geng!!!
Should try it if got chance. We had a lot of fun during that dinner.. We chat a lot especially about dramas, haha.. Kpop wif Joolin..I just knew that day that she wanted to watch Super Junior concert but the tickets were all sold out ! Pity her..So i think i should appreciate the ticket that I have and enjoy the concert for her.:D
The thing that amaze me much was that she really Kpop until very geng and very gek dong..haha.
We reached the restaurant and start eating at about 5.30 like that but we left there at about 8 smth or 9 like that, really crazy. First time stay in a restaurant till so late I think. Hehe..I was so full during that time..Then, Stanley, Kokwei and Jackshen went back leaving Chincheah,Joolin, Mingkhai and me. We decided to move to another coffee shop to continue our conversation because there were a lot of ppl queing in front of the restaurant and we shouldnt be so bad to stay at there taking ppl's places.So..we went to Mc D.haha.. can stay at there chat freely and comfortably, not bad la. Then we walked back to Sunway again to get Taxi back to home. I followed CC back because my cousin will be fetching me at her house. However, because some technical problems happened, 3 of us stayed in Joolin's house first until my cousin came. Hehe..
We chat a lot in her house and I just realised that everyone has their own problems that need to be overcomed..So, we got to stay stronger!
Halfway, Joolin received a call which made us curious about the conversation--it was from Ming Khai!
Something bad had happened to him when he was on his journey back to Shah Alam at KTM station.. The lesson that could be learnt from this incident was that.. Please dont trust anyone even he or she is a GUARD..Dont take KTM at night..Dont go toilet alone!!!! We are all really sorry about this incident which make our wonderful day has such a bad ending!Sutpid person...stupid stupid guy!!!! I am thinking that nowadays Human is really much more dangerous and 'devilous' than any monsters or ghost!!! Many inhuman crimes had happened.. Crazy world..Crazy human.. with crazy actions..
Nothing much can say, Just be extra careful when you are at outside!
What made me more tired was that after back to my house, we just found out that our house waterless! The pump of our condo something wrong, the water was not available!!!really .....speechless.
At such late after playing and sweating a lot during the day, no water for me to bath was so SUFFERING!
So, we went to a fren's house there to take bath. Luckily, her house was not far away from us..Back to home after that, I straight slept. Really beh dong..
Whatever la..everything bad has become a past tense!!!
I am going to watch SHE concert soon,wahahahhahahaha...so excited about that..hehe..But what sad was that initially I got the chance to get the free tickets to go but because expired date has reached so now everything has become useless. Astro sent a letter to our house and stated that if call to the office before 24th of feb will get 2 free tickets but I today just read it so....that's the result.
No matter how, I am still feeling very excited la..sad that Annwen cant go. But I know sure got chance in the future one!:)

Farewell Gathering~New Year

2010-02-22T22:15:00.005+08:00

The day before I came back to Shah Alam, I had a gathering with my dearest friends.:)
Not really a farewell party la, just like a crazy party like that, wahaha.
That gathering got magician-HarBoon, Cuicui, Chiahuay, Ziyou, Kangyi and Chinen. However, Kheok and Annwen cant attend it.. Quite sad also la..(need to pretend a bit :P)
Although both of them didnt show up in the end, we still played till very happy la,haha...
Harboon as usual, showed us a lot of his COOL magics. It's really amazing until I want to call him master. I managed to learn some magics from him but I think I failed to perform it well,haha.
He is handsome when he is performing the magics, but just during that moment lo..:P
After the magic session was the photo session. We took a lot Photos really.. All photos like very crazy like that. Stupid person with stupid posts...haha.
We even took stupid videos... Magic video by Harboon and me. :D
I really enjoyed a lot during the chinese new year and I hope that we can gather together like this always...

Gathering At my house

Gathering At Kheok's house

Gathering at Winwei's house during the Second Day of New Year

My dear Friends ^^

Back to here, everything return to normal. Everyday go college, test, sleep, eat..
But what make me excited is that another mid sem break is just 3 weeks away from now, haha..I am really looking forward towards it..
O ya, I wanna specially thanks to Mr Tan Kang Yi for helping me to print my ethics notes and sent them to my house...seriously, thanks much!!!!:)
Wanna thanks chin cheah also, even though the notes you print for me was not complete but I will still try to appreciate it de la,hehe..
This Friday is public holiday, planning to go Sunway..yohoo!!!!!^^

Happy New Year 2010~虎年行大运~Wohoo:)

2010-02-18T04:34:00.003+08:00

This new year was totally a fantastic new year for me. I did a lot of crazy things. Haha..
Not really a lot la..But still broke my record lo.
I gamble with frens for not the first time...but for the very first time, I manage to 'give' them so much money!wahaha.. Not really them also, there was one of them who was so lucky until won me a lot!XD
This year I gamble with my frens until midnight and the money I had invested was like over my limit, haha. But overall still very happy la, because long time didnt gamble with them and we just play it once a year. So ok la..hehe. Lady luck was not by my side.. In the afternoon, the luck still quite not bad...However.....the consequences you know la.hehe.
Finally I knew that why so many people could gamble until broke, because I experienced it tonight(morning). haha.. It is really very addictive, so when you gamble please think about the money you need to pay then, dont learn like me. (:P)
These few days just went to relative and frens' houses to greet them happy chinese new year. Didnt study at all. Say yeah to myself!:D
During the new year, many things made me excited such as can eat till I syok and the food I like, another thing is that can watch movie! This event seems common but I like to watch it during new year because most movies are comedy and so I like it!:D I watched the 'All wells end wells too' and the '14 Blades' already but still have somemore not yet watch. Hope can finish watching it before I go back there, hehe.
Tomorrow going to sing K,yohoo!!!!Until now still not yet sleep, my voice tomorrow sure like what le.
I dont want the holidays to end so fast. I am really not resting enough. I still no buy my bus ticket yet, and I even didnt plan when to go back yet. I am really Yeng. hahaha...
Dont feel like going back. Dont want to have testS next week can?
I hope the answer is CAN.
I have a lot of things to do for this coming new year and I hope can achieve them one by one.
I will jot it down and by the end of the year, I hope I can make a tick for everyone of them.hehe..
I also have a lot of things want to buy. But gotta depend on myself...
No matter how, I hope the bad things will go away from everyone of us and the good luck is waiting for us in front there and approaching us NOW!:)
Some of my frens gonna have their final and quizzz soon like me also, I wish you guys best of luck!:)
For those going to take the results, I wish you all ALL the BEST!!!
The conclusion I want to make here is that.... Wish everyone of you dream what get what!
Enjoy the life as much as you can!!!!^^

PS: O ya, one of the memorable event for me during this new year was that we had a steamboat dinner at Win Wei/ Win Shen's home. Thanks to them and their family,relative very much for preparing that delicious dinner. We all enjoyed it much!^^ Hope can have this type of dinner again for the coming new yearS. I am really feeling happy to gather with them!
Happy chinese new year 2010 to everyone, HUAT ar~!!!!^^

New Year Gathering~Classmates

2010-02-10T23:22:00.003+08:00

Today was the day I have been looking forward for a long time because finally we have done our BIO test!!!!
We started our test earlier, which was 3.25pm to 4.55pm.(supposingly to be 4 to 5pm) It was half an hour but I feel like the time was really not enough for me to do the checking. Anyway, I felt grateful that I have enough time to finish it,hehe.
Last few days was so stress to study up the Bio syllabus. I really felt relieved when it was the time to pass up the paper!!!hooray!!!!
I dont feel the paper was too hard or too easy, it's like medium. I left not much time after finishing my last question but could still manage to check some ques. However, I knew that there are some questions that I did wrong. Whatever la, I cant change any answers of the paper already. Now, all in my mind just about~~~GOING HOME!!!
After the Bio test, I went out with almost all the classmates except a few of them who cant make it. Initially, we wanted to go there by taxi but then no taxi available for us to go Sunway straight away. So, in the end we went to Sunway by KTM + KL rapid. It is cheap, haha. Good also la, could save more as I have spent a lot in this month. I should have more self control but..I just couldnt.:P
We went to have dinner at Sushi King there. However, I just ate sushi at there as the duration to serve our food was so long until we cancelled the order! My first time to do so in my life. Haha.. Thanks to Rosh, my brave lovely classmate. She is really cool and protectful. I think her children must be feeling very safe and reliable under her protection, haha! She complaint about the bad service of the staff there. Seriously, their service tonight was bad. I had a bad impression about them. Then we went to a shop which is full of sweets to buy something. I bought chocolate from there. The chocolate is a special one because its shape looks like rock. I even bought some chocolate from the chocolate fair that is being held in there now,hehe.
Tonight went to Sunway like my main purpose was to eat only,haha.
That's true because nothing else can I buy from there.
We then went to eat my favourite---XXL Crispy Chicken!!!!yohoo.yummy!:D
3 weeks effort of jogging like...ruin in a few days time. haha. Well, dont care that much, my main aim during this new year is to EAT!!!haha..
I have been celebrated the chinese new year for the past 18 years but this year seems bit different for me. I feel extra excited about it and feel like going home NOW!
Tomorrow class still on but feel like holidays have started since the moment I have passed up my Bio paper,hehe.:D
Mayb I am now far away from my home, so I feel extra looking forward to go back home.^^
my Dear Home, Here I come!:)

P/S: I even met Chin Cheah in Sunway there. I felt supprised to meet her there because before I was going there I actually think about whether will us meet at there. Haha.. The time when we meet each other like got a bit funny because our faces like unbelieveable to meet with each other like that.XD

Meaningful Day

2010-02-04T23:54:00.004+08:00

Today was a meaningful day in my life.
I done something that I have never try in my life before--> Blood donation.
Haha.. It was actually happenning randomly. Means that I never plan to do it today but it just happened like that.
This morning while walking into our college, I saw a notice board there right in the middle of the road at the gate there noticed about the blood donation campaign today. I was quite shock about it because it was so suddenly. Normally in primary or secondary school, this will not be the case. The school will usually inform us few days before or one day before.
However, I never think much about that later. At that moment, I really got think of whether want to donate or not but then after entering the class, I totally forget about this event.
Until after we have finished our classes, I saw my classmates were holding a form in their hands. Due to my strong curiosity, I asked them what was the form about. Yea, thanks to my curiosity, this made me wanted to donate blood. Haha.. Initially, I was actually ignored to do so because it was so suddenly and I never mentally prepare about it and the most important thing was..I scare painfulness. Haha. But then as one of my very GOOD friend keep on asking me to donate blood.. then I changed my mind. I wanna know what will the feelings be like.
So I followed my friends to the old library there. There was quite many people there to donate their blood but luckily it was not that much until I need to queue up for more than an hour.
The whole process was simple.
1.Fill up the form.
2.Blood test to know my blood type and whether am I qualified to donate the blood.(If Haemoglobin blood count low, it is not qualified to donate blood.)
However, thanks to my healthy meal..I was qualified.^^
3.Check for blood pressure.
4.Waiting to be called to start blood donation.
5.Sitting quitely and peacefully while donating blood.
6.End the blood donation with a relieving smile.:D
Yeah..that's all what I did today while there to first time donate my blood in my life.
It took me about an hour for the whole procedure. However, actually the process to donate blood was just about 5 minutes or less. The rest was the time used to wait for the several tests.
I felt happy after donating my blood. I dont know what else decription I can use to decribe my mood at that moment. My first time to donate blood..Feel meaningful and like doing something great for the others.^^
I saw someone felt dizzy after donating their blood. So, please make sure that you are really in healthy condition before you wanna donate blood.
As I donated blood today, I didnt go jogging as I planned yesterday. Haha.. really tired after the donation. Even until now...
We went for Mc D tonight ,yohoo. The first time that FOUR of us(Michelle, Pin, Kah Yan and me^^) went to McD together I think???
I felt so excited. We planned to study at there but the plan failed. Not really fail la,but we changed our plan. We changed the location. We changed it to study room. Wao, the first time for me to study in study room since I came to Intec. Haha.. That's great. Studying in the study room was really comfortable and quite effective I guess.(There got air-cond ma..:P) We took a lot of pictures. Not really a lot but still not little lo. Quite FUN:)
I ordered Happy Meal for the Mc D,consisting of Chicken Burger and french Fries. Then I ordered apple pie as well. Hehe..my favourite.:)
Today was really a tiring day for me but...I am really happy.^^
P/S: Get to know that class tomorrow will start at 9, which usually should be started at 8. very happy because can sleep longer..yohoo:D

Consolation

2010-02-01T18:58:00.007+08:00

Almost half a month since I last updated my blog. Actually I had been gone through a lot of things during the last few weeks. I didnt blog it up here because I was lazy and because I had written them in my very first journal, hehe. Due to the fact that if I were to write it here, I would end up repeat the same things in the blog as my journal, so I chose to keep them in my journal.
SOMEBODY reminded me to update my blog, because of this SOMEBODY, I decided to do so, hehe. Even though I would like to highlight who this SOMEBODY was, but as this SOMEBODY wanted to be high profile and I wouldnt like to do so for this SOMEBODY, so I made up my mind not to reveal the name here. :P
I went out to Sunway during last Friday and Saturday continuously with friends.
On friday, I went with Pin, Soo Ming and Stephanie. We shopped a lot of shops but i didnt even buy a shirt on that day. The clothes I wanted were too expensive. So, I decided to shut my desire to own them down.
On Saturday, I went with Pin because I had 2 free movie tickets. Thus, we decided to go there shopping again and watch a movie--Tooth Fairy. It was indeed a funny and warming movie. Please watch it if you are free to do so. It will really touch your heart. :)
I received a call yesterday which made me felt very relax. Everytimes talk with her, must be a lot of crapping, haha. The minimum time of our conversation must be at least 30 minutes, I knew that our highest record was 4 hours, is it??haha..I am not really sure already.
The call yesterday was a bit different from the last few times, this time was to seek for my understanding and consolation. Honestly, I am not a person who is good in consoling people, even though that person was my best friend, the best I can do was only sitting beside him or her quitely. I used the way that I usually talk with her to treat her. The result I think...was quite successful gua?hahaha.. IF I really didnt make it successful, at least the time during our conversation, you are happy one,rite???(MUST say YES!!!!:P)

To YOU:

I really understand you.(我懂^^)~人生已经如此的艰难，有些事情就不要拆穿~I am sorry for always revealing your real side but I know that's why we became so close rite???wahahaha.:D 你知道的，我对你从来就不会假装:P Please stay strong when you feel down and I know you will always do that because dont want to make me worry, rite?:P I would always be there for you when you need me, please call me or sms me or email me or facebook me or msn me or even letter me?ok? See, there are a lot of ways for you to contact me, thanks to the advanced technology ok?:D If really cant wait to see me, please come KL to see me la,haha.. I appreciate you as my dear friend and I always hope and wish that you would stay happy and healthy always. :) Now, the most important thing I want to tell you is that...PLEASE make sure whether you are going the concert with me or not ASAP!!!! Thats the most important thing ok??:P I really hope can go to the concert with you la, can shout and be crazy together ma, that's more fun ma hor?(saying this unwillingly >.<)

I found out something which I think was quite interesting previously. When someone was down and come to talk with me, I usually think in the rational way and ask the person not to be so down and try to analyse the condition to make him or her understand that at that situation was not the worst situation for him. I found out that..this is NOT WORKING for most of the people. Why am I having such a conclusion? I think even for myself, I am also not hoping to be rational when I am down or frustrated. Everyone is actually rational, just when they are in the state of emo, they just hope there is always someone staying beside them to tell them: I understand.
No matter they really understand or not, this is just to make sure that can let the person to feel that he or she is not alone. I feel lucky that I have this type of friend, even though he or she may not always beside me, but I know deep inside my heart, YOU are always there for me, rite???(again, MUST say YES!!!!:P) I know it is hard to find such a person as a true friend, so I appreciate. Instead of having a lot of friends who dont understand me, I would prefer to have a really really TRUE Friend who understand me well.:)
Another thing was that.. Is telling the truth really good for a person?
Or actually you are just upsetting the person?
Sometimes, my friends ask me to tell them the truth when they have some questions to ask me and I did. I tell them the truth. I thought it would be good for them to listen to the true words from me. However, I found out that.. TRUTH is not what they really wanted from me.
After telling the truth, I saw an upset face from them and I felt..I am bad. So, I am quite lost of whether telling the truth was the right thing for me to do. Even for myself, I also not really want to listen to the truth from the others unless I feel that the truth is comfortable for me to know. Nevertheless, I dont think there is a lot of truths that will make people to happy with it. Truth is a very reality thing. In spite of being unhappy, I would still like to listen truths from the others when I know I have to. Mayb depends on who is the person that is telling me the truth lo. Today, I learnt Ethics and knew that there is actually no a guideline to tell you that whether telling the truth or being honest is right or wrong, it all depends on your own perception. I knew that whenever I think it is the right thing for me to do, then I will just go for it!!!:)
I went to jogging alone this evening and I really made it to jog for 4 rounds continuously plus another 1 round after resting for a while. I am really happy and feeling satistied with it!^^ I started jogging since the last few weeks and I found out that my stamina was really not as good as last time already. OR mayb I am becoming more lazier to complete what I planned to do with. The fact is that I knew that I could continue jogging but instead of doing so, I stopped. I told myself: okay, that's enough for today but actually I could continue carry on. I think my determination was not as strong as last time already and this is the TRUTH for me now. I gotta change myself or else I will turn worse and worse in the end. Determination is really an important element for me to continue with what I wanted to do. I felt useless when I knew that I stopped to carry on with what actually I could continue carry on! No more for me I hope. But the sun this evening was really so big until I hope that there is an umbrella above my head to prevent myself from exposing too much to the sunlight.(a lot of UV rays ma:D) I do not hope to be a 'dark' person to celebrate the Chinese New Year le.:P
Talking about umbrella, I bought a new umbrella from Hang Ten during last Saturday and I am glad to have it, hehe. My favourite colour--red. Feel save to have it, haha.
I think that's enough for this time as it is time for me to go and take a refreshing bath. Haha..
~A somebody was once a nobody who wanted and did~
-->I found this is very meaningful and hope it can motivate you.
Everyday will be a good day for you and me. Jiayou!!!!:)

P/S: Happy birthday to Ying Ci and Mei Zhen!!!hope u all stay happy always!:)

Life Without ICE

2010-01-16T15:21:00.004+08:00

Yea..due to the injury, I cannot drink cold drinks.
Congrats to me..
Even though I was told not to drink it, but sometimes I also cannot withstand it, so I just go for it, haha.
The consequences of drinking it are quite serious mayb..
mayb one day when I am old, I will feel pain or 'sour'.
Even now, I sometimes feel like that already. Dont like that feeling but nevermind, it's okay.
Hehe..
I learnt something good in an article: When something bad happen to you, dont ask: why me?
Instead of asking this, ask: why am I still alive?
I think it is much more better to think in this way..and this make me appreciate of still being alive now,haha. Life is too short for us to be unhappy, mayb sometimes the unhappiness is unvoidable, but I will try to minimise it.
These few days I really try my best to avoid cold drinks..but still got a few times I curi curi drink it.haha.. quite guilty la, because I am the one to bear with the consequences later, why still wanna treat myself so bad le.
Just now went out to have lunch with cousin at TBR to eat my favourite chicken rice..very happy:D
It has been a long time since my last time eating at there. It is near TARC college there.
Again, I curi curi drink the cold drinks, haha..because really long time no eat or drink the things there already. I feel so sorry to myself..but I promise..No more..Really no more..(hopefully la..:P)
Last few days went to have dinner at McD with Chelle and Pin. hehe..Long time no eat Mc D also. But for me is quite weird to eat fast food without drinking the soft drinks la, so again, I drank bit bit coke.hehe..
Open school for 2 weeks, never really study yet.
Just keep on enjoying with the dramas..Haha.
Well..gotta control myself d.
My report..omg..please..can you complete it yourself..
Long time didnt touch since Tuesday mayb?
Good.. Slow and steady..
NOW...I promise myself..MUST not drink cold drinks until I get the permission to do so!!!!

Back to be an Intectian^^

2010-01-05T18:48:00.003+08:00

After 1month plus holidays..Finally, I am back to here, Shah Alam Section 18 Akasia again.
The holidays are really not enough for me..to do anything i really like to do.
Today is not the first day I am back to here..It is the..3rd day. Everything is much better than what I thought, thanks much. Mayb this is just because of that our class havent really started. Actually, our classes will just be started tomorrow.
The first day i back to here was the day for us to register for our hostel.
The second day was for us to register at the college INTEC.
The third day, today was the day for us to listen to an interesting talk from our head of programme.
We actually came out from our hostel 30 minutes earlier, but as there were many people queing up at the bus station and we were the third or the fourth bus like that. So in the end...we were late^^
I was actually surprised to find that the talk had started when we reached college, because we were just 10 minutes late. Never thought that the talk will be really so punctual.:P
Sorry for being late ha..
Anyway la,I think we didnt miss out any important points.
Today was the day I REALLY started up my BIO assignment. Happy to tell that but also sad to tell that. I was supposed to start it one month ago, but due to laziness...ah hemm....hehe.
I just finished the first part of it and there are really many many partsssssss of it waiting for me to finish. YEAH!!!hoorayyyyyy...
Tomorrow is the REAL day for us to go to school. The funniest part is I dont really know my timetable..I thought tomorrow is tuesday so I just looked through the time table on this day..mana tau..
when back to hostel just think tiok tomorrow is wednesday,yeah..
Whatever la, I hope tomorrow dont really start the class yet la,or mayb this whole week also dont start first la..wahahaha...:D
Just back from jogging with Michelle, ah Pin, Kiat Lay, ah Yan, Stephanie, Soo Ming and Carmen. Very syok!!!I just found out that listening to music during jogging is very comfortable. It made me more energetic especially when reached the hot hot songs, ROCK babe!^^
Tonight sure can sleep very well because now got bit tired..
Yeah, Intec..I am back!!!!
-_-''
The time the school starts means that it is time for me to look forward to the next holidays,yea!^^

回顾

2009-12-29T21:10:00.006+08:00

一年的尾声就这样子突然出现了。

今年对我来说，可说是多风多雨的一年。

这样来说吧，可把它分成两个部分，上半年和下半年这两个部分。

上半年呢，可说多数都是在娱乐。虽然我在一月的时候就已经乖乖地去上学了，但是我的心情老实说都是处于玩乐的心态。在处于这种状态之下要我认真读书，还真的是有些困难呢。

当时我的读书人生其实出现了很大的转变。天真的我以为出外读书是一件乐事，其实恰恰相反。

你回家时，只有你一个人。

晚餐吃什么也不定。

想要说话只能对自己说，不然就是打电话给别人咯。

我的到了更多的自由，但同时我得到了更多的寂寞。

这两种东西，是directly propotional的吗？我在今年才了解到耶。

所以，现在的我真的很珍惜放假回到家里的快乐和乐趣。

当时会那么早开始读书，是因为我得到了Taylor's College的Principal's Award.

奖学金的其中一种。可让家人节省一笔钱。我见当时反正等着成绩的同时也是逍遥的，倒不如就早早开始上学算了。到了KL是住在亲戚家(也是现在阿姨在KL的家)，其实真的是算非常幸运了。因为之前也常常到KL去住过这屋子，但对于当时的我还是有些陌生啦不懂为何。(现在已经完全不陌生了:) )

还记得当初，是在阿姨和妈妈的陪同下一起带我到那里去的。

起初，我还不觉得有些什么。但是，到了送妈妈和阿姨上巴士回家的那天，我的眼泪开始不听使唤了。那是我人生中第一次离开家人到那么远的地方去读书。

其实，也不算离开家人啦，因为在KL也有表哥表姐哥哥在。

但是，心中还是有中莫名的孤单感。

离开家人，离开朋友，往一个陌生的新环境展开我人生的新旅程。

我的College离开我们的家并不远，开始的两个星期都是我的表姐载我返回学校的。因为我还不认识那里的环境，须靠着两个星期去适应。

最后当我适应了那里的路后，我就有车驾了，很自由对吧？

所以，上半年的我，真的是过得非常的快活。

上学的第一天，我根本没有朋友，我只能自己提起勇气，往大厅走去。

当时上天非常眷顾我，我班里的朋友都非常不错。虽然我们平时并没有谈心事什么的，但总算是与他们度过愉快的一个学期。那里的教授也是非常幽默，到现在，我还是有些想念他们的。

一起上课半年了，说没有感情也是骗人的啦。

那时的我虽然都是玩乐的心情，但是我也有认真读书的时候啦。有Test时，我还是得乖乖K书的勒。

当时我的每日行程差不多是这样子的。。

上课日。。

闹钟响了。。继续睡。。闹钟再次响。。只剩半个小时了，okay，it is time to wake up!!!:P

然后匆匆忙忙地冲去厕所准备，再‘飞车’到学校去，哈哈。现在想起来也是很好笑。刚开始的我很乖的，不会迟到，但是日子久后，本性就慢慢。。嘻嘻。

上完课后，回到家里。。发呆一下，睡午觉一下，醒来边看康熙边运动。有些健康。。哈哈。

当时最能娱乐我得节目就非康熙和星光大道莫属啦。我喜欢康熙的豪迈，欣赏星光的色彩。

虽然星光多数都是我看过得了，但是重看还是很好看！！尤其是第一季到第三季的!!!

晚上。。匆忙地做完功课后就会开始看戏啦，不好的示范。但是假如隔天有test还是会好好地读书啦。

刚开始的我，其实还是非常有冲劲的，但是日子久了，engine就变慢了。可能因为充电还不够就要开学了吧。

当时在班里，多数是与Marilyn,Jin Yin和Yi Xin一起混，哈哈。很开心到现在还是有一点点地联络。那时候有一起庆祝生日啊，逛街啊，吃东西啊，只差没有唱K.也很感谢他们帮我庆祝生日啦^^

上半年的我，其实蛮挥霍的，还看了不少场的演唱会，嘻嘻。

包括有阿妹，王力宏和梁静茹的，真的是很感恩啊!!!

阿妹会去是因为表哥要去，所以我就顺便咯。。

王力宏的，是因为堂姐有邀刚好自己想看，机缘巧合下就let's go啦。

Fish 的也是因为我想去加上有AnnWen的推动，所以最后也成啦!!!

嗯，非常享受的上半年，哈哈。

接近年中的时候，就开始认真思考我的未来动向咯。

那时候的我整整烦了很久，其实也是不需要烦的啦，但是因为有太多的意见及自己也有太多的想法，所以一直拖拖拉拉，无法下决定。但是现在看来，我当时的决定也是对的!!!^^

现在想起来有点不值得耶，为了这个决定，让我烦了很久，没有好好享受，人啊，都爱自找烦恼:P

因为这个烦恼，所以我当时在taylors的考试并不理想，说来真是惭愧啊。:P

下半年的我，又有机会开始全力冲刺啦!

我觉得自己真的很幸运，有机会再次重新开始，所以我很感恩!

在Intec里，又有新的事物要学习啦。

之前得学习一个人呆在家里的日子，现在得学会与他人一起相处的日子。毕竟我不曾与朋友同住一个屋檐下，更何况当时我们都不认识彼此。就算是有认识的，也并不熟。

我觉得很有趣，很感谢上天这样子的安排，让我的人生非常精彩!

现在的我们都算熟了啦，至少对我来说是这样子啦。

我觉得我是非常非常幸运的，有那么好的屋友，室友，班友。

所以把我当时心中的那种伤心感都驱走了，没什么好不满的啦。

下半年的我，就像个真正的学生啦，得自己做巴士到学校，然后走进班里。在同一年里有两种不同方式的上课体验，很不错哦。^^

也是在这里，我更了解时下的KPOP啦，这还真的是要感谢某人的大力推荐啊:P

我基本上很赞同我在书里看过的一些想法:

以前，在学校就算是有多不愉快，回到家里见到家人，一切都会没事，但现在的宿舍生活让我学习如何应对在学校里的不愉快，别把它带回宿舍影响自己，影响他人。

在这年里，我学习了很多东西哦。

坐KTM啊，LRT啊。。认识了很多东马的朋友，马来朋友，煮面啊，看Heroes，Grey's Anatomy，古灵精探B。。

回到宿舍，还可以有人一起谈天的感觉也是不错的。

大家一起看戏，K书，期待回家的日子。。那感觉只有宿舍生活才能体验到吧^^

还蛮享受的啦。没有冷气，但是躺在床上睡觉时还是有些温暖的。。

终于一起挨到了SemBreak。。我有很多的事情要去玩的。。哪里知道，一场意外，使得我得改变我的计划了，真是人算不如天算啊。

这场意外，如果只看车子，会觉得是场非常严重的意外，但我们车里的人都竟然没事!!!

这些事情都是很神奇的，我相信福报这种事情，也相信多做善事能积德的道理。

我相信是因为平时家人都有拜拜，布施，所以当有不可避免的意外要发生时，它的伤害力会减到最低。我最然左手有骨折，但是现在我还能坐在这里写这些东西，我知道我就要很感恩了!!!

最近社会上发生了很多不愉快的事情。。觉得人啊，其实能活得平安健康，快乐就好!

这个假期，也可以说是很精彩的啦，虽然受伤，但是总算是有另一番的体验。我基本上十一月份的时间都是花在住院，疗伤。。虽然现在还是有继续地在疗伤。

我很感谢中医(Jitra的周师傅)，如果不是他，现在的我还不能那么快就将我的手提起来。

这段期间，其实我已有整整一个月的时间，不方便为自己梳洗。那时，都是我亲爱的家人在帮我打理着一切。受伤的那段期间我心里有很多的感受都有提过了，因为太接近现在，所以也没什么好说了。。一句话，惜福.

最近，家里也是发生了许多事情啦，家家都有本难念的经，只是看你如何把这本经诠释得好而已。假期里，应该有assignment要做的，但是因为没心情加懒惰，只好延迟到现在啦，应该是回去才会动手了吧:P

当我才开始真正享受放假的乐趣，却是时候要回去乖乖上课了。。真是的。。我好不舍得啊。

新的一年就要来啦，愿所有不好的一切，就像将被撕下的日历般，全都被撕碎了。。美好的事物呢，就像曙光，一直照亮着我们!!!

今年遇到了很多事物，有美好的，有愤怒的，有忧愁的，有令人遗憾的。。无论如何，都是我生命里很值得珍藏的一份回忆!

亲爱的家人，朋友们。。谢谢你们陪我走过这一年。。

2009，再见!

2010，会是更美好的一年!^^

圣诞夜倒数

2009-12-28T16:11:00.003+08:00

长了这么大，今年是我第一次与朋友们一起到槟城去倒数。
过程其实满辛苦的，因为前几天是Camping的关系，又有两晚整夜都没睡觉了。第一晚是在Camp的前一晚，第二晚是在CampFire的那一晚。通宵没睡觉还真的是我生平第一次这样子。以前无论看戏或读书到多晚，都不曾试过一整晚没睡，我再次为吉圣献上了我的第一次咯，哈哈。
在Camp的前一晚要留下过夜，是为了想看看早上Kumpul members 时他们的样子，但是与我想象中的实在相差太远了。印象中，第一天CC kumpul大家的画面应该是充满朝气，一副具备好要接受挑战的样子。谁知道。。
大家的样子在我看来都很像死鱼。就连应该很英勇的LeaderGroup也是这样子。
为什么会这样子?我真的很想问。每一年Camping要求Members筹备的东西都可说是差不多，为什么今年的你们会变成这样子？我不懂到哪里去寻找答案。我觉得不是以前的Seniors太强，而是现在的Members都变弱了。这个是个值得深思的问题。
为了看这种画面而一整晚没睡觉，我自己都不知道值得吗。
一夜没睡觉的我们，就呆在课室里谈天，谈些有的没的，真的很爽。哈哈。
耐不住蚊子的强势攻击，我们移师阵地到StJohn Room去。跟以往一样，Camping期间的StJohn Room 老是非常杂乱的样子。这种恶习不懂合时才能撤除。
好不容易找到位子坐下来，就开始打算要睡觉。但是不甘寂寞的我，觉得睡意还没出现，就翻开了Farewell的书，看看这些小朋友们写些什么东东。读了他们的感言，我才发现很多人都长大了，连一些以往我觉得很调皮的，都慢慢成长了，看，吉圣就是有这种力量，我称之为魔力。:)
熬到早上看完他们集合后，就回家去補眠了。一夜没睡觉的眠，真的是非常难補回啊。我整整睡到那天下午的6.50pm.醒来看到手机上的时间时，我自己也吓了一跳呢!
醒来梳洗一番，又回到学校去了。哈哈，不懂为什么，虽然很累，但还是想回去学校看看他们在搞些什么活动，是我太有空了吗?:P
看着他们扎营时有气无力的样子，就觉得有些气，以前的我们再怎么累，也不可能有这个Look吧。真奇怪如今的Members怎么会‘进化’到这种程度呢？
但是看着帐篷，我想起了以前camping时的一些事情，是Camping让我更了解吉圣，更爱吉圣的。我不懂现在的Camping已经变成对Members有什么意义了。但是，如果好好珍惜，Camping能给的绝对是无法想象的。
我有些后悔没好好学习如何扎营，以前只会猛挖洞，哈哈。当看见自己挖的洞快完成时，那种痛快感真的是爽到。。
看见进入HolidaysCamp的他们依然还是那么有气无力地，我真不明白他们明不明白什么是雨后的彩虹--看不见他们的享受。或者是我没有好好参与吧?
我虽然没有参加今年的Camp,但某程度上我还是有参与的，就像是Confidence walk.嘻嘻。
老实说，我觉得还蛮恐怖的，尤其是当全校都关上灯光的那一刻，整个学校突然沉了下来--一片黑暗。
但是经过一段时间的适应之后，又觉得其实黑暗没那么可怕。我们只是需要时间去适应它。
那晚的星星闪得特别的亮，点缀着黑暗的夜空，让那晚的天空显得特别的美丽，耀眼。
所有的恐怖已被这些星星给驱散了。。
我感觉的到Confidencewalk的宗旨--勇敢，自信，信任。
勇敢地在黑暗中前进，即使所有的一切都已变得很黑暗，都得勇敢跨出你的第一步，坚持走下去。
要对自己有信心，相信自己跨出的每一步都是正确的选择。
信任身边的朋友，尤其是当你蒙上眼睛的那一刻。你已经看不见前方的路该如何走下去，只能依靠朋友的指示。这时候，就视乎你有多放心地信任他人了。
我看见有些member很害怕，不放心，也看见很信任他人的。生活上的一切也是这样子的，不是吗？
无论过程如何地黑暗，最终所抵达的，也是光明的那端-天亮!!!:)
恭喜走完Camping的你们，你们能坚持到这天，证明了其实你们都是很强的，你们都要坚持到底啊，吉圣还有很多更美好的事情在等着你们去发掘，要加油啊!
走完confidencewalk 过后，觉得非常累，就和Yan Yee, Phey Jia, Bee Tin, Jun Kang, Kang Yi, Yi Jing & Wei Sheng到记得来去吃早餐。但是ah Sheng的车突然爆胎，最终缺席。哈哈，可怜。
隔天就是我们要到槟城去的日子了，但是我实在是非常累!我实在是不明白为什么要搞到酱累。。
但是过程还是蛮享受的啦。
回家睡不到一个小时就得准备到车站去了。
这次的槟城行有--Ann Wen, Kheok, Wei Sheng, Ren Ming, Huat Kun, Jun Kang, Yi Jing, Kang Yi, Zi -You, Zi Xian.
那里真的有好多人，大节日是这样子的啦。
第一天就到Queensbay去摇了，但因为没什么好摇，我们就选择看戏啦，我们看AVATAR!!!
是个内容很好的戏，很值得一看!看到紧张时，我真的很痛恨人类的自私与愚蠢，我竟然还很想与戏里的主角一起去打倒人类呢，神奇的一部戏，会让我憎恨人类--自己。哈哈。
晚上就坐taxi到Gurney 去准备倒数了。虽然发生了一些不愉快的事情，但是最终还是好好的啦。事情不能圆满落幕，但是就当作是一个教训吧。别再伤心咯，我挺你!:)
那时的我基本上没什么倒数的心情，觉得很热很累，哈哈。奇怪吧，我也不知道，可能之前没睡觉，真的太累了。
倒数后就看着人们在那里‘表演’-喷东西在路过的车子上。
呆了一会，我们就会饭店了，因为大家都很累了。
因为太早回了，所以来不及看见报纸上所刊登的闹事事件，真是有些可惜。
但是无论如何，希望此类事件别再发生，因为最终受伤害的，还是滋事的自己!
睡了一晚，也不能说是很完整的一晚，隔天还是有些累，但比昨天好多咯!
走来走去，最后还是决定要看戏，哈哈。
好啊，正合我意!:P
最后决定看--十月围城!
本来觉得这戏应该会很闷得吧，但是，真的是非常x1000000000好看!
没有夸张哦，很感动的，我自己也不小心留下了感动的眼泪，为那些愿意打拼出更美好的中国的祖先心酸，我也在这里向他们致敬!!!戏里面也显露的，父爱的伟大，为了孩子，愿意改变自己，为了孩子，愿意牺牲!!!
看完这电影，还真的是感触良多啊。
买戏票时，突然遇见了表哥，哈哈。真的是可爱。
在我买完票后，转过身来的那一刹那看见他的那种感觉，很奇妙，好笑。:P
本来还在犹豫着要怎么处理我们的行李，但是遇见他后，问题就解决啦--放在他的车上给他载回去。谢咯:)
就这样子啦，看完戏后就搭乘Ferry还有bus回家了。觉得很累，但还是蛮享受的啦。
嘻嘻，人生嘛，要懂得享受^^
回来的那一晚，本来要出去meet Cui,Huay,ChinEn,Winwei的。但是实在是累到不行了，我很需要睡觉，哈。
Paise 啊，亲爱的你们，我有心无力啊那一晚，但是我相信你们还是很享受的啦，对吗?:P
前天，跟妈到槟城去处理些事情，来回的路程都是我驾的，好累啊!!!
不止这样，我还得先从Padang Besar驾到槟城再驾回去AS，tudio,我自己也不知道原来我能撑那么久。哈哈。
回到AS后，其实蛮紧张的，因为想要到车站去送Chinen。放妈下车后就赶到车站去了。
以为我回来不及，那里知道。。
Chinen,你在哪里啊？
我在家啊。。
听到这样，我才放心，幸好不是上了巴士了。
这次他回来，我们都没什么机会好好地聚在一起，真是辛苦他了。
看见他上了巴士，要往新加坡去了，觉得有些感慨，希望分隔各地的朋友们，都能过得很好，要一起加油啊^^
下次大家一起回来，一定要好好地Gather!!!:)
离开开学只剩下非常短的几天，很不想啊!!!!
我要好好把握这几天。。

Taiwan~Touch Your Heart 台湾之旅

2009-12-16T00:58:00.004+08:00

期待已久，终于等到了这一天。。
虽然在这一天来临前在我们身上发生了一些不可避免的意外，心情还是没什么被影响的。嘻嘻。。
这次的准备工作方面跟以前出远门时的情况完全不一样。
通常，在一星期之前就会带着非常非常期待的心情把行李都准备好了，但这次。。
我的行李竟然是在前一晚才准备好!!!
有型吧?
虽然依然是有着非常兴奋的心情，但老实说，心情某程度上还是有着一定的影响。因为我的手还不是非常方便，很多事情还得麻烦家人。这次的台湾之旅，也是跟随真明法师去的，算是拜佛团体的一种。
到了很多地方，基本上算是环岛了。去了很多地方，但其实只是走马看花多一点，因为行程上还蛮紧密的，不能多作逗留。
以为这次去是冬天，会非常冷，准备了好多厚厚的衣服，结果。。
是蛮冷的啦，但是太阳公公还是好大哦:)
所以那里的风很冷但还是会流汗，因为我穿得太厚了啦，嘻嘻。。
我的行李基本上都是妈帮忙整理的，因为手还是有些不方便，对于懒惰虫的我来说算是一个不错的好处吧?:P
上了飞机，觉得很兴奋，因为台湾是我非常想去的国家之一。很多原因啦，有我喜欢的人啊，又常在电视上看见那些人潮拥挤的地方，很想去见识一番。
隔太久才写下这个blog,所以在那里的心情已经变得有些模糊了，嘻嘻。
台湾有几个特色给我留下了深刻的印象。
那里的公路与我国的是相反的哦，那就是说司机的座位并非是在右边而是左边，算是一个特色吧，哈哈。
另外呢，坐在巴士里的我，每当看着窗外的风景，总是会看见一种不可避免的'景色'-->槟榔西施。槟榔果然是那儿很常见的东西。每次看见时，总会想起Energy的歌，呛!因为在歌词里有提到槟榔哦。
再来就是那儿的的士司机很不简单哦，何解?
他们开车的技术可谓'一流'啊!没有夸张哦，想要尝试飘移的人，可以到那里时去坐他们的的士看。他们开车好神速，这里窜一下，那里窜一下，~~~就到了!
试想象，在人潮拥挤的也是也能勇敢地穿梭在人群中飞车哦，强吧?
坐在车里的我也可说是捏了一把冷汗，哈哈，因为一朝被蛇咬，十年怕草绳!
这次的第一站是台北!!!
从槟城搭乘China Airlines中华航空直飞台北机场。正确来说应该是桃园机场吧。
在机内的我有点兴奋又有点累，因为前一晚很迟才睡。睡了一会，就醒来看戏咯。
翻看他们的目录，觉得还蛮适合我的耶，因为很多华语歌曲都是现在流行的，但我没有听歌，我选择看戏，看G-Force!!!也好，不必付钱到电影院看咯，哈哈。
我想看这部片很久了，没想到是悬在天空的情况下看的。:P
四小时十五分钟后。。
终于!!!!
I am in Taiwan!!!真的很想YOHOO!!!但不可以，还是要顾仪态的嘛。。>.< 我们搭机的时间是下午二时许，到了那里已经差不多六点半了。与当地的导游会面后就上了巴士往我们在台湾的第一餐出发--〉海霸王!! 名字听起来很强哦，算是不错吧那里的菜肴，但因为有点没胃口，所以吃的不多。那些菜肴都很大盘哦，虽然一座有十个人，但还是吃不完..没法子啦。所以最后我们这一座决定改吃素。不错的决定，不然回国后的我铁定会让我的重量勇猛直冲:P 说实话，那里的素还真的是蛮好吃的，因为那里的素也算是出名的。所以有机会到那里去时，可以尝试吃吃他们的素哦。健康又好吃，赞啦!:) 这次在台湾去了蛮多地方，包括有 -台北 -花莲 -高雄 -台中 -台东途中基本上也会路过一些地方，好像嘉义啦，屏东等地。在那里最爽的可以说是他们的夜市啦，我们每晚基本上都有到夜市去逛逛。我们到的也是有逢甲夜市，士林夜市等。那里的人都不知道从哪儿冒出来的，真的是people mountain people sea的那种哦。在夜市，不像这里的pasarmalam哦，那里的强许多，不是我要觉得外国的月亮特别圆啦，但事实却是如此，没法子。>.< 那里的小吃会让你吃上一个星期吧，因为实在是有太多啦，有大肠包小肠，棺材板，状元糕，葱抓饼。。要一一列出来很难，只能把我有见到听说的写出来。我们当然也有买一些来试一试啊。那儿的苦瓜汁也是很不错哦，不会苦的，嘻嘻。比较有点遗憾的是在士林夜市时来不及试吃那里的鸡扒哦:( 但没关系啦，我相信我还会再去的!!!因为还有一些我想去的地方还没去到。那里的土产也真的是很多哦，蔴籽，灵芝，珍珠粉。。他们的蔴籽还真的是不错的耶，在花莲那一代非常有名哦，有很多都是卖这个的。我喜欢那里的公路系统，因为他们还有一个专区是给摩托车在红绿灯前停下来的哦，我觉得这个非常有脑，而且他们有专属的通道给摩托车。此行并没有遇到任何我想要遇到的明星:( 但是我们第一晚在西门町时有遇见一位Tvb的艺人，我并不知道他叫什么名字，哈哈。paise la.. 但我知道他在珠光宝气里有演出，他演一位艺人，名叫Oscar。因为当时我在犹豫着到底是不是他，所以来不及跟他拍照，哈哈。所以下次见到明星时别犹豫了，先找他们拍照就对了!!! haha.. 另外一个让我非常喜欢那里的原因是那儿的广告牌有很多都是艺人的哦，我看见的就有王力宏，小猪，赵又廷，桂纶美，小S，大S，S.H.E，白歆惠，杨瑾华，... 再来就是那里的电视台都有好多节目啊，综艺节目啊，戏剧啊。我在那里有机会看最新的康熙来了，爽!!!哈哈。因为我的手此行不是很方便，所以每次要搬进新的饭店时，我只能‘袖手旁观’，让家人帮我搬行李，我也是乐当个旁观者啦，哈哈。辛苦你们咯:) 每天早上还要麻烦爸爸帮我吹头发，Arigoto 哦!:D 此行到了很多地方，但印象深刻的不多吧，因为行程实在是太赶了。佛光山非常大，很多地方都值得留在那儿慢慢研究，但若要好好参观，应该需要一个月的时间，绝对不夸张，因为地方太大了。到高雄时还有机会去游览爱河，在戏里常有机会见到的场景，终于有机会去到啦 XD 我们还有机会乘坐高铁哦，算是Bullet Train吧，很快，爽 !!! 我还印象深刻的一个东西就是从花莲到台中去的路上满崎岖的，因为我们走的是沿海的公路，不错的体验，一路上都有机会看见美丽的太平洋:) 在台中的旅馆里，我们还有机会泡温泉哦，很爽。在这里泡的温泉感觉上比在日本爽得多，我也不知道为什么，哈哈。不是脱光光的那种，是还有穿着泳衣的。由于我忘记准备泳衣，所以就在那里买了一套，才三十多哦，便宜吧。在那里泡温泉的人都很open哦，明白吧?:P 那里现在是冬季，所以卖的衣服都是厚厚冬季穿的。很多都是很不错的design，所以有买了一件棉衣。那里的衣服其实都很便宜哦，难怪那里的人能打扮得那么潮! 在那里的战利品还蛮多的，哈哈。有衣服啊，书包啊。。hmm..满足^^ 在花莲时，我也有机会见识到了Jay的品牌服装哦，店名叫'这也'。起初我也不明白为什么会取这样的名字，在姐姐的‘指点’下才明白。试念那个店名久一点就懂了:) 这也算是姐姐有脑的一次咯..:P 在这店里，我和姐姐有看见很多艺人为台湾八八水灾赈灾设计的衣服，所以我们都有买哦。:) 虽然价钱不是很好，但是可以做善事，设计又不错，okay 啦^^ 这次也有机会看卢学睿的族群-阿美族表演，蛮不错的，我喜欢他们的竹竿舞，好看!!! 在梦时代广场里，我们还有机会坐摩天轮哦，可以看看高雄的夜景，不错!其实满高的，在最高点时，还是有一些怕怕，但一下子而已就绕完了一圈。所以就算恐惧也是一下子的事情而已:) 诚品书局很不错哦，里面有很多东西，我有冲动要买很多东西，但看见价钱时只好止步了。虽然如此，但最后还是有买一些比较便宜的啦，如2010年的精美小日历:) 台湾之旅，也算是令我开了很大的眼界啦，看见很多我国看不见的事物，也不用看在我国到处可见的东西-马来字:P 我决定，一定还要到台湾去，另外一个令我喜欢这个地方的原因是，到这里不会觉得陌生，因为我们有着共同的语言-华语! 以我会说华语为荣,华语万岁!:) 台湾人说华语很好听哦，有些柔柔的，听起来很顺耳，哈哈。此行多数是看景色，走夜市，没什么玩到游乐场的东西。所以下次去，我希望有机会到六福村去玩那里的游乐设施，因为我想去这个游乐场也是很久了^^ 台湾，暂时说拜拜咯，但我还会在来的!!!^^

Cafe World~Take CARE yo

2009-12-06T00:22:00.006+08:00

I will be away for one week..
To go on my vacation. A place that I dream since quite a long time ago..
Although I will be away..But my cafe will still ON.
HAHA..(too obsessed on the application..)
Thanks to SOMEONE la..for helping me to take care of the cafe during this period.:P
Thanks much har..Because I scare you will take revenge on me during this period, so gonna say something good about you first.haha..
Chose you because I TRUST you ma..dont disappoint me ya..:P
Dont kesi kesi do something BAD using my account ha, or else come back you jiu know..:P
Take good care ha.. of my CAFE WORLD..:P
Thanks much la, I will help you to kap leng zai at there de..^^
To all my DEAREST friends, take good care while I am away ya, miss you guys..
Mmuacks..^^
Come back gather again yo!:)
TAIWAN~We're COMING!!!^^

Special Thanks to..

2009-12-01T21:45:00.004+08:00

I am writing this post just because of there are some important people in my life for me to thanks them and appreciate them..
When something bad happen to me..They will not leave me behind but come near me and give me a smile, let me know that I am not alone in this world.:)
They are my FAMILY and FRIENDS..
I dont know how to express my appreciation to them but I know that they are important to me and they have became part of my life..
We had gone through many things that are not easily replaced by the others..
Deep inside my heart..there is always a place for YOU ALL..:)

DEAR FAMILY

Papa

You always care about me..I know..really..
Especially when the accident happened..I know you really worried about me.
You phoned me everyday..although before that you also almost phone me everyday already.=P
You call just to ask..

are you still feeling pain?

you eat already?

be careful har..

The love YOU gave me I remember by HEART.
Thanks for everything and I really appreciate to have you as my DEAR PAPA:)

Mama

You are a tough Mama for me..
You help us to arrange everythings so that I know that I no need to worry so much about what is coming up..
In the middle of this year..I know You and Papa had worried many things about me..
I am so sorry about those days.. Sorry for making you worried about me..Sorry for letting you down sometimes..
Anyway, those days had gone.. I believe that good things are waiting for us=)
These few days I know that you really worry about my injury, you try to ask for the treatment for me so that I can recover faster..Even though yourself also injured..
I really APPRECIATE it..I love you, Mama..:)

Brothers and Sister

Good to have you all as my siblings..
Although sometimes you all may make me angry,down,etc..
But still, I really appreciate you all..:)

2nd Mama==>>ah 3 @ 3aunt's FAMILY

I am so lucky to have you to take care of me since young..mayb 3 years old?
Without you, I wont have anything that I am having now..
My studies..My activities..
Without you all to fetch me to..

School..
Tuition..
Endless activities..

I am not who I am now.
Thanks for everything you all had given me..
Especially ah 3..you helped me to do many things without complaining..(sometimes mayb=P)
I really treat you as my second Mama..:)
Especially for these few days when I am not so convenient in carrying out all the daily activities, you helped me A LOT that I could not repay you..

I hope U ALL to be HEALTHY always..^^

FRIENDS

The friends that I wanna thanks are so many and it is quite hard for me to list down the names one by one..
However, these are some friends that I wanna thanks specially..
The sequences of the name are random but not according to the 'ranking'..

St John Gang

~Yi Wen~Yan Yee~Cui Cui~Chia Huay~Ying Ci~Ann Wen~Jie Wen~Phey Jia~Inn Joe~Yuen Doo~....
~Kheok Choon~Har Boon(Ps 2=P)~Chin En~Kang Yi~Zi-You~Jun Kang~Zi Xian~Wei Sheng~Huat Kun~..

There are still some that I did not mention but they are also in the list..

This GANG means a lot to me since Form 1..until now..or mayb forever???
I Love u all very much because the things we had gone through before are really uneasy and there will never be a chance for us to go through those things again.
I really really very like our BEAUTIFUL yesterday..these memories could never be found anywhere now or in the future..

The days we had gone through in St John were really hard and bitter sometimes..
But the beautiful of the FRIENDSHIP push us together again and again even though there were some FIGHTs sometimes..I appreciate the FIGHTs because it makes us become closer and closer..
I like gathering with you guys.
The SIAO SIAO things that we did together really make me enjoy the time with you all.
The things may be very very STUPID but we really HAPPY & LAUGH like siao lang, rite?:P

~Korean mei mei..Thai mei mei..=P
~Chin en = Chinen??
~St John Cup=>St John CupO??
~5 shits??
~mushroom head??HELMET head??
~wash the toilet??
~Sing K together..
~McD,bubur ayam,Mc Nuggets :P
~don push..?
~...

There are still many things that I couldnt finish mentioning them.. Because the things we had gone through are really A LOT and A LOT...
Last few days when the accident happened, I received a lot of concerning messages from YOU ALL.
I was really touched about it.
Some of you even sms me everyday to 'update' about my situation, thanks MUCH for it ha..:P
During the BBQ nite, also wanna thanks you all for 'SERVING' me.. Let me feel that the injury in my bones are not that bad la, at least I got some 'benefits' from it..

~got driver??=P (Thanks to Kheok, ah K(S)ang, Zi-You and..ah Suay^^ )
~no need to BBQ myself..=P (Thanks to Kang Yi, Zi Xian, Yan Yee, Yi Wen^^)
~nobody can beat my left arms..??=P (Thanks to..the cow???)

haha..quite nice also la.@_@
Thanks for the BBQ lo, Kang yi..the chicken wings not bad lah..:P

These few days hang out a lot with Suay, Sui, Sang, ah Boon and ah Ci..
Thanks to the activities..haha.
Ah boon, I want to play PS 2 wif you again, come on!=)(ah Suay, you no need..:P)
When visitting their activities, I really miss about OUR yesterDAYS..

Zo Siao Gang

This gang not big..mayb just got 3 people??
~Dear~Van~Ant
Haha..Thanks to my Dear for visitting me in Penang Hospital..
Although we did not contact that often, but we always crept a lot when got chance to do that..:P
I miss our time in class..
Chatting during lessons..Go out the class when got chance to do that..
Perli each other??
haha..

I also wanna thanks those who came my house to visit me..
~big big^^~ah Cui~ah Kang~ah Ci~ah Huay~Angie(long time no see^^)~Zi-You~Huai Xing~Huai Ying~Phey Jia~
Your visit made me pain because of laughing a lot, but I like it!!!:P

Thanks to Chin En for calling back from Singapore to ask about me also..:)
(hey man,waiting for you to come back then gather!!! :P)

I was really very touched when I receive the message from the friends that do not contact that often after the incident like Kang Yi la..Inn Joe la..Jin Xiang..
Thanks for the messages, it really means A LOT to me..^^

This post is actually written to thanks for those helping me during the 'suffering' period..
THANKS MUCH for EVERYTHING!^^

Love Life~Days in Penang Hospital

2009-11-26T21:11:00.003+08:00

Again, I need to go for the X-Ray!
Due to the first experience in GH, I quite scared about it.
But this time luckily, that nurse more gentle and I no need to wake up to do it.
I was just lying down on the 'bed' and they insert something below my neck and my back to carry out it.
After that I was sent to the wad room. It was a 2 person wad room- my sister and me.
2 sisters sleeping in the same room in the hospital..quite sad huh?
Many people get shocked when they know that 2 sisters staying in the same room..haha.
I was lying on the bed there 'fa dai' for quite a while until my sister came in.
She went to scan her brain and luckily..everything is fine =)
Then a nurse came in and ask me what was I going to eat for dinner. The most IMPORTANT thing was.. they even got a MENU!
Haha.. I never stay in the hospital before so I really dont know that even in hospital also got menu.
I chose the normal plain rice with sweet sour fish.
As my right hand bones are connected with the left hand bones, so I cant wake up to use my uninjured right hand to eat myself.
This really very mafan.. As a result..
Papa fed me eat. Really warmed and touching..>.<
At that moment, I felt like I was a baby.. Cant do anything.. Innocent..(=P) Whatever I wanted to do also need help from the others. Even a simple thing like..
Waking up from the bed was also like a really really difficult thing for me..
and I also found out something..
Papa really good at feeding me..He was very gentle and always make sure the speed and the amount suited me.:) (as you all noe la..the size of my mouth got bit not big..=P)
I was thinking at that time that..
Would I treat my parents so patient as my papa was treating me..

I know I WOULD! :)

Papa mama, I LOVE YOU!

Another important thing was..the food there not bad..=P (but I dont hope you all have this chance to try it la..)

I felt satisfied after finishing the dinner because I didnt eat for the whole day already starting from the night we met the accident except ate a bread at GH there.
The night in GH really dont have the appetize to eat anything because of the stupid pain until my stomach couldnt function.
Pity my sis.. she couldnt eat anything that night because anything goes into her mouth will be vomitted out. So she could just eat in the next morning.
After making sure everything is fine, papa and our cousin back to AS.
That night we rest earlier. After they back for a while then we slept alr. Because it was really very tired as we didnt sleep well the night before that.
That night.. was also the MOST PAINFUL night for me!!!!
I still could remember that I woke up at 1 something in the morning to press the bell for getting help.
The pain like...the FIRE was BURNING in my bones!!!!I never experience anything that was pain like this.
The time I waited for the nurse to come was very long.. For me at that time, like THOUSAND years long!
She gave me a tablet of pain killer to relieve my pain. As I cant move my hands, so the nurse served me.
This was not the end of my pain.. 5 something again.. IT comes..
I felt like shouting out of my PAIN!
So I need another tablet of pain killer.
Not long after that, nurses came around my bed and wanna help me to mop my body.
O ya hor, I didnt bath for almost 2 days d.. @_@ (shy...)
They wanted me to sit up so that could help me to mop my body..
I tried.. CRACK
I felt my bone was moving and again..PAIN!!!
This time I couldnt bear with the pain anymore and finally.. I SHOUTED!
(This shout can fight with my command last time..hehe..)
The nurses shocked and I even made one patient from another room tiok ce kia too..
(paise har..not purposely one..because really beh dong d..=P)
When they mop for me, I really felt like I was an OKU..
So.. Please LOVE every parts of your body.. It really doesnt matter whether it is nice or not..
As long as it is functioning.. then you should feel APPRECIATE already..
Since that time, I developed a PHOBIA for bathing..because the process was really painful at that time..
After a long long process..finally I could settle down myself.
That day sis's bf came to visit us and his head really funny.. tilted to one side and cannot stay straight as normal. pity him also la,haha..
He accompanied us for the whole day.. Thanks to him la..abo sure very sian.
He even bought 'Lao Fu Zi' for us to read.. even though he actually thought that it was a calender la..=P ( cute de him..) because the story was designed inside the calender and it was quite nice.
At that afternoon about 4 something like that..
My DEAR came to visit me..^^ She was the only one who went to visit me in the hospital. Thanks to her visit and concern.. I actually felt quite shocked about her visit. She sms and told me she was on the way.. then a few minutes later she appeared in front of me already, GENG.=)
I didnt even tel her my room number because me myself also dont know it..Haha.
We then chatted for a while.. quite bobo things la but SYOK..=P
We actually long time didnt meet already, but because of this incident, we finally meet..
Complicated.
That day I received message from this kind SOMEONE..
'your hand still pain ar?'
'of course lahhhh...'
'like that ar...Just BEAR with it la..'
'$%^$%^#%^#@ ...'
This kind of good friend ar..really extinct in the world already la.. So LUCKY that I could still found HER as my best friend ar..=P
Something made me touched was that I received message from Sang and Kangyi.. Thanks frens!^^
Kangyi said want to serve me when during bbq gathering, yeah..=P
That day I finally could get down the bed and walk around the bed already.. Thanks God..:)
At evening like that, sis's bf--Koko went back..So we watched tv lo. The only thing we could do at that time..
My sis and I hands itchy, feel like online but cant.. We worried about the Cafe World and she also worried about her Farm Ville..=P
Crazy about the FB applications already.. Haha..^^
We managed to watch Toy Story and Twilight at that night.. Luckily got these nice movies..not bad lah...
That night was a 'peaceful' night for me.. The pain I felt was slowly reducing and no need the pain killer anymore.. ^^
The bad thing was I had to adjust for a very long time only could get a suitable and comfortable position for me to sleep..
I cant lie straight on the bed. The first time found out that can lie on the bed sweetly and happily is very lucky. That night I thought a lot of things also..
Still remember that the lecturer Law Zi Xian told us to say thanks to our organs everyday..
I did it. I talked to my clavicle.. told them to recover fast fast then we go to play! haha..
I also get the permission from them so dont make me feel the pain anymore..
Yea, they HEARD it. That night everything okay.. Thanks BUDDY =)
The next morning, the nurses did the same thing again.. check for my blood pressure.. serve medicine.. and wake me up to BATH!
This day better already, I could really went to the toilet to bath. Of course.. with the assistant from the nurse..@_@ Thanks har..
yea, it is the day for us to discharge from the hospital!!!^^
this morning we watched a lot of Tom & Jerry.. Very funny lo. Laugh until I pain in my chest.=P
Dr Chow came to check my conditions and he saw my sis..
He said my sis fine until can be discharged from the hospital already..
haha..I think he is quite humour la..=)
Afternoon.. I received call from Van..Or mayb I phoned back? couldnt remember..
She said she was shocked because she just came back from the camp and then heard this news.. I heard her voice like even more tired and cham than me, kelian..haha..
Then, our another cousin came to fetch us, help us to make payment and took medicine..Thanks to him!^^
I did something funny here..@_@
I walked out from the hospital by wearing just the pyjamas and without wearing shoes..
The most cincai time in my life, haha..
Due to the bend shape of my left hand, I could just wear button shirt, that's pyjamas for me.
My shoes was not there because since in GH that night I didnt wear shoes d..hehe..
That's all about my FIRST experience of staying in the hospital and finally..
*Home Sweet Home*:)
I really dont hope to go hospital again because of this..
I HOPE and PRAY that everyone in this world will stay happy and healthy always..:)
Amitabha.

~End of suffering~
Bye...

Love Life~Feelings in GH~

2009-11-25T23:06:00.007+08:00

At that moment, the pain I felt was 'undescribeable'.
The doctors there action really 'sxxw', so I had to endure the pain with a LONGER time.
I told them I had a wound on my left leg, they just replied me 'oh..' and left it like that.
Oh my God.. This called hospital yea.
After diagnosing my whole body thoroughly, they tied an arm sling for me to immobilise my left clavicle as there was a sign of swelling and pain--FRACTURE.
That's the main reason why I was so painful!
Although I was trained to treat the fracture many times and knew that must be gentle while treating it..But before that I didnt really know that why have to be so gentle.. and NOW..
I GOT IT! It is really PAINFUL!!!!
So, please be gentle enough when handle a fracture case..( Suay and Ci har-->my previous No. 3..=P also to my dear juniors of course..)
Sitting in the wheelchair, the nurse helped me to 'poke' my right hand to insert the needle for the IVF-Intravenous Fluid.
Man, I got 3 pokes only could make it success..and it is bruising in that area now..
So..good job!=)
They then sent me to scan an X-ray for my ribcage to check what was really happening to my 'frame'--bones.
In the room, the nurse untied my bandage 'gently'.
After the scanning, they left the bandage with me like that without tying it back.
Yea, another good job=)
I then waited at outside for quite a while until I was informed that I had to admin the hospital at that night for further observation and investigation.
My brother kept on asking me whether I am fine, pity him, himself also injured but still have to run here run there busy asking our conditions.
I think he felt sorry to us.. but...brother, we NEVER blame at you :)
ACCIDENT is something you could not prevent and have to accept it.
The FIRST time to stay in the hospital in my LIFE.
I felt nothing but mayb..really nothing.
Because my sister also had to admin the hospital that night as she was feeling dizzyness.
Her bed was diagonally opposite of mine. Luckily we met an aunty, mama's friend at there. She was also staying in the hospital.
So mama asked for her help to take care of us as papamama and koko had to go back alr.
That aunty really good, she kept on asking us whether okay or not. Thanks much to her help!=)
O ya.. what about my bandage? Until I was lying in the bed for a while only the nurse found out that I didnt immobilise the injured part. She then helped me out.
Very 'efficient' rite?=)
The pain at that moment really SXCX..I cried. Paise..cause really cant endure with the pain already!
But not o nge o nge that type la..silent that type. @_@hehe..
Papa mama helped me to wipe away the tears.. I felt warmed. >.<
That night I couldt sleep well..
Mayb because of the pain that always awaken me..the nurses kept on walking around me..
I thought a lot of things at that night..
Why is this happening to us??
I cant do a lot of things that I wanna do during this holidays..
The things I not yet done..
So, I learnt something--> NEVER procrastinate anything you want to do. We do not know what is going to happen tomorrow..or..the next second.
The next morning, the doctor came to me and asked about my conditions. And then many more came to ask the same question..
Oh please, must ask so many times ar?
Then papa came to visit us..
When the doctor came to check up for me..There was a lot of intern doctors beside.
He told them my condition-->Fracture left clavicle and rib.
and then walked away..without really informing me my condition. So I was really blurred with my own condition.
Suddenly..I received a call.
'hey, where are you?
'In hospital la..'
'Har..why?'
'Last nite accident lo..'
'HARRRRRRRRRR........really bo??...'
It was from yanyee. Haha..
And then in the afternoon, I received a message.
'Are you in the school now?'( something like that, cant really remember the actual content=P)
This was from stupid suay..:P
After that, I received message from Kheok and call from ANN WEN.(somebody called me cant left her name out and must be colourful..So..'unwillingly', I have to do it lo..=P)
I felt touched. Thanks for the caring..:)
After some discussion, papamama decided to send sis and me to Penang private hospital.
Sis knocked her head a bit during the accident, so have to send to Penang there to do further check up.
I was sent to that hospital by Kedah St John Ambulance because I had to reduce my movement.
My sis was sent by our cousin. Thanks to him so much.. He helped us a lot in arranging things..transport..food..CARE.
That person who drived me to Penang was Encik Ismail, yea..Kedah St John officer and we met before.
We met because of the Highway Duty in 2007. We on duty together and he still remember me.=)
Quite sarcastic la..I learnt to use the stretcher before that and now it was my time to lie on it.
Complicated feeling.
On the way to Penang, I felt dizzy, and the pain kept on reminding me it was there in my bone.
Oh..need meh?
Pity papa, he was very tired already but still always trying to adjust a position for me to make sure I was comfortable..@_@
Finally..after a LONG journey, we reached the hospital.
Again, we were sent to ACCIDENT AND EMERGENCY UNIT.
I felt the environment there better..but doesnt mean I encourage you all to go there la..=P
The stuff there more gentle, they really cared about my pain.
Waited for some time, then finally saw my doctor--Doctor Chow..
Dont know why, when I saw this doctor, I felt much relieved..^^

~to be continued~

Love Life~Life is Unpredictable

2009-11-24T22:57:00.007+08:00

SOMETHING happened in my life few days ago..
20 Nov 2009..9 something at night..on the way home..
I am telling this not because of wanna horrify you all but just wanna express my feelings in this incident..It was terrible but an important lesson to me..my life..

My mother, brother, sister, her bf and I went out for dinner..
I was sleeping when we were on our way home.
I still could remember that the road was very dark..
My brother pressed on the brake very suddenly and this sudden motion woke me up. I opened up my eyes and saw a cow, a big cow standing very near in front of our car.. Very very near..
As the first response, my brother tried to prevent the car from crashing the cow. He turned the steering to the left side, and then turned it to the right to get the car back to the normal track.
Unfortunately, the car turned to the right side too much and finally... BANG!!!
The car crashed a tree!
My mind was empty at that moment.. Seriously.
When I opened my eyes and saw the cow, I felt something wrong with the car already. I just hope the car wont crash anything but it did..too bad. I shout out my brother's name like what at that time..but this did not help. It happened eventually.. THE ACCIDENT!!!
After the car crashing the tree..a few seconds later, I felt pain at my chest and left part of the body. Just like.. in the HELL, can u imagine that? Please dont ever imagine it, it is REALLY PAINFUL.
My mother was sitting beside me. In my mind, I wanted to ask her whether is she okay but.. I couldnt. I cant bear with the pain. The impact was too great until it made me difficult in breathing.
At that moment, seriously, I still couldnt accept the truth. Because it was too suddenly until I couldnt do anything.
I think no one would expect such accident would happen in their life rite...?
Honestly, I really cant talk at all..What i could do was just yelling for pain. My brother and my sister's boyfriend were sitting in front. Luckily they were still conscious at that moment.
They keep on shouting my mother, sister and my name very LOUDLY and manytimes.
My mother and sister really fainted at that moment. If they didnt shout that loud, I dont dare to think of the consequences.
My brother immediately get down the car to ask for help.
The residents near there very kind and helpful. They came to us and helped us to get down of the car. I really pain dao wan to get down the car also cannot.. But still I have and MUST do it!
I sitting still on the ground with my mother, looking at the car and keep on yelling for the pain.
I really cant do anything at that time except yelling for pain. Mama saw me like that so she kept on palpating my back to relieve my pain. Really thanks to mama.. because this action really helped me a lot in relieving the pain.
While sitting on the ground, got few seconds I was thinking about the things I was suppose going to do..
~go back to Alor Star the next morning..
~gather with frens..
~learn swimming..
But now..Everything have to cancel..Suay, I just can look at you swimming..=P
Papa also rushed to the scene after got the news. He looked calm but I not really sure..
Many people around us. I dont know who were them but i really wanna thanks them..They helped us to collect our belongings in the car..And I heard that one of them even hurt himself accidentally by the broken glass of the car while collecting the things. Thanks man..
Mama and I were sitting on the ground..Brother and sis's bf were busy arranging things..But wait.. Where was my cute sister???!!!
Opps..She fell to the 3rd row of the car!!! ( the car was Wish ) The rear mirror even broke . She came out from that 'hole' because the rear part of the car stuck in the drain. That's the only way could get her out ASAP at that moment. Pity her..a lot of wounds especially abrasion.
Ambulance arrived. Sister, her bf and koko got up the first ambulance. Mama and I waited for the second.
Walao, why so long???? My thought while waiting because the pain really...
Not my first time to sit inside an ambulance because I was a StJohn member but it was my first time to lie on the stretcher in the ambulance..Complicated life.
Papa kept on holding my hands to make sure I'm okay. But I feel like dying because of the stupid PAIN.
Finally reach the GH..they immediately sent me to the Accident & Emergency Unit.
The people in the hospital looked at me like what.. I think it is normal because human is always full of curiousity.

~to be continued~
(have to oi oi first..nitezzzz..Zzzz..)

Midnite gang^^

2009-11-20T03:27:00.005+08:00

Just finish chatting with huay,cui,kang and jun(for a while).
Their names are now Suay, Sui, Sang and Sun..
haha..stupid names but thanks to my typing error..=P
They all including me are all really midnite gang..always late start to chat then chat till late late..
No always la..jz for these few days la..haha.
The time chatting with them are so funny. I really keep on laughing in front of the laptop..
Laugh until like siao po that type. No kidding,haha..
Suay promised me to learn swimming together, hopefully she wont be pilot again, put me aeroplane la, or else jiu... too bad.
Come back until now oso no chance to meet and gather with them, really busy har. Haha..
But saturday will got chance to meet, yeah.
Thanks to the team test har..haha.
We chat for almost 2 hours + ..until midnite. Really geng..
Now is time to sleep d actually but because just now laugh too much.
Now I got bit too excited and cannot close my eyes. Hehe..
Hopefully wont get nightmare later.=P
Some more, my stupid brother is coming back from KL now..should be reaching soon.
Suppose can meet him and greet him good night also,haha..
Really siao liao, keep on 'haha-ing'..
Anyway, it is time to oi oi liao..
Must close my eyes no matter willingly or unwillingly..
Or else tomorrow dont have enough energy to watch tv and play with stupid sis..
O ya, she is coming back tmr wif koko also,hehe..
Reunion soon..yohoo!
Night!(or..good morning?=P)^^

Father爸爸*Papa

2009-11-16T00:35:00.012+08:00

Today..or officially yesterday..was my Dear Papa's birthday.
Seriously and frankly speaking, my Parents and I are unlike the others.. Cant stay together always.
Since young, due to some reasons, I was separated from parents.
However, they will always come to visit us during weekend or any days when they were free.
The LOVE they give us will not less than any parents else.
Papa is a very lovely and patient person.

He doesn't talk much.

He does not angry easily and he is the one who always allow us to do anything we like. Erm..the anything we like of course not included the BAD things la.
I mean whatever we want to buy, he will always try to get it for us and never say a NO..
That's why when i was still a child, I like to go toy shop with him, hehe..
Anything I like and point, he will definitely buy for me!haha..(should be like that la, IF I not mistaken..)

He likes to drink Milo or Kopi'O at night. So..he encourages me to drink Milo when I am hungry, haha..=P

When I was sick, he will make a cup of Milo for me. At that time, I feel Milo is a nice drink.

(Even though before that i already like Milo la..=D)
I still remember that last time when crossing the roads, Papa surely will use his hands to hold my little hands tightly( at that time la..=P) .. and.. I feel warmed.
Even now, he will still do the same thing.. =)
Papa is not the type that really know how to show his Love to us..
But with his caring & love.. We understand it deeply by our heart.
Papa will call us everyday.. or mayb almost everyday.
Our conversation is quite short.

''嘿,你在做什么啊?"
"没有啊，就做功课啊"
"吃东西了吗?"
"吃了啊,嘻嘻.."
"不要没买东西吃har..饿了也可以泡Milo喝.."
"哦..我有买啊..有喝啊..嘻嘻.."
"自己在外面要小心知道吗?......"
"是的,你也要小心har......"

Almost that's all. But this call means a lot to me..
I know far away from me..
There is someone who loves me by heart.
We always cant celebrate the birthday together especially nowadays.
Brother in KL, sister in Penang, I now in Alor Star..but luckily..
My eldest brother is still there beside them..^^
Papa, I am sorry that i couldnt celebrate with you on this day.
I pray that you will always be so healthy and happy..and..
I promise that I will learn to be a GOOD daughter..=P
Happy Birthday, Papa..
I Love you...^^

Papa, Happy Birthday!!! ^^

First Sem,BYE BYE-->Say Hi to Holidays-->As free as a BIRD right now =P

2009-11-14T18:07:00.009+08:00

Finally, finish the Sem Exam and this means that it is time for me and us to say goodbye to 1st sem.. Tata, First Sem..^^
Actually time really pass fast, in a blink of an eye, another first sem of mine for this year end already. The feeling quite complicated la actually..But I was quite lucky also la, because i got the chance to experience different college in a year..not bad not bad,hehe.=D
I am very appreciate that I have the chance to go into both this colleges as I got to know a lot of good frens, make my life become more colourful. The feeling of staying in these 2 colleges is different, but both bring good things for me, so i m really LUCKY!!!
One week before the exam, we had a class party with our dear English teacher--Miss Syeela.
Well, she is a good teacher, can be very close with us and treating us like her friend. She shared with us a lot of her life experiences, and the way she treat us really different with the other lecturer, so I appreciate her. The most important is..her lesson no homework and not stress at all, very syok!!!=P Her lesson quite enjoy because all we have to do is just listen to her and may daydream sometimes..(or most of the time =P)..

Miss Syeela with me^^

The falling 'star' because of someone naughty =P

Gals in my class

My class--10M12

Struggle--> Accept--> Enjoy
These are my feelings for the time after I have made my decision. This year was a very different year for me, have to make a lot of decisions since the beginning of the year. Every decisions lead me to a new pathway and every pathway has its own nice things waiting for me to go close them.
This makes me feel that life is unpredictable, and all we have to do is just go for it!!!=)
After struggling for so long for the sem exam, finally here is the time for us to enjoy the holidays!!!haha.. Although the holidays will be lasting until Jan, but I still feel that it isn't enough for us to play and enjoy!!!haha..
Okayokay, stop being greedy..=P
Feeling very relieve right now, because nothing much to worry except the Bio assignment, but i think just left it aside first la, until my mood is there for me to do the assignment..(but I doubt when is this day..??? :D )
Very appreciate and looking forward to this holidays, wanna try my best to enjoy as much as I could, do anything that I want and eat anything that i want to eat!!! yohoo..Life is great, rite???
haha..

The feeling is even greater when there is someone who will be looking for ur return at home..This makes you feel sweet..^^

All my dear frens please come back soon..wanna have gathering with all of you ^^

Black-Out

2009-11-06T19:15:00.000+08:00

OPPS..Just now after having lunch and when i was going to listen some songs..suddenly..Everything shut down..Lightless..soundless..fanless..which is known as--->Black OUT!!!
So LUCKY!!!
The time during black out was so helpless..nothing much i can do,lazy to study,cant even watch movie,online or do anything i would like to do..=( The most important thing is..Very HOT wei!!!
So what I did was..hehe.Call everyone that i could think of..i called my stupid rabbit sister..=P Chat a lot of nonsense..and sang some stupid songs wif her and together wif koko..hohoho.. and then i oso called papa and mama..Haha..they said i would just think about them when there is a black out..opps..shy..@_@.. not the truth la wei..=P
I oso phoned my dear 'small three'..hehe..who is officially my aunty..hehe. So miss them..
However, everything had passed..I m now enjoying the lightness,fan and songs..Thanks to Edison!!!^^
Hmm..Recently heard some stories about frenship..There was nothing much i could help. According to the stories, friendship cant held very much longer..No matter how long you all noe each other, is that true???
I dont really know, because I m still exploring it.. Anyway, until now, I stil very appreciate every frenships that i m having:)
Yesterday when i was in Hartamas, I saw Mr Gan--ex-Thinking Skills lecturer,haha.He is still the same, always so rushing..=P
Didnt have the chance to meet with Ms Surinder..aiya..
And then today.. I saw Vivien -ex-classmate..hehe.She is still so cool..=D
Sadly, this time cant meet Yixin,Lyn,Jin and Jesslyn them..hopefully got chance to meet after the exam..hmm..hopefully la..haha.
Holidays coming soon,yohoo!!!syok until cannot describe..But exam coming first, oso 'syok' dao...tudio.
To everyone who is having exam or will be having exam soon like me..Good Luck and All the Best!!!^^

Thanks for being there when i need you..

2009-10-31T22:43:00.000+08:00

Friend, is a special species in this world. They make you laugh, happy, sad, angry, etc etc..
They could make you to have any different types of feelings that exist in this world.
I dont know which type I am to my frens..whether the one to make them happy or sad, but i am very happy and lucky to have the true frens that are always there to support me. Yeah, I am talking about YOU!!!^^
Life is hard, obstacles are always waiting for you in front there. Frens are also waiting at there beside the obstacles to give you a helping hand when you need them to overcome the difficult times.
When I am sad..I know at least i stil have some true frens who really care about me. Once again, thanks..=)
I may not contact with you that often, but deep inside my heart, you are always my dear dear frenssssss...
Jz finish talking to someone who is my TRUE fren(I know you know who i mean =P) Just wanna say thank you..^^ This type of thing just can write out but cannot tell you directly, you sure will syok dao...haha.
My frens..Thanks for bearing with me when I do something crazy or even out of control =P..
Frens..sometimes so close..sometimes so far away..
Not everyone will always stay with you, this makes the moment when you all together so special and precious.
There are frens who were once so close now become so far away..This is sad but..unavoidable. Just because of any reasons that you could think of..
I miss my frens. I just realised how lucky was I to have you all.. but never too late rite?^^
Life is sometimes so down until you dont know where should go and what to do.
To all my frens..You all are not alone. I always remember you all.. Please stay happy and healthy always.=)

Friends = No matter how far away are us from each other, we are always holding hands together ^^

The Road Not Taken

2009-10-11T11:52:00.001+08:00

If that day the road I chosen was to continue with what i was having, then tomorrow will be my AS exam.hehe..Time past very fast huh?
In a blink of an eye, I have started my new life for almost 3months+..and my sem exam is going to come and end soon. The first sem gonna pass..but before that, I gonna work hard for my sem exam first. My study feeling now is quite different from the last time,dunno why..mayb because last time mostly depends on the tuition teacher, so no need to do so much research just to find out an answer. But the life now everything gonna depend on myself, no more extra tuition notes for me,whether want to make it or not, depends on myself..Last time too rely on the tuition alr, so now it takes time for me to get used to the independent life..
To my frens those who are going to take the AS exam, ALL the BEST!!!^^
I noe all of you can make it!!!=)
My dear laptop is sick now, sad for it..although it still can be used, but definitely gonna format it d..unluckily, I dunno where's the cd that is needed to format it, so gonna wait for cousin to bring the cd here only can do something to help it. ah top, u must add oil oso har, I still have 2 more reports to do, please be strong and tough to make it until I at least finish these 2 reports..=P
Yesterday was my first time to come back to KL alone by taking the KTM..i waited quite some time at the bus stop to wait for the stupid T529, but then i worry i cant reach KL sentral before 10, so i hired a taxi and the fare was very expensive le, because i sit alone, nobody gonna share with..Then i reach KTM station, the counter was not opened, so I had to buy the ticket through the machine. I didnt prepare any small changes before that, luckily i went there through taxi, so i had small changes to buy the ticket, or else......
The KTM reacher earlier than the expected time 2 minutes, very happy..because no need to wait for so long. What makes me kek ki was that the ppl who waited at the bus station with me reached after not long, means that even if I went there by bus, I will still be able to sit this KTM! Arrgghh.. Whatever la, have its own pros and cons la..
Sitting KTM alone is really quite lonely, but the feeling not bad also la, feel like growing up d =)
At least i no need to scare so much alr, if next time i still need to go back alone..But if can choose, having a company is better ^^ I reached at KL Sentral more earlier than expected, jz took half an hour to reach there. So everything could consider going on smoothly lo..
My Bio report is still hanging at there..I have really no idea of what to do, + lazy somemore..hehe. Slow and steady la.. this wedn will be having chem test, hopefully can handle la, or else..

Refreshing..

2009-09-22T16:16:00.000+08:00

In order to make my blog a bit more universal,i decided to change my blog into 'English Version'. Please bear wif my broken english ya,hehe..
well..what to talk in my first English Post?
my brain is now EMPTY,dont have any idea of what to talk and write about.
It has been a long time since my last post.it is totally because of busy and..of course..LAZY.
very obvious la,rite?=P
This holidays dun really have time to organise a BIG gathering wif my dear frens.
anyway,i still manage to meet my dear and my best fren toto!!^^the time wif them was so great..when together wif them,no need to feel awkward or shy..jz tell out anything i like!
wohoo!the feeling is great..i long time din really gather wif them d,so happy that this time could really make time wif them..

Best Frens Forever^^

Hamster wif Ant^^

TotO wif aNt=)

i have planned to do a lot of things in this holidays,the list is quite long but i dun even manage to tick one of these =P
so shy to tel out tat..@ _@ hehe.
i planned to play puzzle..do hw..study..watch tv..o ya,i can make a tick in my list d,i managed to watch tv!!!wahaha..except tat,i dun really started any other things else..
opps..i gonna change myself d la..cannot be so lazy d,once start the college again,a lot of testsss coming some more..but the 'laziness' stil surrounding me le..how???anybody can help??
This holidays i spent a lot of time wif my dear family..proud to say out that,hehe.
finally do smth meaningful to the family d.I know i dont have much time to accompany them d after uni life,so better make full use of the time while still in Pre U to accompany them.
I miss my stupid sis..even though she is always so noisy and gao gao zan..but..i still miss her.=D
I dont have chance to meet lot of frens this time,mayb gotta wait until november holidays d.
O ya,before coming back,i went to Mid Valley wif Kah Yan and Stephanie to watch "The Ugly Truth".
Seriously,this movie very funny,romantic and NICE!!!^^ a lot of climax of course!(if u noe wat i mean)=P Should go to watch if free...or even very busy.hehe..
Hope the time during holidays can pass very very very very slow..=)
I still wanna enjoy some more!!!!=P

生命充满突然-->珍惜眼前人!

2009-07-17T21:58:00.000+08:00

人生总会发生许多来得太突然，又令人意想不到的事情，可不是吗?
今天在回家途中，获知一个让我震惊不已的消息，从来没有想过会发生的事情，它就真的是这样发生了..我收到朋友的简讯告诉我有位朋友的父亲过世了..
当时我的心情只能说是一片空白，疑惑以及充满不相信..为什么会这样？事情是怎样发生的？朋友还好吗？种种的问号都出现在我的心里..
当时，我在想，是不是每个人总有一天一定都会离开自己的呢？或者应该说，总有一天我也是会离开他们的呢？这样的想法似乎很negative，但无可否认，它就是活生生又残酷的事实。。所以，我得到的结论是-->珍惜眼前人!!!
没有人会理所当然地一直留在你身边，所以当有缘分与另一个人在一起的时候，一定要真心珍惜彼此。。
这句话，很动听，很真实，却不是那么容易能办到的。。对我来说是这样子。我很珍惜每位曾经出现，以及还在我身边的人。。或许我们只有一面之缘，不是那么相熟，很少联络等。。但我相信我们的相遇都是带有一定的意义。我是个怪人，很珍惜人，但不善于表达，以致有时候我自己都很怀疑自己有真心珍惜吗?
最近，发现自己有些失败，很多方面，都做得不是那么好。我觉得自己并不是一个很好的女儿，妹妹，朋友..比起我的朋友们，我差太远了!我觉得自己很不体贴，没有真正去了解朋友们，失败..
昨晚我的housemate去参加一个活动，但我们其余的人都没有去，因为懒惰+做功课。。她回来的时候竟然打包了一包云吞给我们吃，因为pin说她很想吃。我顿时觉得很感动，同时心中充满了满到不能再满的内疚。 (上个星期回家时，她们说想吃云吞面，因为她们没有得回家，但是非常想吃，所以想要我买给她们吃。但是我却没有买给她们，因为那时候不方便，想必她们那时候的心情肯定是很失望的吧)仔细一想，我的确不是个很好的朋友，老是让朋友失望，唉。。当我的朋友就衰咯。幸运的我，总是有着对我很好又很支持我的朋友们，我很感激!我希望自己能真正从他人身上学习，学习如何真心对待一个人。
住在hostel的生活其实并没有想象中那么差啦，生活过得很充实又不会沉闷，因为我的家总是充满着欢笑声，很温馨。我很感恩，感谢命运的安排让我与housemates住在一起，并且能相处得很愉快。^^现在与他们的感觉，坦白说，还真的是有家人的感觉。
开始有些习惯上课的生活了，觉得还不赖。要赶快改善的是，不可以懒散了，因为回家后总是跟朋友哈啦，懒惰作功课，嘻嘻。但我有信心，我能克服这道‘难题’。=)
我们之间都有着不同的性格，我希望能从他们身上学习，因为她们有着很多值得我学习的地方。
我突然觉得很不了解我自己，为什么有时候自己会是这样，有时又是那样?没有人是会真正了解自己的吧?希望我也能学习诚实面对自己啦。。
我真心希望一切美好的事物都会出现在每个人的身边。
愿我的朋友能赶快从悲伤中走出来，我知道那很不简单，不是说放下就放下的。但我愿意给他信心及信任，不论如何，我都会支持他的!
我亲爱的朋友,祝福你!!!

空白

2009-07-12T14:18:00.000+08:00

现在的心情，就像我的标题写的那样，一片空白。
开学两个星期了，该适应的东西都适应得差不多了吧，但老觉得还是欠缺些什么。
星期五，我的班终于正式开始上课了，我又得重新适应新的课程，虽然说与之前所学的东西大同小异，但还是觉得怪怪的。蛮想念以前的班和老师们。他们的欢笑声，老师风趣的教学方法。。
每天早上起身后，就得准备好一切，到bus stop去等巴士。由于每次人太多，我都得站着，挺厌倦这种生活的。现在就说厌倦似乎还太早吧？我得挺下去。。到了学校后，因为我的block是在最尾端，所以还要走一段约五分钟的路才能到达。
我的班是10ALM12,有25人吧，包含三大种族，代表了ONE MALAYSIA=) 其实每一班都是这样的啦，haha..我的班是floating class,真怀念以前sinking的感觉，不需老是换课室。但现在这样也不错啦，至少可以尝试在不同班上课的感觉。班上的每一位同学，都是pharmacy course twinning imu的，这是不是说我们还会当同学好一段日子?haha..幸运的是，我和以前同校的朋友同班，以前不熟的，但至少有一个伴。现在还蛮熟了啦，希望跟她同班是幸运咯，hehe.
我在这边读的科目和以前一模一样，bio,chem,maths.不一样的是，没有thinking skills.haha..但多了english,因为我们必须拿IELTS.还蛮怕怕的，由自知之明嘛。惨的是还要presentation咯，这些presentation好像得很认真地，但看我的样子，要认真present一次都难。我会很想念在BS4 做presentation的日子吧，=D
值得开心的是，我的房子还蛮热闹的，不会太沉闷，跟housemates也渐渐熟了。
昨天脑中突然闪过一丝后悔的念头，但我知道我没有时间去后悔了，因为我必须为我要走的下一步路负责。昨天下午到general hospital去探访cancer wad的病人，有很深的感触，觉得人生无常，必须把握及珍惜所拥有的一切，只有这样，当无常来临时，也能尽量坦然面对。我觉得很开心，因为我做了好事，心里觉得很欢喜。
这次回家是靠自己的咯，与朋友一起坐bus到KTM去，然后坐到KLSENTRAL,过后再坐LRT到Kelana Jaya，然后再坐bus到她的亲戚家。hmm..很长的一个process，但总算是不错的体验啦。
只是，最好能免则免，哈哈。=P
我觉得自己好像有些退化了，以前坚强的勇气不见了一大半。现在的磨炼是为了让我找回并增加这些勇气吧，那我得加紧脚步去进化咯。'勇气不是与生俱来的，是一点一滴磨炼出来的',我很赞成这句话。
总的来说，过得还不错啦！我要冲啊!!!

抉择

2009-07-05T11:29:00.000+08:00

最后，我选择了这条路。。
好久没有上网update自己的近况了，不仅是因为忙碌，也可能是因为没有心情的关系吧。毕竟最近发生太多事情了。。连我自己也来不及反应。
才短短的不到一个月，我的人生产生了很大的变化。经过百般的考量，我选择接受Jpa，途中有人劝我接受，有人劝我放弃。我遇到了人生里一个很重要的矛盾，挣扎。想必以后还有更多这样的磨炼吧。
为什么要接受?我不懂得回答这道问题，看似简单，但我却不懂得怎么回答。也许我是抱着搏一搏的心态吧。所幸的是，我并没后悔选择这条路，至少现在的我没有后悔，以后的事情，以后再打算吧。
坦白说，刚开始要我接受时，我真的无法相信。虽然我已开始着手准备要开学的资料，东西，但其实我仍抱着可能放弃的心态。那段时期，由于太忙碌，没有什么时间去伤心。我还在思考着，到底应不应该接受。但是，我知道接受是对家人最好的决定，是时候让自己学会真正的独立了。
我很感谢在这个过程中，给我不少意见的老师，朋友，家人们。。也谢谢你们的鼓励和安慰，没有你们，我也不晓得应该怎么捱下去。
这整个过程中，很多人都问我，你真的要接受吗？我并不能很坚定地告诉他们我的答案。但如果现在你问我这问题，我会告诉你:是，我真的要接受。思想的转变真是会快得让人措手不及。
开学已经有一个星期了，我正在学习适应那里将会非常忙碌的生活。第一个星期是orientation week，我很感恩有这个活动，因为是这个活动让我发觉到这学校的好。(暂时还没发现任何坏=P)也因为如此，我后悔的成分也随之减少。
第一天到学校时，人非常多，觉得很sweat，让我紧张到。。meet了yuen doo,yin li & soo pin 后，我们就一起去报到。(因为听说一起报到就能一起同房)那里知道。。最后并不能四人一起同房。因为在我们之前已经有一个人去报到了(我现在的roommate)，只剩下三个位子，负责人不给我们四人在一起，最后只好分2+2了。我和soopin一起，yinli和yuendoo一起。那时候的确觉得很伤心+遗憾，因为不知道自己的housemate会是怎样的人，缺了些安全感。过后就把行李都搬上房间去，还没看到宿舍时，就没什么期望了，只希望不要太糟糕。进去一看，才发现原来也是很不错的，比想象中的好太多了，感恩啊^^我很感谢我的家人们，因为他们帮我整理好我的行李，房子。还帮我买了一些电器，打点好一切，我很感动。(虽然那时还不是很愿意接受事实)
傍晚当他们要回去时，我的心中有种说不出的不舍及伤心。泪水已在眼眶里打转，但我知道不可以让他们看见我的泪水，免得他们担心。。晚上要睡觉时的感觉更是难以忍受，心中的寂寞不懂如何形容，也不知道应该告诉谁。因为那晚的心情有些不稳定，所以不敢打给家人，以免一不小心就像喷泉般。=P 过后的每一天就忙着orientation的东西，慢慢进入了状况，心情也慢慢稳定了。这活动蛮好玩，蛮爽的，让我觉得我们的学校很不错，认识了多一些的朋友，学到了一些非常搞笑的cheers。很感谢有朋友的陪伴，让我能更快的适应那里的环境，觉得其实自己并不孤单。这个星期还算是很轻松的，来临的这个星期就要开始分班，上课了。希望能和朋友同班啦，赶快让自己适应这里的一切吧。在这里的两年，我希望能学到很多东西，不要白费这个千载难逢的机会。我觉得自己其实是非常幸运的，能得到这个机会，有机会去见识那里的一切。希望接下来的一切都会顺顺利利，加油!!!
*Taylors的朋友，老师们:
很感谢在过去的半年里，有你们的教导，陪伴，关心，让我过得很开心。我很想念你们!虽然以后见面的机会不多了，但在我心中那段记忆仍然是很珍贵的。我不会忘记你们的，你们也是咯，ok?=P 愿你们前程似锦!!!=) thanks HAR^^ KEEP IN TOUCH!
*亲爱的朋友们:
感谢你们在我寂寞的时候给予的陪伴，鼓励。尤其是mydear..=P ..大家真的是已经开始了通往各自旅程的路途了，大家一起加油吧!!!相聚的日子不多，但在我心深处依然挂念着你们，愿你们一切都很好!!!mmuaks!!!!=) KEEP IN TOUCH!
*亲爱的家人们: 我会好好地加油，保重的，请别为我担心..=)my group..

感谢你们的陪伴。。

爽

2009-06-11T23:07:00.000+08:00

Yeah..刚刚完成了mind map,一个字--爽!!!!!非常爽..不对不对..是非常非常非常爽!!!
很少有机会认真完成一份project或者assignment，但这次竟然有恒心咯，哈哈..现在的心情是龙飞凤舞也不能形容啦 !!!^^
刚才也看完了幕后大老爷，觉得有些空虚。我喜欢这部戏，因为蛮搞笑的..但是最后几集就非常感动，看了就不能自我..(erm..也没那么严重啦=D)
恢复愉快的心情果然只能用爽来形容!!!明天又会是美好的一天，wohoo!!!^_^

原来

2009-06-11T21:09:00.000+08:00

原来有些人
不需要你为他担心
因为
少了你的担心
他还是会过得很好

很好
这样子也好
可以
很根本地断了这份担心

原来真正关心你的人
并不多
这才显得珍惜的重要性吧

无奈
我们总得等到失去后才学会珍惜

会太迟吗?
我觉得不会..

至少
最后
我还是学会了..
#珍惜#

现在内心觉得有些失望,是一些很不必要的失望..
算了吧，看开些..
有人离开，就会有人出现。。
这是不变的定律

考试季节-完结篇

2009-06-11T15:34:00.000+08:00

最后一天咯，终于考完了，心中的感觉并没有异常的兴奋，可能自己并没有真的很拼吧，我自己也知道已经失去了从前的拼劲，无论如何我有信心这个假期后不会再有这样的事情!!!(hmm..最好是这样-_-'')
思绪还是很乱，我知道是时候做决定了，对，就是回去后就要决定了!!!
赶快结束掉这不确定的感觉吧..
在那之前，先relax relax..
幕后大老爷..i'm coming..hehe..^^

port.dickson.trip.photos.

2009-06-11T14:38:00.000+08:00

到port dickson 的时候拍了很多白痴的照片，但是一直都很懒惰upload,现在终于有机会了，hehe..

叫我苍蝇吧 !!haha..

#无法自拔的时候..#-_-'''

^眯眯眼的时候^

Mother's Day 09

2009-06-11T14:06:00.000+08:00

今年的母亲节过得有些特别。有别于以往，今年我们并没有在正日庆祝，因为兄弟姐妹们都没有在家，想到这里真是有些心酸。但幸好我们一星期后都有回家，所以可以庆祝，yeah!!!嘻嘻,而且还很人齐呢..愿天下的母亲都身体健康，天天开心!!!^^

FAMILY

papa & mama (,'')~('',)

^^brothers & sisters^^

hau koko shock tiok eh face..=D

考试季节-二

2009-06-09T22:28:00.000+08:00

今天好惨啊，chemistry paper 真的是 '埋siao siao'..要说难又不是非常难，但是又没有很容易，只能说自己的准备功夫没有做足啦，下次一定要读课外书了，不然真的是'某眼睇' ..
今天因为家里附近的地区都要维修，所以从早上10am到6pm都没有电流供应。本来打算要留在学校读完bio的几个chapters，但是我的眼皮不肯服从命令，最后读完一个chapter就回家了。
虽然我知道回家会很热，但是我没想到会是这样热!!!很感谢发明电和风扇的人，没有他们现在的我们就会整天'焗sona'了吧，难以想象..回到家后就打算睡个一小时的午觉，哪里知道....
竟然睡了三个小时!!!omg..睡到自己都头昏昏 +_+ 本来睡午觉后要和lyn做gym的，结果计划当然是泡汤啦，哈哈，不好意思ne..
明天没有考试所以比较relax些，但明天下午要和哥哥去看戏，所以在那之前一定要读完书，不然回来就siao了..终于有机会看terminator salvation了..
快点考完试啦，象现在这样有点半天吊，不爽啦。。我要加油啊!!!(^_^)

考试季节-一

2009-06-08T22:33:00.000+08:00

抱着尽力就好的心情到学校去，不知是好还是坏。这阵子坦白说，的确是没什么心情读书，但我知道这不是借口。我想应该是自己的懒惰逐渐超越了勤力，唉。。
Thinking Skills 还好，因为这一科本来就没什么信心。。Maths就有些问题，因为不会做='(..
哈哈，但我看开了，还有下一次的嘛。。明天是chemistry了，希望不会令自己失望咯!朋友们，一起加油咯!!^^

家人与梦想

2009-06-07T17:41:00.000+08:00

这其实是个很普遍的问题吧，家人与梦想，该如何抉择？
想了又想，做了决定后依然会被动摇。是我意志太不坚定了吗，还是环境容不得我做此决定？
拿这个scholarship，有好有坏。根据我自己的思想来分析，我觉得：
--〉拿:
-现在的我和家人不需要为了金钱的事而烦恼
-我可以减轻父母的负担(毕竟他们也应该是时候享福了)
-本来应该拿来读书的钱可以留给父母让他们去环游世界，因为他们很喜欢旅行
-我可以靠自己供我自己读书
-毕业后与政府工作，暂时性失去自由(我没说在政府工作不好)
-我可能不能完成梦想(我的梦想很抽象，不懂得如何解释)
-生活平稳(亦可能平淡)
-不懂得以后政府会派我到哪里去工作(虽然这是很遥远的事情)
--〉不拿：
-我必须努力读书，争取大学的scholarship
-家人们必须为我的学费打算，300k不是一笔小数目
-我可能需要依靠很多人的帮忙才有办法完成整个课程
-半工半读
-拥有自由
-可能能在国外有发展

我自己也不懂该如何分析啦，事到如今，真的好累，要这个就会失去那个，要那个就会失去这个，人生不就是如此吗?
x 告诉我应该拿，y告诉我这个机会很难得，不应该放弃，z告诉我自由很重要..%^$^%#$^#$...
拿了一定有出路，但留下来也未必是绝路。。
对我来说，拿了可能是先甜后苦，不拿就可能是先苦后甜..但又有谁能预知未来呢?
The Road Not Taken 这个 poem，最能形容我现在的感受了吧..
我的确不舍得这里的一切，适应了这里的一切，朋友，环境..但我还是比需再三考虑吧..
一切都是钱在做怪..家人毕竟是最重要的吧..我是不是不该那么自私呢?还是应该做些'与众不同'的决定呢?
天晓得吧..

:'(

2009-06-05T00:40:00.000+08:00

心情低落的一天。。
不知所措的一天。。
迷失方向的一天。。
有谁来指引我呢?

omg..

2009-06-04T00:41:00.000+08:00

刚才吃晚餐后，就开车到我即将读的学院去看看，我整整驾了两个小时多的车!!!omg..
原因是我们也不是很清楚地点在哪里，只是上网查看地图后就靠自己去找寻了。。其实本来没有打算要去的，我只是随口说要去看看，怎知道就心血来潮一起去‘探险’了。那学院真的好远，比起我现在住的地方，而且还有些偏僻呢。。看到那个地方后。有些speechless的感觉，真是无法想象我到那里后会过着怎样的生活。现在有太多的未知数了，搞得自己好晕。
或许那里并没那么远啦，只是我们一直走错路，都不知道绕了几个大圈，差不多要走完shah alam 的地区的感觉。唉。。如何是好呢。这样也不对，那样也不对。。天啊。。
刚才晚餐自己在家里吃steamboat..我们到mercato去买菜，然后就全部放进steamboat配饭吃，满特别的，因为没有试过这么做，吃得好饱呢。但是开车找学院已经足够让所有的食物消化了，不然现在应该会饿了吧。。
明天妈妈和阿三要来咯。。期待。。忘掉烦恼吧!!!

彷徨

2009-06-01T18:46:00.001+08:00

等待了那么久，今天终于收到了那封可以决定我命运的信了。。其实在收到前，我就大约知道它的去向了，信只是使我更加确定而已。这个问题已经算是困扰我好一段日子了，老是在想我会得到去哪里继续我的学业，如果这样会怎样，如果那样又会怎样。。直到现在，我自己也还没有一个很确定的答案。。

别管那么多啦，下个星期就是考试了，先考好再说，虽然这个考试不算很重要，但又不是完全不重要。我现在还蛮彷徨的，不知到底该怎么办。最近的心情总是七上八下的。感觉也是如此。。

我得到了twinning programme,不能说是不好，但不是我想象中要的东西吧，所以一直在想是否有更好的出路。
人是不是都是如此的呢？没得到的东西要想尽办法得到，得到之后又想要更好的。。
好混乱复杂的思想。但在我心底的深处，我依然很感恩能得到这份奖学金。。
这几天，想起了从前的一些事情但不知如何形容。。很奇妙的感觉。
如果我真的要接受那份‘恩赐’，这个星期也算是我在taylors的最后一个星期上课的日子。得好好珍惜，其他的烦恼慢慢来吧。。加油!!!

起伏

2009-05-24T00:05:00.000+08:00

今天的心情起伏有些大。
早上-平静
中午-犹豫~痛苦~释怀
晚上-轻松~惭愧
唉，都怪自己做事情时都是吊儿郎当啦，从来都不想太认真，这样会让我很压力。
回想起从前，我的确不是个很守诺言的人，那我又有什么资格要他人对我信守承诺呢？
被我伤害过的人。。我真的很对不起。很抱歉。除了这些，我想不到可以说些什么了。
我不值得被你们信任，珍惜吧。交到我这样的朋友，让你们头痛咯，哈哈。
此时心中有得感觉，除了惭愧，懊悔，想不到其他的形容词了。
我很珍惜朋友，但总用错方法。总是让你们觉得失望，很对不起。。
我很珍惜你们，不需要相信，只要我自己知道就好。
保重哦。。

Final Decision

2009-05-23T18:22:00.000+08:00

我决定了。。一定要拿了。不要再想任何理由或者借口来逃避了。
虽然我自己也知道答案是应该，但心里的恶魔老是缠着我。
最终，这个恶魔被另外一个更可怕的恶魔--RabbitTing给打败了。=D
哈哈。我一定要放松地加油!!!

累

2009-05-21T22:54:00.000+08:00

最近好累啊。。为了应付sem exam 咯。哎，最后还是决定要拿这个考试，都不知道自己喜欢虐待自己还是什么。真的很不想拿，但过不了自己那一关。希望一切都能顺顺利利啦。已经完成了一部分了，但还有大部分等着我，只好继续加油啦。
上学的生活很充实，但真的有够累的。但现在的累比以前好多了，至少现在的行程并没以前那么匆忙。回想起从前，自己也很好奇到底当初是怎么度过那些日子的。那些日子只能怀念啦，如果还要过多一次那么忙碌的生活，我也没有信心能否顺利度过咯。哈哈。
自己的意志力好像变弱了，没有从前那么坚强了。是环境在放纵我吗？随便啦，趁还能享受和放松就尽量啦，未来还有得忙呢，slow and steady 咯。
真希望自己能像我所说的那么洒脱，尽力咯!=D

茫然

2009-05-20T19:33:00.000+08:00

我会后悔吗？
我不知道。。至少现在的我真的没办法有感觉。放手，是想让彼此过得好些。我知道我非常自私，也很感谢你这段日子以来的包容，体谅。除了抱歉，我不知应该说些什么了。别再遗憾了。。
或许在第一次的错过以后，我们就永远的错过彼此了吧。
请别伤心了，我希望你会开心地过你的新生活，我相信你会过得很好，也请你一定要过得很好。我不要求你能立刻面对我，但我真心珍惜你这位朋友，从以前到现在。。你的付出，关心，我都不会忘记。未来还有很多路要去闯，在那些日子里，我们或许会减少联络吧，无论如何，你一定要坚强，没有我的日子里，我相信你会过得更好。
诚心祝福你。。

欢乐时光。。

2009-05-03T21:08:00.000+08:00

终于到了可以放松的时刻了，考完试的那一天，ting姐姐就来找我了，很开心，因为可以暂时不必那么寂寞了，哈哈。那天，我真的很relax，那晚我们就到midvalley的蓬莱餐厅吃台湾吃，很开心，可以吃那么丰富的一餐。回的路上又历史重演-迷路。但是这次没什么严重了，因为转一个弯，就可以回到了对的路途，真是阿弥陀佛。。那晚回到家后就忙着收拾行李，因为隔天就要到portdickson，爽！当时，就忙着'fashion show'咯，想着要带什么衣服去才好。弄了好久，才决定要带什么衣服去，又忙着晒干及熨衣服，爱美是这样咯=P 过后我们就看康熙来了，让自己哈哈大笑就进入梦乡咯。。
劳动节来临了。。3位美女堂姐来载我们，准备出发到portdickson去咯，蛮兴奋的！他们三个人很好笑的，动作及说的话都很好可爱，虽然他们已经贵为人母了，但完全看不出来哦，厉害吧，嘻嘻。我们到我家附近吃了一顿非常不满意的早餐后就出发了。不满意是因为他们的服务不好有像乌龟那般，慢！那天的路上都好塞车啊，因为是公共假期，大家都南下去度假，但幸好我们的行程没被耽搁。路上都有说有笑的，我们还到seremban的jusco去买了些零食及一瓶红酒，打算来个不醉不归，哈哈。但最后还是因为忍受不了红酒的味道，我只喝了一杯，但已经有点要我的命了，哈哈。
到了PD后才知道原来那边就像一个乡下那般，那是我第一次到PD,所以还蛮新奇的，嘻嘻。我们住的酒店还算不错啦，有人照沙滩，泳池及真正的沙滩。。我们到了后就一起出去走走，还拍了好多奇怪的照片，哈哈。当时的太阳那么猛烈，真不知是什么使我们愿意忍受那炽热的阳光。。市青春吗？哈哈。。XD 那时虽然热，但是海风还蛮大的，所以就不错啦。。过后又回房间小休，睡了一觉，让自己精神些。过后每个人就穿上泳装，woo!我们已开始还害羞害羞的，但过了一阵子就习惯了，我们赤着脚去走走。走在那布满小石的路上，有些痛苦啊。过后我们就一起去玩bananaboat，那个人把我们载到蛮远的，所以当时的确有些害怕，因为我不会游泳，哈哈。。说来惭愧，说要学那么久了最后还是一事无成啊。跌入水中有觉得自己跌在很深的地方，所以有些挣扎，哪里知道原来。。我的脚是动得到地上的！哈哈。。很搞笑咯当时的情况。
晚上呢，大家就在争论着要穿得多好看，因为还要到pasarmalam去，不敢穿得太亮丽，哈哈。那天的晚餐很好吃耶，跟早上的相比简直天壤之别！他们的服务非常好，环境不错，吃了也开心。嘻嘻。。回到酒店时，发现那边的carpark已经full了，真的是很可恶啊，不懂是什么酒店来，car park那么小！过后我们就跟guard理论，要他给我们进去park,因为如果park在外面非常危险，车子又不是普通的车耶，堂姐很勇敢哦，跟guard讲到他不得不点头。过分的是那个guard还要求rm5，什么世界??@#@!聪明的堂姐只给他rm3，堂姐说她没散钱了，蛮高招的，哈哈。但有给他钱就好了咯。。还要求那么高价。。呸!回到酒店后，我们就开了红酒来喝，配些零食，然后呼呼大睡。。哈哈，因为真的是玩得好累了。对了，那晚我们都化装呢，真是难得啊。。哈哈。
隔天，我们就出发回到KL了，唱K时间到!yeah..!!!我们只唱了约三个小时，因为赶着回家去准备看演唱会!
期待的一刻终于来到了，Lee Hom 王力宏Music Man世界巡回大马演唱会正式引爆!!!当时也是很塞车，幸好花了一些时间而已就找到了车位。本来要买荧光棒，但因为错过了前面比较便宜的，就没买了，里面卖的价钱吓死人。。过后又绕了一大圈，才找到了正确的入口，但幸好我们还是来得及的。这演唱会有好多人啊，人数竟然达到二万五!!!很兴奋啊，那么多人一起喊，刺激!嘻嘻。。这个演唱会很有创意，我很喜欢它的舞台设计，非常有看头。若硬要挑毛病，对我来说只是音效不够好而已，因为有些杂音，其他的都很棒!!!它的主题很不错，leehom解释说因为他很喜欢看漫画，所以他想要把自己设计成一个漫画人物，功能是拯救音乐，所以就有了MusicMAN!!!很有创意的idea。。开场前，Daniel Lee 和Kay 先出场表演，其实他们还是不错的，没什么意见。演唱会的开场很特别，银幕上还会出现一些搞笑的内容，说：演唱会禁止过渡安静，如果您过渡安静，将会有保安人员带您离开现场。过程将会引起过渡兴奋，请小心。。等类似的内容，惹得大家都笑了出来。我也不能记得正确的内容了，总之就差不多是这样啦。开场的时候是leehom带着他的吉他从天而降，以一首《摇滚怎么了》开场，蛮特别的。大家都不断地尖叫，我们当然也是咯，嘻嘻。。leehom表演了好多才艺，包括吉他，钢琴，小提琴，打鼓。。令我影响深刻的有两个部分。第一个就是他以小王的身份出现，说要表演打鼓给大家看，过后又出现小力及小红，他们都竟然是同一张脸--王力宏!很神奇耶，最神奇的是过后中间舞台出现了真正的王力宏，唱着歌出现!!!当时大家都很惊讶，尖叫声不断。我觉得画面应该是一早就拍好了的，出现的应该只是替身而已吧。另外一个精彩部分就是他哼着一首自己做的诗时，在舞台上进入了一个箱子，最后竟然奇迹般的在歌迷去出现!搞得那一区的歌迷都迫不及待涌上去，满轰动的，哈哈。他们就爽咯，值回票价。相同地，他已《摇滚怎么了》结尾，然后‘跳’下去，很有型!!!演唱会约有两个小时半，大家都非常依依不舍。一直盼望着他会再出来，所以大会就报告了两次，宣布演唱会正式的结束。出去后，看见有人穿演唱会的衣服和拿着他的周边产品，所以就激起了我们想要买的欲望。但是。。打排长龙啊!!!没办法，为了要买，我们还是乖乖的区排队了，当时我们的身上都身无分文，只好先向堂姐借咯，嘻嘻。我买了一件衣服和一个帽子，ting姐姐也买了一样的衣服和一个袋子。有些后悔没买那个袋子，但是算了吧。虽然还蛮贵的，但衣服的布质很好，所以值咯!有些大条，但还是ok啦。。因为是五月天的阿信design的，哈哈。过后他们就载我们回家，很不幸的是，铁门被表哥锁了，无家可归!!!可恶。。所以只好回堂姐家睡，当时真的是很不好意思哦。让他们白白绕了一个大圈!
今天跟堂姐们一起吃早餐后，hau哥哥就载我们到sunwaypyramid去，因为依然无家可归。但是我们就血拼到了几件衣服，算是很有收获，哈哈。我买了三件，真的是要好好控制自己的budget了，omg..
明天就开学了，好快啊，都来不及好好休息。明天又有test,但不能读，因为notes借朋友了，天啊!!!明天只好早起到学校去向朋友借来读，但愿一切顺利!!!这个星期一定要读书了，不要再有借口咯!!!

忙碌的生活好累。。

2009-05-03T20:46:00.000+08:00

已经有一个星期没有更新我的blog了，因为最近实在是太累，又没什么心情写。开学后的每一天都过得好忙好忙，想要好好地休息一天都不行。数学的功课总是那么多，上个星期又忙着Malaysian Study的考试，终于可以对它说byebye了，但下个星期又开始MoralStudy了。简直是没什么分别嘛，听说这科还比较难呢，都不知是福是祸。开学的每一天都没什么特别的，过得很充实。上个星期二29/04/2009，就是学院的奖学金颁奖典礼，那时真的很兴奋，因为没参加过学院的典礼，有些好奇，又可以不用上课，哈哈。那天还蛮匆忙的，因为有些事情吧出发的时间给耽搁了，到了subang，只好吃McD来解决午餐，而且也吃得好狼狈哦，原因是离典礼的时间很接近。那天的典礼有很多人，幸运的我，有得和同伴同学在一起，因为我们是同一个category的。上台之前好紧张，但是过后就放下心头大石了。只是在台上的时候好紧张，不知哪个cameraman有没有把我最好看的一刻拍下来=P 典礼结束后，我就和朋友们拍了些照片，当时的感觉有些像毕业典礼，满爽的，哈哈。
星期四，是MalaysianStudy的考试，也是我自从Spm后的第一次正式考试，觉得有些紧张。但是考试时间是在下午，在这样的时间考试，真的好累啊！所以作答时没什么精神，希望一切顺利咯，我也已经尽力了。
考完后的心情，真的是很爽！！因为有三天的假期，wohoo!!!

不潮不用花钱

2009-04-20T23:34:00.000+08:00

这几天老是乱乱花钱，实在是有点不能去了..是时候面对现实了!
上星期和安哥哥还有姐姐去penang one day trip。很爽咯，有shopping,有eating,有singing..我们终于有一起去唱k了!那天还蛮high的，歌都乱乱唱，根本就是发泄，我也不管唱到声音破了没，喉咙有点痛了，但就是要发泄，乱乱喊叫!huhu..
回去虽然有一个星期多那么久，但和朋友相聚的日子真的很少，有些遗憾不能出席一次与朋友的聚餐，因为被可恶的病魔给缠上了!!!恨啊!!!所以想要来个大合照的愿望短时间无法实现了，大家这回是真的要开始各奔前程了。Matriks的名单出了，我得了，很多朋友也得了，他们都很开心，我也为他们开心。但是我依然无法与他们一起前进，这是事实，它是残忍的。对于没得到的朋友们，我相信还有更美好的事情在等你们，别气馁咯!=D 我真的很想念我亲爱的家人及朋友们，尤其是这次回去后再回来读书的感觉，让我觉得有些孤单。。
对于迟到的事情，我想对朋友们说声：对不起!因为那真不是我所愿的，希望你们都能明白。
回来后的日子过得还蛮充实的，果然拿书本回去的决定是错的，我根本没心读书，只有专心于享受，哈哈!!昨天和今天终于有认认真真地读书做功课了，是个很好的开始，希望这一切不会太迟，是时候认真咯。。
明天开学了，但愿一切会顺顺利利!
祝福所有我爱和我爱的人!^^

思念~战友

2009-04-20T23:19:00.000+08:00

成长的岁月里
因为你们，我不孤单

从前
一同奋斗的日子
我不会忘记
一同吃苦的日子
我难以忘怀

过程中，
难免会有些无法避免的摩擦
但是这已为我们之间的友谊
打下了更深的基础

筹办活动
熬夜
已经是司空见惯
我很怀念

无论未来如何
请要记得我们曾共同经历的一切
因为那是见证我们友谊成长的岁月！

~珍重~

思念~朋友

2009-04-20T22:59:00.000+08:00

思念
我思念从前和朋友一同疯狂的日子

一同
一同在课室里说着某某人或某某老师的坏话

小小声说
大大声笑

怀念
我怀念从前无话不说的日子
怀念在上课时间买食物吃的狼狈样子

考试
让我们烦恼
让我们互吐苦水
抱怨着考卷多么难

上课
总爱说悄悄话
谈论着与课文相差十万八千里的事情

补习
占据着我们大部分的时间
也让我们的距离越来越近

明星偶像
互相交换彼此意见
‘他很帅’，‘他是我的’。。

闹脾气
无谓地误会
我不想睬你
你不想睬我

但是
这道冰
却总能很轻易地被破解

那就是
朋友

我亲爱的你们
愿你们都过得很好！

健康真好！

2009-04-14T13:00:00.000+08:00

这几天让‘发烧’和‘喉咙痛’给缠上了，所以都不能更新blog。生病的感觉真痛苦，这段期间我只有一个想法，就是：健康真好!暂且不谈生病的一切，因为我想发表对于Special Training 的意见。
这个活动对我来说算是成功的，至少它是顺利的，并且给我一些快乐的回忆。当天的一切，让我感觉回到了从前，不同的是我的身上少了霸气，哈哈。并没像以前那样，一直要别人认真地作一件事情，当天我只要求我的同伴们能帮忙做些事，那就足够了。原来这样做，的确会让自己过得更快乐，哈哈。相隔了几天，当时的感想也有些不见了，现在只能凭着记忆，写下些较特别的事情。
当时分number train时，我觉得这个活动有个很好的开始，因为这的确能让他们之间了解彼此的差异，并寻求最好的方法，统一每个人的动作，唯有这样，下一代才不会出现不一样的教法吧。所以当时我就很肯定了，我们办这个活动是应该并值得的!我觉得这一代的他们，都有自己各自的特色，他们彼此的互动算蛮少的，希望这活动能把他们的距离更拉近一些啦。
心灵交流方面，我突然觉得自己不能像以前那样说得滔滔不绝了，是太久没在他们面前说话，还是我根本就没这个能力呢?我也不清楚。无论如何，我想表达的，的确都对他们说了，因此也算没什么遗憾了啦，美中不足的是我不能进行marching performance,无法完整这个training，但就算是有这个缺陷，也应该不是那么重要了吧，至少过程是享受的，哈哈。你们要加油咯!
当天的活动结束后，回家就开始生病了，真是可恶啊!好端端的，竟然给我生病!根本就不在我的计划里面，使得我隔天不能到penang去,其实还真的是蛮内疚的，本来隔天要和妈妈一起到penang去和姐姐一起回来的，但因为生病了，造成这完美的计划被逼取消，真是很恨自己啊，不照顾好身体，使得妈妈不能去。她当然是没怪我啦，但我肯定是觉得很不好意思地嘛。
生了这场病，让我不能做好多事情，随心所欲的发表意见，唱歌，乱乱说话。。。突然觉得应该好好感谢自己的声音，器官，一切。。感恩啦!爱我的家人，生病的这段期间麻烦你们啦，要你们照顾我，喂我吃药啊，担心这，担心那的，我很爱你们啊!
现在病情总算是接近康复的阶段了，以后一定要好好照顾身体啦,不想让爱我的人担心。
功课依然还没动手，不知何时才有心去弄，希望不会太久，真是好害怕啊，过了这个假期，一定要认认真真地温习功课了，不然后果不堪设想。
刚才到popular去买了些书来看，很想养成阅读的好习惯，希望我能持之以恒啦。
假期只剩下短短的几天而已，真的很不想那么快就开学。回到了kl,我就要继续过着'独行侠'的生活了，回到家里只剩自己，三餐不定。。其实没那么可怜啦，哈哈。只是生活会过得有些孤独，唉，化孤独为力量，专心读书好了，加油!

<<回到过去>>

2009-04-10T00:01:00.000+08:00

终于到家咯。。
昨天下午，我又再度穿上了Full-T，回到学校去开DAB meeting。再次穿回曾经非常熟悉的衣服，心里的感觉是错综复杂的，我觉得我好像又回到了从前，继续忙碌于活动的事物。但有点必需承认的是，我比从前更胖了，裤子好紧啊，哈哈。。开会时，我才发现原来我还是很在乎现在社团里所发生的一切，即使我曾以为自己会对这一切不以为然。我依然像以前一样，总会给许多意见，包括‘无止境的劝告’。。很怀念从前的一切，这些只能收在心里啦。
昨天和哥哥去看了《新宿事件》，不出我所料，果然很暴力。故事大纲是还不错的，非常现实，写实，只是不适合小孩子看，会影响他们幼小的心灵，哈哈。
今天一整天就忙着计划明天为Competitors'09举办的Special Training，虽然是有些挫折啦，但大部分还蛮顺利的，而且也不怎么有压力，大概是因为现在看得比较开了吧。不再像从前那么执著的想要一切办得很成功，我只希望每位出席的人能享受明天的一切，这我就心满意足了。这次的活动有别于以往，‘开会’的方式很先进，都是通过e-mail或者msn,觉得很爽，因为感觉很跟得上潮流。其实不但如此啦，而是觉得自己办事情方面又有些进步了，所以很开心。明天是否能像计划进行得那么顺利，我不知道，只希望能留个美好的回忆给大家，所以进行活动的方式我想要很free style.这样才爽!!我很感谢翠，因为我今天烦了她很久，她依然很愿意帮助我，我衷心地感谢她，也觉得我很幸运，能有这么多好朋友。敬恩也回来了，所以觉得明天的活动更有意义了，好像就是个比较正式的聚会。明天会是个充实的一天，下午忙完后，晚上又会有真正的gathering了，好期待哦!毕竟过了这次，大家也得真正劳燕分飞了。
遗憾的是，下午的活动依然有些好友不能出席，但我不会怪他们，因为我已不是那个不懂事的我了，我会学着包容他人，就从这件事开始吧。
他还是不肯理我，说他需要时间，我不知道为什么他需要那么多时间，也许我真的是冷血的吧。但我很想告诉他，我依然把他当好朋友，我不想白白失去一位知己，那是很不值得的。但愿我们之间的彩虹能赶快出现!
祝福明天的一切。。

Balik Kampung!!

2009-04-07T15:10:00.000+08:00

还有约两个小时，我就会搭乘Transnational的巴士会到我亲爱的家乡-Alor Star了。
今天早上醒得很准时，刚巧我要起身时，电话的闹钟就很负责任地执行任务了。
起身后就赶紧洗衣服，不想回来后看见还有那么多事情没完成。奇迹的是，我竟然有想要打扫房子的冲动，但也不是做很多啦，只是扫地，抹地，擦干净房间里的一切。嗯，觉得很有成就感，哈哈。。
过后呢，就收拾好要准备带回家的东西咯，真的好多耶，想尽办法要减少带回去的东西，但还是不能，因为要带书本，功课，衣服，笔记电脑。。累!待会儿应该会搬行李到像个白痴吧，拿那么多东西。没办法，做巴士的悲哀。。
刚才做家务时，想了很多东西。其中一样就是：如果爱的反面就是恨，那就不是真爱了吧。想到酱的事情是有原因的啦，不能想象为什么做不成情人，连友情的距离也要被拉远呢？不想要发生酱的事情，却无法避免，算了吧，可能时间真的是最好的魔术师吧，希望它能把一切都冲淡，回到愉快自在相处的日子。。
我要回来咯，亲爱的家人，朋友。。！！

疲惫但有意义的一天^^

2009-04-06T22:58:00.000+08:00

今天差点忘了自己有blog了，刚才无聊时才‘不小心’想起，哈哈。今天只能说是非常疲倦的一天。有很多原因啦，最主要就是因为自己昨晚迟睡了，真是‘应该’。。今天很早就醒了咯，虽然跟平时差不多一样时间啦，但是因为昨晚太迟睡了，醒得很不甘愿。
今天去了Nottingham和IMU看环境，并了解要升学的基本需求。觉得要读到大学去真是件不简单的事情。虽然他们是私立大学，但入学条件并不是所谓的‘有钱使得鬼推魔’，还得靠真才实学的。
先谈谈Nottingham，这的确是一所很吸引我的大学，因为它的环境非常优美。此外，它的设备可称得上是一流啊，有运动设施，食堂，空旷的场地。。但美中不足的是地点有些偏僻，还蛮偏离城市的，造成我有些犹豫。现在就犹豫似乎有些早，但我想订下一个目标，不想茫然的追寻着不知名的方向。
至于IMU嘛，就缺少了些大学生活的感觉，因为它只是一栋建筑物，并没有空旷的地方给我们活动，所以没什么兴趣。但是呢，进去的时候看见全部学生都穿得很formal,觉得有种非常专业的感觉。这是必然的吧，在那里的不是未来医生就是未来牙医，不然就是未来药剂师，要不专业都难。哈哈。。
今天是和Jin，还有她的两个church mate去的。谢谢他们啦，没有他们我们也不会到那里去。今天的收获还真丰富，得到入学资料，又认识了两位新朋友，感恩啊!
要达到这些大学的需求，我所得到的结论就是必须考好现在的考试，所以我要把握当下，因为只有把握现在，才会有所谓的将来，加油啦，陈慧恩!!!!

*今天要到Jin的家去时又再出现状况--迷路，哈哈。这次的状况我就没那么害怕了，因为我身上有足够的钱，车油也满饱满的，而且是早上，所以可以放心的寻找出路，哈哈。所以真是经一事，长一智，爽！我跟着Jin的指示，但不小心错过了某个转弯，就出到了可以回吉打的tol.还真想直接驾回去。幸好我临危不乱，终于看见有另外一条可通往她的家的路去，所以镇定的确是非常重要的。。谨记咯！

休息站终于开启了^^

2009-04-05T20:04:00.000+08:00

好不容易，终于下定决心写下一个新的blog.刚刚看完了自己的旧blog，想起很多以前的东西，觉得写blog是一件有趣却又令人回忆起以前的东西，所以就‘动手’了。
我说‘好不容易’是因为我要写blog已经是很久以前的事情了，有多久我自己也不是很清楚了，不知这次是否有这个恒心一直写下去，但我会尽力！想看自己到底有多么想帮自己实现一件事情。
现在已是假期了，但我还是没动到我的功课，'懒散'已经看上了我，但'努力'正在追赶过来了，相信明天还是后天就会到了吧，总得给他们一点时间吧=P
想写blog是由理由的，平时有心事时都不知道该怎么向别人诉说，只好把一切告诉我的‘休息站’咯。。此外，也是不想我的中文就此退步，毕竟以后用中文的机会，已经比以往少了很多很多。
昨晚看了Fast and Furious 4这部电影，觉得还不错，是个值得一看的电影，里面有很多赛车的镜头，我对赛车不是很有兴趣，但还是被他们的技术给吸引了，想必对赛车迷来说更是不可错过的一部好戏吧。
就这样啦，恭贺属于我的休息站终于开启了^^